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TABLE OF CONTENTS
 
FREDERIK POHL Introduction
GERALD KERSH Whatever Happened to Corporal Cuckoo?
C. M. KORNBLUTH The Advent on Channel Twelve 
ALFRED BESTER Disappearing Act 
ELISABETH MANN BORGESE Twin's Wail 
WILLIAM MORRISON Country Doctor 
ROBERT BLOCH Daybroke
ARTHUR C. CLARKE The Deep Range 
HENRY KUTTNER A Cross of Centuries 
H. L. GOLD The Man with English 
GAVIN HYDE Sparkie's Fall
FRITZ LEIBER Space-Time for Springers 
RICHARD MATHESON Dance of the Dead 
JACK WILLIAMSON The Happiest Creature 
JEROME BIXBY It's a Good Life
 
INTRODUCTION
 
In 1953 the first volume of Star Science Fiction Stories appeared. It was a 
curious, hybrid publishing format, not quite a magazine and yet not very like 
the ordinary varieties of book. Its plan was simply to find enough of the best 
science fiction stories that could be had and to print them; and the one 
editorial rule established was that they must never have been published before.
It is only rules of that sortmechanical rules, rules which admit of a simple 
yes-no answerthat can rigorously be applied in the selection of science 
fiction stories. Every other rule begins with a numerous class of exceptions. 
Science fiction is not stories about the future. Or about space. Or about 
technology. It is all of these things, and more than them. Science fiction lies 
in the eye of the beholder. In fact, said the introduction to that first volume 
of Star, it is a limitless field, as spacious as space itself. Publisher, 
critic, and a good many readers have a tendency to think of science fiction as 
one of the "categories" of publishing, in the specific sense of the term, like 
detective stories and Westerns. But unless you can think of The Big Sky as a 
Western or Hamlet as a whodunit, you can hardly class in a tight little group so 
widely variant an assortment of stories as justly fit under the common label of 
science fiction.
 
Was that a fair estimate of the situation? Well, let's look at the record.
Since then there have been eight volumes of one sort or another in the Star 
series. The aggregate is seventy-five stories, amounting to some half-million 
words. They have among them carried us to nearly all the planets of the solar 
system, including our own earth (both surface and interior) and its moon; we 
have circled many foreign stars and wandered in the space between them. In time 
we have seen both past and futureincluding a past that never really was (see 
Bester's "Disappearing Act") and futures that, heaven grant, will never be at 
all. (See the assorted waspish predictions of Kornbluth, Matheson, and Bloch.) 
Earth itself was invaded many times, for many reasons; half a dozen times 
civilization was destroyed. (And half, a dozen more times it should have been. 
Surely such surviving cultures as those of Kornbluth and Matheson, for two, are 
really better off dead.)
But these themes, situations, and events are no more than the pegs on which 
Star's fifty-six contributors hung their imaginings. Science fiction can be, 
when it chooses, a literature of ideas. If Star proved anything in seven years, 
surely it proved that there are ideas which can be explored in no other way.
The stories included in this volume can speak for themselves, but perhaps we can 
spare a word for some which, for one reason or another, had to be left out. The 
only volume in the series not represented is Star Short Novels, and that 
because, though each of its three stories by Lester del Ray, Jessamyn West and 
Theodore Sturgeonwas a memorable work, any one of them would by sheer mass have 
squeezed out three or four others. It seemed a necessary rule that the very 
longest stories simply could not be made to fit.
The other ground rule observed in constructing the present volume was that, 
given a choice, the story less frequently reprinted would get the nod. On that 
sharp edge of decision were lost such ornaments as the Bradburys, the Asimovs, 
the Sheckleys, and a dozen others. A few stories simply would not allow 
themselves to be left out for any reason at all, and so Leiber's tale is here in 
spite of its having appeared in a previous collection, Clarke's despite its 
having formed the basis of his full-dress novel of the same name, and so on. But 
the number is quite few. Of the fourteen stories herein, only four have appeared 
anywhere in this country except for their first use in Star itself.
It seems at this point more than likely that there will be no future issues of 
Star. It would not be fitting to see it end without some words of thanks. I 
acknowledge deep gratitude, then, to the writers who gave it fine stories, to 
the critics who treated all of its incarnations most kindly and, most of all, to 
Ian Ballantine, least remote of publishers, who conceived the plan of the series 
in the first place and, with endless patience, saw its editor through eight 
ill-kept deadlines.
 
FREDERIK POHL
 
Red Bank, New Jersey February, 1960
 
GERALD KERSH
 
Gerald Kersh writes much and very well, and Star's pleasure in having a Kersh to 
offer is one that has been shared by most of the best magazines in the world. 
Yet no matter where he appears, in sober, mass-circulation company or in small 
and select, the man has always his own flavor. He tastes of the wry, he exudes 
the not-quite-probable. This is the bouquet of the science fictioneer; and when 
Kersh turns to our sort of subject matter he shapes it with a sure handas you 
can see for yourself in
 
Whatever Happened to Corporal Cuckoo
 
Several thousand officers and privates of the U. S. Army who fought in Europe in 
World War II can bear witness to certain basic facts in this otherwise 
incredible story.
Let me refresh my witnesses' memories:
The Cunard White Star liner Queen Mary sailed from Greenock, at the mouth of the 
river Clyde, on July 6th, 1945, bound for New York, packed tight with 
passengers. No one who made that voyage can have forgotten it: there were 
fourteen thousand men aboard; a few ladies; and one dog. The dog was a gentle, 
intelligent German shepherd, saved from slow and painful death by a young 
American officer in Holland. I was told that this brave animal, exhausted, and 
weak with hunger, had tried to jump over a high barbed-wire fence, and had got 
caught in the barbs on the top strand, where it hung for days, unable to go 
forward or backward. The young officer helped it down, and so the dog fell in 
love with the man, and the man fell in love with the dog. Pets are not allowed 
on troopships. Still, the young officer managed to get his dog on board. Rumor 
has it that his entire company swore that they would not return to the United 
States without the dog, so that the authorities were persuaded to stretch a 
point, just for once; this is what Kipling meant when he referred to The Power 
Of The Dog. Everyone who sailed on the Queen Mary from Greenock on July 6th, 
1954, remembers that dog. It came aboard in a deplorable state, arching its 
bedraggled back to ease its poor injured stomach, and when you stroked it, you 
felt its skeleton under the sickly, staring coat. After about three days of 
affectionate carehalf a hundred strong hungry men begged or stole bits of meat 
for its sakethe dog began to recover. By July 11th, when the Queen Mary docked 
in New York, the dog was taking a dog's interest in a soft rubber ball with 
which several officers were playing on the sun deck.
I bring all this back into memory to prove that I was there, as a war 
correspondent, on my way to the Pacific. Since I was wearing battledress and a 
beard, I also must have been conspicuous, that voyage. And the secret school of 
illicit crapshooters must remember me with nostalgic affection: I arrived in New 
York with exactly fifteen cents, and had to borrow five dollars from an amiable 
Congregationalist minister named John Smith, who also will testify to the fact 
that I was on board. If further evidence were needed, a lady nurse, Lieutenant 
Grace Dimichele, of Vermont, took my photograph as we came into port.
But in the excitement of that tremendous moment, when thousands of men were 
struggling and jostling, laughing and crying, and snapping cameras at the New 
York skyline, which is the most beautiful in the world, I lost Corporal Cuckoo. 
I have made exhaustive inquiries as to his whereabouts, but that extraordinary 
man had disappeared like a puff of smoke.
Surely, there must be scores of men who retain some memory of Cuckoo, whom they 
must have seen hundreds and hundreds of times on the Queen Mary between July 6th 
and July 11th, 1945?
He was a light-haired man of medium height, but he must have weighed at least a 
hundred and ninety pounds, for he was ponderously built, and had enormously 
heavy bones. I beg my fellow passengers to remember, if they can. He had watery 
eyes of greenish-gray, and limped a little on his right leg. His teeth were 
powerfullarge, square and slightly protruding; but generally he kept them 
covered with his thick, curiously wrinkled lips. People in general are 
unobservant, I know, but no one who saw Corporal Cuckoo could fail to remember 
his scars. There was a frightful indentation in his skull, between his left 
eyebrow and his right ear. When I first noticed him, I remembered an ax murder 
at which I shuddered many years ago when I was a crime reporter. He must have an 
extraordinary constitution if he lives to walk around with a scar like that, I 
thought. His chin and throat were puckered scar tissue such as marks the place 
where flesh has been badly burned and well healed. Half of his right ear was 
missing and close by there was another scar, from cheekbone to mastoid. The back 
of his right hand appeared to have been hacked with a knife I counted at least 
four formidable cuts, all old and white and deep. He conveyed this impression: 
that a long time ago, a number of people had got together to butcher him with 
hatchets, sabers, and knives, and that in spite of their most determined efforts 
he had survived. For all his scars were old. Yet the man was youngnot more than 
thirty-five, as I guessed.
He filled me with a burning curiosity. One of you must remember him! He went 
about, surly and unsociable, smoking cigarettes which he never took out of his 
mouthhe smoked them down and spat the ends out only when the fire touched his 
lips. That, I thought, must be why his eyes are so watery. He moped about, 
thinking, or brooding. He was particularly addicted to loitering on the stairs 
and lurking in dark corners. I made tentative inquiries about him around the 
decks; but just then everyone was passionately interested in an officer who 
looked like Spencer Tracy. But in the end I found out for myself.
 
Liquor, also, was prohibited on troopships. Having been warned of this, I took 
the precaution of smuggling some bottles of whiskey aboard. On the first day out 
I offered a drink to a captain of infantry. Before I knew where I was, I had 
made seventeen new friends who overwhelmed me with affability and asked for my 
autograph; so that on the second day, having thrown the last of the empty 
bottles out of the porthole, I was glad to sponge a drink off Mr. Charles 
Bennett, the Hollywood playwright. (He, too, if his modesty permits, will bear 
witness that I am telling the truth.) He gave me a ginger-ale bottle full of 
good Scotch, which I concealed in the blouse of my battledress, not daring to 
let any of my friends know that I had it. Late in the evening of the third day, 
I withdrew to a quiet spot where there was a strong-enough diffusion of yellow 
light for me to read by. I intended to struggle again through some of the poems 
of Francois Villon, and to refresh myself at intervals with a spot of Mr. 
Bennett's Scotch. It was hard to find an unoccupied place beyond locked doors on 
the Queen Mary at that time, but I found one. I was trying to read Villon's 
Ballade of Good Counsel, which that great poet wrote in medieval underworld 
slang, which is all but incomprehensible even to erudite Frenchmen who have 
studied the argot of the period. I repeated the first two lines aloud, hoping to 
talk some new meaning into them:
 
Car ou soie porteur de bulles 
Pipeur ou hasardeur de dez
 
Then a languid voice said: "Hello there! What do you know about it?"
I looked up and saw the somber, scarred face of the mysterious corporal half in 
and half out of the shadows. There was nothing to do but offer him a drink, for 
I had the bottle in my hand, and he was looking at it. He thanked me curtly, 
half emptied the little bottle in one gulp and returned it to me. "Pipeur ou 
hasardeur de dez," he said, sighing. "That's old stuff. Do you like it, sir?"
I said, "Very much indeed. What a great man Villon must have been. Who else 
could have used such debased language to such effect? Who else could have taken 
thieves' patterwhich is always uglyand turned it into beautiful poetry?"
"You understand it, eh?" he asked, with a half laugh. 
"I can't say that I do," I said, "but it certainly makes poetry."
"Yes, I know."
"Pipeur ou hasardeur de dez. You might as well try to make poetry out of 
something like this, `I don't care if you run some Come-to-Jesus racket, or 
shoot craps ... I' 
Who are you? What's the idea? It's a hell of a long time since they allowed you 
to wear a beard in the army."
"War correspondent," I said. "My name is Kersh. You might as well finish this."
He emptied the little bottle and said, "Thanks, Mr. Kersh. My name is Cuckoo."
He threw himself down beside me, striking the deck like a sack of wet sand. 
"Yeahp ... I think I will sit down," he said. Then he took my little book in his 
frightfully scarred right hand, flapped it against his knee, and then gave it 
back to me. "Hasardeur de dez!" he said, in an outlandish accent.
"You read Villon, I see," I said.
"No, I don't. I'm not much of a reader."
"But you speak French? Where did you learn it?" I asked.
"In France."
"On your way home now?"
"I guess so."
"You're not sorry, I daresay."
"No, I guess not."
"You were in France?"
"Holland."
"In the army long?"
"Quite a while."
"Do you like it?"
"Sure. It's all right, I guess. Where are you from?" 
"London," I said.
He said, "I've been there."
"And where do you come from?" I asked.
"What? . . . Me? . . . Oh, from New York, I guess." 
"And how did you like London?" I asked.
"It's improved."
"Improved? I was afraid you'd seen it at a disadvantage, what with the bombing, 
and all that," I said. 
"Oh, London's all right. I guess."
"You should have been there before the war, Corporal Cuckoo."
"I was there before the war."
"You must have been very young then," I said.
Corporal Cuckoo replied, "Not so damn young."
I said, "I'm a war correspondent, and newspaperman, and so I have the right to 
ask impertinent questions. I might, you know, write a piece about you for my 
paper. What sort of name is Cuckoo? I've never heard it before."
For the sake of appearances I had taken out a notebook and pencil. The corporal 
said, "My name isn't really Cuckoo. It's a French name, originallyLecocu. You 
know what that means, don't you?"
Somewhat embarrassed, I replied, "Well, if I remember rightly, a man who is cocu 
is a man whose wife has been unfaithful to him."
"That's right."
"Have you any family?"
"No."
"But you have been married?" I asked.
"Plenty."
"What do you intend to do when you get back to the States, Corporal Cuckoo?"
He said, "Grow flowers, and keep bees and chickens." 
"All alone?"
"That's right," said Corporal Cuckoo.
"Flowers, bees and chickens! . . . What kind of flowers?"
I asked.
"Roses," he said, without hesitation. Then he added, "Maybe a little later on 
I'll go south."
"What on earth for?" I asked.
"Turpentine."
Corporal Cuckoo, I thought, must be insane. Thinking of this, it occurred to me 
that his brain might have been deranged by the wound that had left that awful 
scar on his head. I said, "They seem to have cut you up a bit, Corporal Cuckoo."
"Yes, sir, a little bit here and there," he said, chuckling. "Yeahp, I've taken 
plenty in my time."
"So I should think, Corporal. The first time I saw you I was under the 
impression that you'd got caught up in some machinery, or something of the 
sort."
"What do you mean, machinery?"
"Oh, no offense, Corporal, but those wounds on your head and face and neck 
haven't the appearance of wounds such as you might get from any weapon of modern 
warfare"
"Who said they were?" said Corporal Cuckoo, roughly. Then he filled his lungs 
with air, and blew out a great breath which ended in an exclamation: "Phoo-wow! 
What was that stuff you gave me to drink?"
"Good Scotch. Why?"
"It's good all right. I didn't ought to drink it. I've laid off the hard stuff 
for God knows how many years. It goes to my head. I didn't ought to touch it."
"Nobody asked you to empty a twelve-ounce ginger-ale bottle full of Scotch in 
two drinks," I said resentfully.
"I'm sorry, mister. When we get to New York, I'll buy you a whole bottle, if you 
like," said Corporal Cuckoo, squinting as if his eyes hurt and running his 
fingers along the awful crevasse of that scar in his head.
I said, "That was a nasty one you got, up there."
"What? This?" he said, carelessly striking the scar with the flat of a hard 
hand. "This? Nasty one? I'll say it was a nasty one. Why, some of my brains came 
out. And look here" He unbuttoned his shirt and pulled up his undershirt with 
his left hand, while he opened and lit a battered Zippo with his right. "Take a 
look at that."
I cried out in astonishment. I had never seen a living body so incredibly mauled 
and mutilated. In the vacillating light of the flame I saw black shadows 
bobbing and weaving in a sort of blasted wilderness of crags, chasms, canyons 
and pits. His torso was like a place laid waste by the wrath of Godburst 
asunder from below, scorched from above, shattered by thunderbolts, crushed by 
landslides, ravaged by hurricanes. Most of his ribs, on the left-hand side, must 
have been smashed into fragments no bigger than the last joint of a finger by 
some tremendously heavy object. The bones, miraculously, had knit together 
again, so that there was a circle of hard, bony knobs rimming a deep 
indentation; in that light it reminded me of one of the dead volcanoes on the 
moon. Just under the sternum there was a dark hole, nearly three inches long, 
about half an inch wide, and hideously deep. I have seen such scars in the big 
muscles of a man's thighbut never in the region of the breastbone. "Good God, 
man, you must have been torn in two and put together again!" I said. Corporal 
Cuckoo merely laughed, and held his lighter so that I could see his body from 
stomach to hips. Between the strong muscles, just under the liver, there was an 
old scar into which, old and healed though it was, you might have laid three 
fingers. Cutting across this, another scar, more than half as deep but more than 
twelve inches long, curved away downward toward the groin on the left. Another 
appalling scar came up from somewhere below the buckle of his belt and ended in 
a deep triangular hole in the region of the diaphragm. And there were other 
scarsbut the lighter went out, and Corporal Cuckoo buttoned up his shirt.
"Is that something?" he asked.
"Is that something!" I cried. "Why, good God, I'm no medical man, but I can see 
that the least of those wounds you've got down there ought to be enough to kill 
any man. How do you manage to be alive, Cuckoo? How is it possible?"
"You think you've seen something? Listen, you've seen nothing till you see my 
back. But never mind about that now."
"Tell me," I said, "how the devil did you come by all that? They're old scars. 
You couldn't have got them in this war
He slid down the knot of his tie, unbuttoned his collar, pulled his shirt aside, 
and said, dispassionately, "No. Lookthis is all I got this time." He pointed 
nonchalantly to his throat. I counted five bullet scars in a cluster, spaced 
like the fingertips of a half-opened hand, at the base of the throat. "Light 
machine-gun," he said.
"But this is impossible!" I said, while he readjusted his tie. "That little 
packet there must have cut one or two big arteries and smashed your spine to 
smithereens."
"Sure it did," said Corporal Cuckoo.
"And how old did you say you were?" I asked. Corporal Cuckoo replied, "Round 
about four hundred and thirty-eight."
"Thirty-eight?"
"I said four hundred and thirty-eight."
The man is mad, I thought. "Born 1907?" I asked.
"1507," said Corporal Cuckoo, fingering the dent in his skull. Then he went on, 
half-dreamily. (How am I to describe his manner? It was repulsively compounded 
of thick stupidity, low cunning, anxiety, suspicion and sordid calculationit 
made me remember a certain peasant who tried to sell me an American wristwatch 
near Saint Jacques in 1944. But Corporal Cuckoo talked American, at first 
leering at me in the dim light, and feeling his shirt as if to assure himself 
that all his scars were safely buttoned away.) He said, slowly, "Look . . . I'll 
give you the outline. It's no use you trying to sell the outline, see? You're a 
newspaperman. Though you might know what the whole story would be worth, there's 
no use you trying to sell what I'm giving you now, because you haven't got a 
hope in hell. But I've got to get back to work, see? I want some dough."
I said, "For roses, chickens, bees and turpentine?"
He hesitated, and then said, "Well, yes," and rubbed his head again.
"Does it bother you?" I asked.
"Not if I don't touch that stuff you gave me," he replied, dreamily resentful.
"Where did you get that scar?" I asked.
"Battle of Turin," he said.
"I don't remember any Battle of Turin, Corporal Cuckoo. When was that?"
"Why, the Battle of Turin. I got this in the Pass of Suze."
"You were wounded in the Pass of Suze at the Battle of Turin, is that right? 
When was that?" I asked. "In 1536 or 1537. King Francois sent us up against the 
Marquess de Guast. The enemy was holding the pass, but we broke through. That 
was my first smell of gunpowder."
"You were there of course, Corporal Cuckoo?"
"Sure I was there. But I wasn't a corporal then, and my name was not Cuckoo. 
They called me Lecocu. My real name was Lecoq. I came from Yvetot. I used to 
work for a man who made linenNicolas, the"
Two or three minutes passed, while the corporal told me what he thought of 
Nicolas. Then, having come down curse by curse out of a red cloud of passion, he 
continued: "... To cut it short, Denise ran off, and all the kids in the town 
were singing:
Lecoq, lecoq, lecoq,
Lecoq, lecoq, lecocu.
I got the hell out of it and joined the army.... I'm not giving you anything you 
can make anything of, see? This is the layout, see? . . . Okay. I was about 
thirty, then, and in pretty good shape. Well, so when King Francois sent us to 
TurinMonsieur de Montagan was Colonel-General of Infantrymy Commander, Captain 
Le Rat, led us up a hill to a position, and we sure had a hot five minutes! It 
was anybody's battle until the rest cut through, and then we advanced, and I got 
this."
The Corporal touched his head. I asked, "How?"
"From a halberdier. You know what a halberd is, don't you? It's sort of heavy ax 
on the end of a ten-foot pole. You can split a man down to the waist with a 
halberd, if you know how to handle it. See? If it had landed straight well, I 
guess I wouldn't be here right now. But I saw it coming, see, and I ducked, and 
just as I ducked my foot slipped in some blood, and I fell sideways. But all the 
same that halberdier got me. Right here, just where the scar is. See? Then 
everything went sort of black-and-white, and black, and I passed out. But I 
wasn't dead, see? I woke up, and there was the army doctor, with a cheap steel 
breast-plate onno helmetsoaked with blood up to the elbows. Our blood, you can 
bet your lifeyou know what medical officers are?"
I said soothingly, "Oh yes, I know, I know. And this, you say, was in 1537?"
"Maybe 1536, I don't remember exactly. As I was saying, I woke up, and I saw the 
doctor, and he was talking to some other doctor that I couldn't see; and all 
around men were shouting their heads offasking their friends to cut their 
throats and put them out of their misery ... asking for priests ... I thought I 
was in hell. My head was split wide open, and I could feel a sort of draft 
playing through my brains, and everything was going bump-bump, bumpety-bump, 
bump-bump-bump. But although I couldn't move or speak I could see and hear what 
was going on. The doctor looked at me and said ..."
Corporal Cuckoo paused. "He said?" I asked, gently.
"Well," said Corporal Cuckoo, with scorn, "you don't even know the meaning of 
what you were reading in your little bookPipeur ou hasardeur de dez, and all 
thateven when it's put down in cold print. I'll put it so that you'll 
understand. The doctor said something like this: `Come here and look, sir, come 
and see! This fellow's brains were bursting out of his head. If I had applied 
Theriac, he would be buried and forgotten by now. Instead, having no Theriac, 
for want of something better, I applied my Digestive. And see what has happened. 
His eyes have opened! Observe, also that the bones are creeping together and 
over this beating brain a sort of skin is forming. My treatment must be right, 
because God is healing him!' Then the one I couldn't see said something like: 
`Don't be a fool, Ambroise. You're wasting your time and your medicine on a 
corpse.' Well, the doctor looked down at me, and touched my eyes with the ends 
of his fingerslike thisand I blinked. But the one I couldn't see said: `Must 
you waste time and medicine on the dead?'
"After I blinked my eyes, I couldn't open them again. I couldn't see. But I 
could still hear, and when I heard that, I was as scared as hell they were going 
to bury me alive. And I couldn't move. But the doctor I'd seen said: `After five 
days this poor soldier's flesh is still sweet, and, weary as I am, I have my 
wits about me, and I swear to you that I saw his eyes open.' Then he called out: 
'Jehan! Bring the Digestive! . . . By your leave, sir, I will keep this man 
until he comes back to life, or begins to stink.
And into this wound I am going to pour some more of my Digestive.'
"Then I felt something running into my head. It hurt like hell. It was like ice 
water dripped into your brains. I thought This is it!and then I went numb all 
over, and then I went dead again, until I woke up later in another place. The 
young doctor was there, without his armor this time, but he had a sort of soft 
hat on. This time I could move and talk, and I asked for something to drink. 
When he heard me talk, the doctor opened his mouth to let out a shout, but 
stopped himself, and gave me some wine out of a cup. But his hands were shaking 
so that I got more wine in my beard than in my mouth. I used to wear a beard in 
those days, just like youonly a bigger one, all over my face. I heard somebody 
come running from the other end of the room. I saw a boymaybe fifteen or 
sixteen years old. This kid opened his mouth and started to say something, but 
the doctor got him by the throat and said . . . put it like this: `For your 
life, Jehan, be quiet!'
"The kid said: `Master! You have brought him back from the dead!'
"Then the doctor said: `Silence, for your life, or do you want to smell burning 
faggots?'
"Then I went to sleep again, and when I woke up I was in a little room with all 
the windows shut and a big fire burning so that it was hotter than hell. The 
doctor was there, and his name was Ambroise Pare. Maybe you have read about 
Ambroise Pare?"
"Do you mean the Ambroise Pare who became an army surgeon under Anne de 
Montmorency in the army of Francis the First?"
Corporal Cuckoo said, "That's what I was saying, wasn't it? Francois Premier, 
Francis the First. De Montmorency was our Lieutenant-General, when we got mixed 
up with Charles V. The whole thing started between France and Italy, and that's 
how I came to get my head cracked when we went down the hill near Turin. I told 
you, didn't I?"
"Corporal Cuckoo," I said, "you have told me that you are four hundred and 
thirty-eight years old. You were born in 1507, and left Yvetot to join the army 
after your wife made a fool of you with a linen merchant named Nicolas. Your 
name was Lecoq, and the children called you Lecocu. You fought at the Battle of 
Turin, and were wounded in the Pass of Suze about 1537. Your head was cut open 
with a halberd, or poleax, and some of your brains came out. A surgeon named 
Ambroise Pare poured into the wound in your head what you called a Digestive. So 
you came back to lifemore than four hundred years ago! Is this right?"
"You've got it," said Corporal Cuckoo, nodding. "I knew you'd get it."
I was stupefied by the preposterousness of it all, and could only say, with what 
must have been a silly giggle, "Well, my venerable friend; by all accounts, 
after four hundred and thirty-odd years of life you ought to be tremendously 
wiseas full of wisdom, learning, and experience as the British Museum 
Library."
"Why?" asked Corporal Cuckoo.
"Why? Well," I said, "it's an old story. A philosopher, let us say, or a 
scientist, doesn't really begin to learn anything until his life is almost 
ended. What wouldn't he give for five hundred extra years of life? For five 
hundred years of life he'd sell his soul, because given that much time, 
knowledge being power, he could be master of the whole world."
Corporal Cuckoo said, "Baloney! What you say might go for philosophers, and all 
that. They'd just go on doing what they were interested in, and they 
mightwelllearn how to turn iron into gold, or something. But what about a 
baseball player, for instance, or a boxer? What would they do with five hundred 
years? What they were fit to do swing bats or throw leather! What would you 
do?"
"Why, of course, you're right, Corporal Cuckoo," I said. "I'd just go on and on 
banging a typewriter and chucking my money down the drain, so that in five 
hundred years from now I'd be no wiser and no richer than I am at this moment."
"No, wait a minute," he said, tapping my arm with a finger that felt like a rod 
of iron, and leering at me shrewdly. "You'd go on writing books and things. 
You're paid on a percentage basis, so in five hundred years you'd have more than 
you could spend. But how about me? All I'm fit for is to be in the army. I don't 
give a damn for philosophy, and all that stuff. It don't mean a thing to me. I'm 
no wiser now than I was when I was thirty. I never did go in for reading, and 
all that stuff, and I never will. My ambition is to get me a place like Jack 
Dempsey's on Broadway."
"I thought you said you wanted to grow roses, and chickens, and bees, and 
turpentine trees and whatnot," I said.
"Yeahp, that's right."
"How do you reconcile the two? . . . I mean, how does a restaurant on Broadway 
fit in with the bees and roses et cetera?"
"Well, it's like this ..." said Corporal Cuckoo.
 
... I told you about how Doctor Pare healed up my head when it was split open 
so that my brains were coming out. Well, after I could walk about a bit he let 
me stay in his house, and I can tell you, he fed me on the fat of the land, 
though he didn't live any too damn well himself. Yeahp, he looked after me like 
a sona hell of lot better than my old man ever looked after me: chickens, eggs 
in wine, anything I wanted. If I said, `I guess I'd like a pie made with 
skylarks for dinner,' I had it. If I said, `Doc, this wine is kind of sour,' up 
came a bottle of Alicante or something. Inside two or three weeks, I was fitter 
and stronger than I'd ever been before. So then I got kind of restless and said 
I wanted to go. Well, Doctor Pare said he wanted me to stay. I said to him, `I'm 
an active man, Doc, and I've got my living to get; and before I got this little 
crack on the head I heard that there was money to be made in one army or another 
right now.'
"Well, then Doctor Pare offered me a couple of pieces of gold to stay in his 
house for another month. I took the money, but I knew then that he was up to 
something, and I went out of my way to find out. I mean, he was Army Surgeon, 
and I was nothing but a lousy infantryman. There was a catch in it somewhere, 
see? So I acted dumb, but I kept my eyes open, and made friends with Jehan, the 
kid that helped around the doctor's office. This Jehan was a big-eyed, skinny 
kid, with one leg a bit shorter than the other, and he thought I was a hell of a 
fellow when I cracked a walnut between two fingers, and lifted up the big table, 
that must have weighed about five hundred pounds, on my back. This Jehan, he 
told me he'd always wanted to be a powerful guy like me. But he'd been sick 
since before he was born, and might not have lived at all if Doctor Pare hadn't 
saved his life. Well, so I went to work on Jehan, and I found out what the 
doctor's game was. You know doctors, eh?"
Corporal Cuckoo nudged me, and I said, "Uh uh, go on.
"Well it seems that up to the time when we got through the Pass of Suze, they'd 
treated what they called `poisoned wounds' with boiling oil of elder with a dash 
of what they called Theriac. Theriac was nothing much more than honey and herbs. 
Well, so it seems that by the time we went up the hill, Doctor Pare had run out 
of the oil of elder and Theriac, and so, for want of something better, he mixed 
up what he called a Digestive.
"My commander, Captain Le Rat, the one that got the bullet that smashed up his 
ankle, was the first one to be dosed with the Digestive. His ankle got better," 
said Corporal Cuckoo, snapping his fingers, "like that. I was the third or 
fourth soldier to get a dose of Doctor Pares Digestive. The doc was looking over 
the battlefield, because he wanted a dead body to cut up on the side. You know 
what doctors are. This kid Jehan told me he wanted a brain to play around with. 
Well, there was I, see, with my brains showing. All the doctor had to do was, 
reach down and help himself. Well, to cut it short, he saw that I was breathing, 
and wondered how the hell a man could be breathing after he'd got what I had. So 
he poured some of his Digestive into the hole in my head, tied it up, and 
watched for developments. I told you what happened then. I came back to life. 
More than that, the bones in my head grew together. Doctor Ambroise Pare 
believed he'd got something. So he was keeping me sort of under observation, and 
making notes.
"I know doctors. Well, anyway, I went to work on Jehan. I said, `Be a good 
fellow, Jehan, tell a pal what is this Digestive, or whatever your master calls 
it?'
"Jehan said, `Why, sir, my master makes no secret of it. It is nothing but a 
mixture of egg yolks, oil of roses, and turpentine.' (I don't mind telling you 
that, bub, because it's already been printed.)"
I said to Corporal Cuckoo, "I don't know how the devil you come by these curious 
facts, but I happen to know that they're true. They are available in several 
histories of medicine. Ambroise Pares Digestive, with which he treated the 
wounded after the Battle of Turin, was, as you say, nothing but a mixture of oil 
of roses, egg yolks, and turpentine. And it is also a fact that the first 
wounded man upon whom he tried it really was Captain Le Rat, in 1537. Pare said 
at the time, `I dressed his wounds and God healed him.' ... Well?"
"Yeahp," said Corporal Cuckoo, with a sneer. "Sure. Turpentine, oil of roses, 
egg. That's right. You know the proportions?"
"No, I don't," I said.
"I know you don't, bub. Well, I do. See? And I'll tell you something else. It's 
not just oil of roses, eggs and turpentinethere was one other thing Doc Pare 
slipped in in my case, for an experimentsee? And I know what it is."
I said, "Well, go on."
"Well, I could see that this Doctor Ambroise Pare was going to make something 
out of me, see? So I kept my eyes open, and I waited, and I worked on Jehan, 
until I found out just where the doctor kept his notebook. I mean, in those days 
you could get sixty or seventy thousand dollars for a bit of bone they called a 
`unicorn's horn.' Hell, I mean, if I had something that could just about bring a 
man back from the deaddraw his bones together and put him on his feet in a week 
or two, even if his brains were coming out hell, everybody was having a war 
then, and I could have been rich in a few minutes."
I said, "No doubt about that. What
"What the hell" said Corporal Cuckoo, "what the hell right did he have to use 
me for a guinea pig? Where would he have been if it hadn't been for me? And 
where do you think I'd have been after? Out on my neck with two or three gold 
pieces, while the doctor grabbed the credit and made millions out of it. I 
wanted to open a place in Parisgirls and everything, see? Could I do that on 
two or three gold pieces? I ask you! Okay; one night when Doctor Pare and Jehan 
were out, I took his notebook, slipped out of a window, and got the hell out of 
it.
"As soon as I thought I was safe, I went into a saloon, and drank some wine, and 
got into conversation with a girl. It seems somebody else was interested in this 
girl, and there was a fight. The other guy cut me in the face with a knife. I 
had a knife too. You know how it isall of a sudden I felt something puffing my 
knife out of my hand, and I saw that I'd pushed it between this man's ribs. He 
was one of those mean little guys, about a hundred and twenty pounds, with a 
screwed-up face. (She was a great big girl with yellow hair.) I could see that 
I'd killed him, so I ran for my life, and I left my knife where it wasstuck 
tight between his ribs. I hid out, expecting trouble. But they never found me. 
Most of that night I lay under a hedge. I was pretty sick. I mean, he'd cut me 
from just under the eye to the back of my headand cut me deep. He'd cut the top 
of my right ear off, clean. It wasn't only that it hurt like hell, but I knew I 
could be identified by that cut. I'd left half an ear behind me. It was me for 
the gallows, see? So I kept as quiet as I could, in a ditch, and went to sleep 
for a few hours before dawn. And then, when I woke up, that cut didn't hurt at 
all, not even my earand I can tell you that a cut ear sure does hurt. I went 
and washed my face in a pond, and when the water got still enough so I could see 
myself, I saw that cut and this ear had healed right up so that the marks looked 
five years old. All that in half a night! So I went on my way. About two days 
later, a farmer's dog bit me in the legtook a piece out. Well, a bite like that 
ought to take weeks to heal up. But mine didn't. It was all healed over by next 
day, and there was hardly a scar. That stuff Pare poured on my head had made me 
so that any wound I might get, anywhere, anytime, would just heal right uplike 
magic. I knew I had something when I grabbed those papers of Pare's. But this 
was terrific!"
"You had them still, Corporal Cuckoo?"
"What do you think? Sure I had them, wrapped up in a bit of linen and tied round 
my waist, four pieces of it ... not paper, the other stuff, parchment. That's 
it, parchment. Folded across, and sewn up along the fold. The outside bit was 
blank, like a cover. But the six pages inside were all written over. The hell of 
it was, I couldn't read. I'd never been learned. See? Well, I had the best part 
of my two gold pieces left, and I pushed on to Paris."
I asked, "Didn't Ambroise Pare say anything?"
Corporal Cuckoo sneered again. "What the hell could he say?" he asked. "Say 
what? Say he'd resurrected the dead with his Digestive? That would have finished 
him for sure. Where was his evidence? And you can bet your life that kid Jehan 
kept his mouth shut; he wouldn't want the doctor to know he'd squealed. See? No, 
nobody said a word. I got into Paris okay."
"What did you do there?" I asked.
"My idea was to find somebody I could trust to read those papers for me, see? If 
you want to know how I got my living, well, I did the best I couldnever mind 
what. Well, one night, in a place where I was, I came across a student, mooching 
drinks, an educated man with no place to sleep. I showed him the doctor's 
papers, and asked him what they meant. They made him think a bit, but he got the 
hang of them. The doctor had written down just how he'd mixed that Digestive of 
his, and that only filled up one page. Four of the other pages were full of 
figures, and the only other writing was on the last page. It was all about me. 
And how he'd cured me."
I said, "With the yolks of eggs, oil of roses, and turpentine?"
Corporal Cuckoo nodded, and said, "Yeahp. Them three and something else."
I said, "I'll bet you anything you like I know what the fourth ingredient is, in 
this Digestive."
"What'll you bet?" asked Corporal Cuckoo.
I said, "I'll bet you a beehive."
"What do you mean?"
"Why, Corporal, it stands to reason. You said you wanted to raise chickens, 
roses, and bees. You said you wanted to go south for turpentine. You accounted 
for egg yolks, oil of roses, and turpentine in Doctor Pare's formula. What 
would a man like you want with bees? Obviously the fourth ingredient is honey."
"Yeahp," said Corporal Cuckoo. "You're right, but'. The doctor slipped in some 
honey." He opened a jack-knife, looked at me narrowly, then snapped the blade 
back again and pocketed the knife, saying, "You don't know the proportions. You 
don't know how to mix the stuff. You don't know how hot it ought to be, or how 
slow you've got to let it cool."
"So you have the Secret of Life?" I said. "You're four hundred years old, and 
wounds can't kill you. It only takes a certain mixture of egg yolks, oil of 
roses, turpentine and honey. Is that right?"
"That's right," said Corporal Cuckoo.
"Well, didn't you think of buying the ingredients and mixing them yourself?"
"Well, yes, I did. The doctor had said in his notes how the Digestive he'd given 
to me and Captain Le Rat had been kept in a bottle in the dark for two years. So 
I made a wine bottle full of the stuff and kept it covered up away from the 
light for two years, wherever I went. Then me and some friends of mine got into 
a bit of trouble, and one of my friends, a guy called Pierre Solitude, got a 
pistol bullet in the chest. I tried the stuff on him, but he died. At the same 
time I got a sword cut in the side. Believe me or not, that healed up in nine 
hours, inside and out, of its own accord. You can make what you like of that. It 
all came out of something to do with robbing a church.
"I got out of France, and lived as best I could for about a year until I found 
myself in Salzburg. That was about four years after the battle of the Pass of 
Suze. Well, in Salzburg I came across some guy who told me that the greatest 
doctor in the world was in town. I remember this doctor's name, because, well, 
who wouldn't? It was Aureolus Theophrastus Bombastus von Hohenheim. He'd been a 
big shot in Basle a few years before. He was otherwise known as Paracelsus. He 
wasn't doing much then. He hung around, most of the time, drinking himself crazy 
in a wine cellar called The Three Doves. I met him there one, nightit must have 
been in 1541and said my piece when nobody else was listening." Corporal. Cuckoo 
laughed harshly.
I said, "Paracelsus was a very great man. He was one of the great doctors of the 
world."
"Oh, hell, he was only a fat old drunk. Certainly was higher than a kite when I 
saw him. Yelling his head off, banging on the table with an empty can. When I 
told him about this stuff, in strict confidence, he got madder than ever, called 
me everything he could think ofand believe me, he could think of plentyand 
bent the can over my head. Broke the skin just where the hair starts. I was 
going to take a poke at him but then he calmed down a bit and said in 
Swiss-German, I think it was, `Experiment, experiment! A demonstration! A 
demonstration! If you come back tomorrow and show me that cut perfectly healed, 
charlatan, I'll listen to you.' Then he burst out laughing, and I thought to 
myself, I'll give you something to laugh at, bub. So I took a walk, and that 
little cut healed up and was gone inside an hour. Then I went back to show him. 
I'd sort of taken a liking to the old soak, see? Well, when I get back to this 
tavern there's doctor Von Hohenheim, or Paracelsus, if you like, lying on his 
back dying of a dagger stab. He'd gotten into a fight with a woodcarver, and 
this woodcarver was as soused as he was, see? And so he let this Paracelsus have 
it. I never did have no luck, and I never will. We might have got along 
together, me and him, I only talked to him for half an hour, but so help me, you 
knew who was the boss when he was there, all right! Oh well, that was that."
"And then?" I asked.
"I'm just giving you the outline, see? If you want the whole story it's going to 
cost you plenty," said Corporal Cuckoo. "I bummed around Salzburg for a year, 
got whipped out of town for being a beggar, got the hell out of it to 
Switzerland, and signed on with a bunch of paid soldiers, what they called 
Condottieri, under a Swiss colonel, and did a bit of fighting in Italy. There 
was supposed to be good pickings there. But somebody stole my little bit of 
loot, and we never even got half our pay in the end. Then I went to France, and 
met a sea captain by the name of Bordelais who was carrying brandy to England 
and was short of a man. A fast little English pirate boat stopped us in the 
Channel, and grabbed the cargo, cut Bordelais' throat and slung the crew 
overboardall except me. The Limey captain, Hawker, liked the look of me. I 
joined the crew, but I never was much of a sailor. That hookerhell, she wasn't 
bigger than one of the lifeboats on this shipwas called the Harry, after the 
King of England, Henry VIII, the one they made a movie about. Still, we did all 
right. We specialized in French brandy: stopped the Froggy boats in mid-channel, 
grabbed the cargo, shoved the captain and crew overboard. `Dead men tell no 
tales,' old Hawker always said. Well, I jumped the ship somewhere near Rommey, 
with money in my pocketI didn't like the sea, see? I'd had half a dozen nasty 
wounds, but they couldn't kill me. I was worried about what'd happen if I went 
overboard. You could shoot me through the head and not kill me, though it'd hurt 
like hell for a few days while the wound healed itself. But I just hated to 
think of what would happen if somebody tried to drown me. Get it? I'd have to 
wait under water till the fishes ate me, or till I just sort of naturally rotted 
awayalive all the time. And that's not nice.
"Well, as I was saying, I quit at Rommey and got to London. There was an oldish 
widow with a linen-draper's business near London Bridge. She had a bit of dough, 
and she took a fancy to me. Well, what the hell? I got married to her. Lived 
with her about thirteen years. She was a holy terror, at first, but I corrected 
her. Her name was Rose, and she died just about when Queen Elizabeth got to be 
Queen of England. That was around 1558, I guess. She was scared of meRose, I 
mean, not Queen Elizabeth, because I was always playing around with honey, and 
eggs, and turpentine, and oil of roses. She got older and older, and I stayed 
exactly the same as I was when I married her, and she didn't like that one 
little bit. She thought I was a witch. Said I had the Philosophers' Stone, and 
knew the secret of perpetual youth. Hah, so help me, she wasn't so damn far 
wrong. She wanted me to let her in on it. But, as I was saying, I kept working 
on those notes of Doctor Pare's, and I mixed honey, turpentine, oil of roses, 
and the yolks of eggs, just as he'd done, in the right proportions, at the 
proper temperature, and kept the mixture bottled in the dark for the right 
length of timeand still it didn't work."
I asked Corporal Cuckoo, "How did you find out that your mixture didn't work?"
"Well, I tried it on Rose. She kept on at me till I did. Every now and again we 
had kind of a lovers' quarrel, and I tried the Digestive on her afterward. But 
she took as long to heal as any ordinary person would have taken. The 
interesting thing was that I not only couldn't be killed by a wound, I couldn't 
get any older! I couldn't catch any diseases! I couldn't die! And you can figure 
this for yourself : if some stuff that cured any sort of wound was worth a 
fortune, what would it be worth to me if I had something that would make people 
stay young and healthy forever? Eh?" He paused.
I said, "Interesting speculation. You might have given some of the stuff, for 
example, to Shakespeare. He got better and better as he went on. I wonder what 
he would have arrived at by now? I don't know, though. If Shakespeare had 
swallowed an elixir of life and perpetual youth when he was very young, he would 
have remained as he was, young and undeveloped. Maybe he might still be holding 
horses outside theatresor whistling for taxis, a stage-struck country boy of 
undeveloped genius.
"lf, on the other hand, he had taken the stuff when he wrote, say, The 
Tempestthere he'd be still, burnt up, worn out, world-weary, tired to death and 
unable to die. On the other hand, of course, some debauched rake of the 
Elizabethan period could go on being a debauched rake at high pressure, for 
centuries and centuries. But, oh my God, how bored he would get after a hundred 
years or so, and how he'd long for death! That would be dangerous stuff, that 
stuff of yours, Corporal Cuckoo!"
"Shakespeare?" he said. "Shakespeare? William Shakespeare. I met him. I met a 
buddy of his when I was fighting in the Netherlands, and he introduced us when 
we got back to London. William Shakespearepuffy-faced man, bald on top; used to 
wave his hands about when he talked. He took an interest in me. We talked a 
whole lot together."
"What did he say?" I asked.
Corporal Cuckoo replied, "Oh, hell, how can I remember every goddam word? He 
just asked questions, the same as you do. We just talked."
"And how did he strike you?" I asked.
Corporal Cuckoo considered, and then said, slowly, "The kind of man who counts 
his change and leaves a nickel tip. ...One of these days I'm going to read his 
books, but I've never had much time for reading."
I said, "So, I take it that your only interest in Pare's Digestive has been a 
financial interest. You merely wanted to make money out of it. Is that so?"
"Why, sure," said Corporal Cuckoo. "I've had my shot of the stuff. I'm all 
right."
"Corporal Cuckoo, has it occurred to you that what you are after is next door to 
impossible?"
"How's that?"
"Well," I said, "your Pare's Digestive is made of egg yolk, oil of roses, 
turpentine and honey. Isn't that so?"
"Well, yes. So what? What's impossible about that?"
I said, "You know how a chicken's diet alters the taste of an egg, don't you?"
"Well?"
"What a chicken eats changes not only the taste, but the color of an egg. Any 
chicken farmer can tell you that. Isn't that so?"
"Well?"
"Well, what a chicken eats goes into the egg, doesn't itjust as the fodder that 
you feed a cow comes out in the milk? Have you stopped to consider how many 
different sorts of chickens there have been in the world since the Battle of 
Turin in 1537, and the varieties of chicken feed they might have pecked up in 
order to lay their eggs? Have you thought that the egg yolk is only one of four 
ingredients mixed in Ambroise Pare's Digestive? Is it possible that it has not 
occurred to you that this one ingredient involves permutations and combinations 
of several millions of other ingredients?"
Corporal Cuckoo was silent. I went on, "Then take roses. If no two eggs are 
exactly alike, what about roses? You come from wine-growing country, you say: 
then you must know that the mere thickness of a wall can separate two entirely 
different kinds of winethat a noble vintage may be crushed out of grapes grown 
less than two feet away from a vine that is good for nothing. The same applies 
to tobacco. Have you stopped to think of your roses? Roses are pollinated by 
bees, bees go from flower to flower, making them fertile. Your oil of roses, 
therefore, embodies an infinity of possible ingredients. Does it not?"
Corporal Cuckoo was still silent. I continued, with a kind of malicious 
enthusiasm. "You must reflect on these things, Corporal. Take turpentine. It 
comes out of trees. Even in the sixteenth century there were many known 
varieties of turpentineChian Terebinthine, and what not. But above all, my dear 
fellow, consider honey! There are more kinds of honey in the world than have 
ever been categorized. Every honeycomb yields a slightly different honey. You 
must know that bees living in heather gather and store one kind of honey, while 
bees living in an apple orchard give us something quite different. It is all 
honey, of course, but its flavor and quality are variable beyond calculation. 
Honey varies from hive to hive, Corporal Cuckoo. I say nothing of wild bees' 
honey."
"Well?" he said, glumly.
"Well. All this is relatively simple, Corporal, in relation to what comes next. 
I don't know how many beehives there are in the world. Assume that in every hive 
there arelet us be moderateone thousand bees. (There are more than that, of 
course, but I am trying to simplify.) You must realize that every one of these 
bees brings home a slightly different drop of honey. Every one of these bees 
may, in its travels, take honey from fifty different flowers. The honey 
accumulated by all the bees in the hive is mixed together. Any single cell in 
any honeycomb out of any hive contains scores of subtly different elements! I 
say nothing of the time element; honey six months old is very different from 
honey out of the same hive, left for ten years. From day to day, honey changes. 
Now taking all possible combinations of eggs, roses, turpentine and honeywhere 
are you? Answer me that, Corporal Cuckoo."
Corporal Cuckoo struggled with this for a few seconds, and then said, "I don't 
get it. You think I'm nuts, don't you?"
"I never said so," I said uneasily.
"No, you never said so. Well, listen. Don't give me all that double talk. I'm 
doing you a favor. Look
He took out and opened his jackknife, and scrutinized his left hand, looking for 
an unscarred area of skin. "No!" I shouted, and gripped his knife-hand. I might 
have been trying to hold back the piston rod of a great locomotive. My grip and 
my weight were nothing to Corporal Cuckoo.
"Look," he said, calmly, and cut through the soft flesh between the thumb and 
forefinger of his left hand until the knifeblade stopped on the bone, and the 
thumb fell back until it touched the forearm. "See that?"
I saw it through a mist. The great ship seemed, suddenly, to roll and plunge. 
"Are you crazy?" I said, as soon as I could.
"No," said Corporal Cuckoo. "I'm showing you I'm not, see?" He held his 
mutilated hand close to my face. "Take it away," I said.
"Sure," said Corporal Cuckoo. "Watch this." He pushed the almost-severed thumb 
back into place, and held it down with his right hand. "It's okay," he said, 
"there's no need to look sick. I'm showing you, see? Don't gosit down. I'm not 
kidding. I can give you a hell of a story, a fact-story. I can show you Pares 
little notebook and everything. You saw what I showed you when I pulled up my 
shirt? You saw what I've got right here, on the left side?"
I said, "Yes"
"Well, that's where I got hit by a nine-pound cannon-ball when I was on the Mary 
Ambree, fighting against the Spanish Armadait smashed my chest so that the ribs 
went through my heartand I was walking about in two weeks. And this other one 
on the right, under the ribstomorrow I'll show you what it looks like from the 
backI got that one at the Battle of Fontenoy; and there's a hell of a good 
story there. A French cannonball came down and hit a broken sword that a dead 
officer had dropped, and it sent that sword flying right through me, lungs and 
liver and all. So help me, it came out through my right shoulderblade. The other 
one lower down was a bit of bombshell at the Battle of WaterlooI was opened up 
like a pigit wasn't worth the surgeon's while to do anything about it. But I 
was on my feet in six days, while men with broken legs were dying like flies. I 
can prove it, I tell you! And listenI marched to Quebec with Benedict Arnold. 
Sit still and listenmy right leg was smashed to pulp all the way down from the 
hip to the ankle at Balaklava. It knitted together before the surgeon had a 
chance to get around to me; he couldn't believe his eyeshe thought he was 
dreaming. I can tell you a hell of a story! But it's worth dough, see? Now, this 
is my proposition: I'll tell it, you write it, and we'll split fifty-fifty, and 
I'll start my farm. What d'you say?"
I heard myself saying, in a sickly, stupid voice, "Why didn't you save some of 
your pay, all those years?"
Corporal Cuckoo replied, with scorn, "Why didn't I save my pay! Because I'm what 
I am, you mug! Hell, once upon a time, if I'd kept away from cards, I could've 
bought Manhattan Island for less than what I lost to a Dutchman called Bruncker, 
drawing ace-high for English guineas! Save my pay! If it wasn't one thing it was 
another. I lay off liquor. Okay. So if it's not liquor it's a woman. I lay off 
women. Okay. Then it's cards or dice. I always meant to save my pay; but I never 
had it in me to save my goddam pay! Doctor Pares stuff fixed meand when I say 
it fixed me, I mean, it fixed me, just like I was, and am, and always will be. 
See? A foot-soldier, ignorant as dirt. It took me nearly a hundred years to 
learn to write my name, and four hundred years to get to be a corporal. How 
d'you like that? And it took will power, at that! Now here's my proposition: 
fifty-fifty on the story. Once I get proper publicity in a magazine, I'll be 
able to let the Digestive out of my hands with an easy mind,see? because 
nobody'd dare to try any funny business with a man with nationwide publicity. 
Eh?"
"No, of course not," I said.
"Eh?"
"Sure, sure, Corporal."
"Good," said Corporal Cuckoo. "Now in case you think I'm kidding, take a look at 
this. You saw what I done?" 
"I saw, Corporal."
"Look," he said, thrusting his left hand under my nose. It was covered with 
blood. His shirt cuff was red and wet. Fascinated, I saw one thick, sluggish 
drop crawl out of the cloth near the buttonhole, and hang, quivering, before it 
fell on my knee. The mark of it is in the cloth of my trousers to this day.
"See?" said Corporal Cuckoo, and he licked the place between his fingers where 
his knife had cut down. A pale area appeared. "Where did I cut myself?" he 
asked.
I shook my head; there was no woundonly a white scar. He wiped his knife on the 
palm of his handit left a red smearand let the blade fall with a sharp click. 
Then he wiped his left hand on his right, rubbed both hands clean upon the backs 
of his trouser legs, and said: "Am I kidding?"
"Well!" I said, somewhat breathlessly. "Well"
"Oh, what the hell!" groaned Corporal Cuckoo, weary beyond words, exhausted, 
worn out by his endeavors to explain the inexplicable and make the incredible 
sound reasonable. "... Look. You think this is a trick? Have you got a knife?"
"Yes. Why?"
"A big knife?"
"Moderately big."
"Okay. Cut my throat with it, and see what happens. Stick it in me wherever you 
like. And I'll bet you a thousand dollars I'll be all right inside two or three 
hours. Go on. Man to man, it's a bet. Or go borrow an ax if you like; hit me 
over the head with it."
"Be damned if I do," I said, shuddering.
"And that's how it is," said Corporal Cuckoo, in despair. "And that's how it is 
every time. There they are, making fortunes out of soap and toothpaste, and here 
I am, with something in my pocket to keep you young and healthy foreverah, go 
chase yourself! I never ought to've drunk your rotten Scotch. This is the way it 
always is. You wear a beard just like I used to wear before I got a gunpowder 
burn in the chin at Zutphen, when Sir Philip Sidney got his; or I wouldn't have 
talked to you. Oh, you dope! I could murder you, so help me I could! Go to 
hell."
Corporal Cuckoo leaped to his feet and darted away so swiftly that before I 
found my feet he had disappeared. There was blood on the deck close to where I 
had been sittinga tiny pool of blood, no larger than a coffee saucer, broken 
at one edge by the imprint of a heel. About a yard and a half away I saw another 
heel mark in blood, considerably less noticeable. Then there was a dull smear, 
as if one of the bloody rubber heels had spun around and impelled its owner 
toward the left. "Cuckoo! Cuckoo!" I shouted. "Oh, Cuckoo! Cuckoo!"
But I never saw Corporal Cuckoo again, and I wonder where he can be. It may be 
that he gave me a false name. But what I heard I heard, and what I saw I saw; 
and I have five hundred dollars here in an envelope for the man who will put me 
in touch with him. Honey and oil of roses, eggs and turpentine; these involve, 
as I said, infinite permutations and combinations. So does any comparable 
mixture. Still, it might be worth investigating. Why not? Fleming got penicillin 
out of mildew. Only God knows the glorious mysteries of the dust, out of which 
come trees and bees, and life in every form, from mildew to man.
I lost Corporal Cuckoo before we landed in New York on July 11th, 1945. 
Somewhere in the United States, I believe, there is a man tremendously strong in 
the arms and covered with terrible scars who has the dreadfully dangerous secret 
of perpetual youth and life. He appears to be about thirty-odd years of age, and 
has watery, greenish eyes.
 
C. M. KORNBLUTH
 
In Cyril Kornbluth was a sharp tooth, just right for puncturing, and he used it 
with wit and passion. His stories had bite. He was sensitive toward hypocrisy 
and remorseless to poses ... and it is all very well, he kept saying through his 
life, to invent these faster-than-light radium-bearinged plastic dishwashwhere 
he might have gone; but he died young. This a writer, Cyril grew and grew. There 
is no telling ers; but let us not forget that they will be paid for overs, who 
are in the doghouse with their wives. As on the installment plan by fretful men 
with hang-is almost his last story. He wrote it when he was thirty-five, and 
before it saw print he was dead.
 
The Advent on Channel Twelve
 
It came to pass in the third quarter of the fiscal year that the Federal Reserve 
Board did raise the rediscount rate and money was tight in the land. And certain 
bankers which sate hi New York sent to Ben Graffis in Hollywood a writing which 
said, Money is tight in the land so let Poopy Panda up periscope and fire all 
bow tubes.
Whereupon Ben Graffis made to them this moan:
O ye bankers, Poopy Panda is like unto the child of my flesh and you have made 
of him a devouring dragon. Once was I content with my studio and my animators 
when we did make twelve Poopy Pandas a year; cursed be the day when I floated a 
New York loan. You have commanded me to make feature-length cartoon epics and I 
did obey, and they do open at the Paramount to sensational grosses, and we do 
re-release them to the nabes year on year, without end. You have commanded me to 
film live adventure shorts and I did obey, and in the cutting room we do 
devilishly splice and pull frames and flop negatives so that I and my cameras 
are become bearers of false witness and men look upon my live adventure shorts 
and say lo! these beasts and birds are like unto us in their laughter, wooing, 
pranks, and contention. You have commanded that I become a mountebank for that 
I did build Poopy Pandaland, whereinto men enter with their children, their 
silver, and their wits, and wherefrom they go out with their children only, 
sandbagged by a thousand catch-penny engines; even this did I obey. You have 
commanded that Poopy Panda shill every weekday night on television between five 
and six for the Poopy Panda Pals, and even this did I obey, though Poopy Panda 
is like unto the child of my flesh.
But O ye bankers, this last command will I never obey.
Whereupon the bankers which sate in New York sent to him another writing that 
said, Even so, let Poopy Panda up periscope and fire all bow tubes, and they 
said, Remember, boy, we hold thy paper.
And Ben Graffis did obey.
He called unto him his animators and directors and cameramen and writers, and 
his heart was sore but he dissembled and said:
In jest you call one another brainwashers, forasmuch as you addle the heads of 
children five hours a week that they shall buy our sponsors' wares. You have 
fulfilled the prophecies, for is it not written in the Book of the Space 
Merchants that there shall be spherical trusts? And the Poopy Panda Pals plug 
the Poopy Panda Magazine, and the Poopy Panda Magazine plugs Poopy Pandaland, 
and Poopy Pandaland plugs the Poopy Panda Pals. You have asked of the 
Motivational Research boys how we shall hook the little bastards and they have 
told ye, and ye have done it. You identify the untalented kid viewers with the 
talented kid performers, you provide in Otto Clodd a bumbling father image to be 
derided, you furnish in Jackie Whipple an idealized big brother for the boys and 
a sex-fantasy for the more precocious girls. You flatter the cans off the 
viewers by ever saying to them that they shall rule the twenty-first century, 
nor mind that those who shall in good sooth come to power are doing their 
homework and not watching television programs. You have created a liturgy of 
opening hymn and closing benediction, and over all hovers the spirit of Poopy 
Panda urging and coaxing the viewers to buy our sponsors' wares.
And Ben Graffis breathed a great breath and looked them not in the eye and said 
to them, Were it not a better thing for Poopy Panda to coax and urge no more, 
but to command as he were a god?
And the animators and directors and cameramen and writers were sore amazed and 
they said one to the other, This is the bleeding end, and the bankers which sit 
in New York have flipped their wigs. And one which was an old animator said to 
Ben Graffis, trembling, O chief, never would I have stolen for thee Poopy Panda 
from the Winnie the Pooh illustrations back in twenty-nine had I known this was 
in the cards, and Ben Graffis fired him.
Whereupon another which was a director said to Ben Graffis, O chief, the thing 
can be done with a two-week buildup, and Ben Graffis put his hands over his face 
and said, Let it be so.
And it came to pass that on the Friday after the two-week buildup, in the 
closing quarter-hour of the Poopy Panda Pals, there was a special film 
combining live and animated action as they were one.
And in the special film did Poopy Panda appear enhaloed, and the talented kid 
performers did do him worship, and Otto Clodd did trip over his feet whilst 
kneeling, and Jackie Whipple did urge in manly and sincere wise that all the 
Poopy Panda Pals out there in television-land do likewise, and the enhaloed 
Poopy Panda did say in his lovable growly voice, Poop-poop-poopy.
And adoration ascended from thirty-seven million souls.
And it came to pass that Ben Graffis went into his office with his animators and 
cameramen and directors and writers after the show and said to them, It was 
definitely a TV first, and he did go to the bar.
Whereupon one which was a director looked at Who sate behind the desk that was 
the desk of Ben Graffis and he said to Ben Graffis, O chief, it is a great gag 
but how did the special effects boys manage the halo?
And Ben Graffis was sore amazed at Who sate behind his desk and he and they all 
did crowd about and make as if to poke Him, whereupon He in His lovable growly 
voice did say, Poop-poop-poopy, and they were not.
And certain unclean ones which had gone before turned unbelieving from their 
monitors and said, Holy Gee, this is awful. And one which was an operator of 
marionettes turned to his manager and said, Pal, if Graffis gets this off the 
ground we're dead. Whereat a great and far-off voice was heard, saying, 
Poop-poop-poopy, and it was even so; and the days of Poopy Panda were long in 
the land.
 
Filtered for error,
Jan. 18th 36 P.P.
Synod on Filtration & Infiltration
O. Clodd, P.P.P.
J. Whipple, P.P.P.
 
ALFRED BESTER
 
Alfred Bester occupies a chair of honor on Holiday's writing staff. He has to 
his credit countless radio scripts and a bright and astonishing novel of today's 
television world called Who He? Almost the only first-rate television play on a 
science fiction theme"Murder and the Android"came from his brain, and so did 
the remarkable, the trail-blazing, the award-winningin a word, the unique The 
Demolished Man. He does everything, you see. And he has a touch of his own. 
When it comes to a time-travel story, most science fiction writers may content 
themselves with traveling to the future, or to the past, or perhaps sidewise to 
the parallel worlds of "if" that lie around us. Not Bester. He goes in a 
direction discovered by himself; and thus it is that he takes us along on this 
strange
 
Disappearing Act
 
This one wasnt the last war or a war to end war. They called it the War for the 
American Dream. General Carpenter struck that note and sounded it constantly. 
There are fighting generals (vital to an army), political generals (vital to an 
administration), and public relations generals (vital to a war). General 
Carpenter was a master of public relations. Forthright and FourSquare, he had 
ideals as high and as understandable as the mottoes on money. In the mind of 
America he was the army, the administration, the nations shield and sword and 
stout right arm. His ideal was the American Dream.
We are not fighting for money, for power, or for world domination, General 
Carpenter announced at the Press Association dinner.
We are fighting solely for the American Dream, he said to the 137th Congress.
Our aim is not aggression or the reduction of nations to slavery, he said at 
the West Point Annual Officers Dinner.
We are fighting for the meaning of civilization, he told the San Francisco 
Pioneers Club.
We are struggling for the ideal of civilization; for culture, for poetry, for 
the Only Things Worth Preserving, he said at the Chicago Wheat Pit Festival.
This is a war for survival, he said. We are not fighting for ourselves, but 
for our dreams; for the Better Things in Life which must not disappear from the 
face of the earth.
America fought. General Carpenter asked for one hundred million men. The army 
was given one hundred million men. General Carpenter asked for ten thousand 
H-Bombs. Ten thousand H-Bombs were delivered and dropped. The enemy also dropped 
ten thousand H-Bombs and destroyed most of Americas cities.
We must dig in against the hordes of barbarism, General Carpenter said. Give 
me a thousand engineers.
One thousand engineers were forthcoming, and a hundred cities were dug and 
hollowed out beneath the rubble.
Give me five hundred sanitation experts, three hundred traffic managers, two 
hundred air-conditioning experts, one hundred city managers, one thousand 
communication chiefs, seven hundred personnel experts. . .
The list of General Carpenters demand for technical experts was endless. 
America did not know how to supply them.
We must become a nation of experts, General Carpenter informed the National 
Association of American Universities. Every man and woman must be a specific 
tool for a specific job, hardened and sharpened by your training and education 
to win the fight for the American Dream.
Our Dream, General Carpenter said at the Wall Street Bond Drive Breakfast, is 
at one with the gentle Greeks of Athens, with the noble Romans of . . . er  
Rome. It is a dream of the Better Things in Life. Of music and art and poetry 
and culture. Money is only a weapon to be used in the fight for this dream. 
Ambition is only a ladder to climb to this dream. Ability is only a tool to 
shape this dream.
Wall Street applauded. General Carpenter asked for one hundred and fifty billion 
dollars, fifteen hundred ambitious dollar-a-year men, three thousand able 
experts in mineralogy, petrology, mass production, chemical warfare and 
air-traffic time study. They were delivered. The country was in high gear. 
General Carpenter had only to press a button and an expert would be delivered.
In March of A.D. 2112 the war came to a climax and the American Dream was 
resolved, not on any one of the seven fronts where millions of men were locked 
in bitter combat, not in any of the staff headquarters or any of the capitals of 
the warring nations, not in any of the production centers spewing forth arms and 
supplies, but in Ward T of the United States Army Hospital buried three hundred 
feet below what had once been St. Albans, New York.
Ward T was something of a mystery at St. Albans. Like any army hospital, St. 
Albans was organized with specific wards reserved for specific injuries. All 
right arm amputees were gathered in one ward, all left arm amputees in another. 
Radiation burns, head injuries, eviscerations, secondary gamma poisonings and so 
on were each assigned their specific location in the hospital organization. The 
Army Medical Corps had designated nineteen classes of combat injury which 
included every possible kind of damage to brain and tissue. These used up 
letters A to S. What, then, was in Ward T?
No one knew. The doors were double locked. No visitors were permitted to enter. 
No patients were permitted to leave. Physicians were seen to arrive and depart. 
Their perplexed expressions stimulated the wildest speculations but revealed 
nothing. The nurses who ministered to Ward T were questioned eagerly but they 
were close-mouthed.
There were dribs and drabs of information, unsatisfying and self-contradictory. 
A charwoman asserted that she had been in to clean up and there had been no one 
in the ward. Absolutely no one. Just two dozen beds and nothing else. Had the 
beds been slept in? Yes. They were rumpled, some of them. Were there signs of 
the ward being in use? Oh yes. Personal things on the tables and so on. But 
dusty, kind of. Like they hadnt been used in a long time.
Public opinion decided it was a ghost ward. For spooks only.
But a night orderly reported passing the locked ward and hearing singing from 
within. What kind of singing? Foreign language, like. What language? The orderly 
couldnt say. Some of the words sounded like ... well, like: Cow dee on us eager 
tour.
Public opinion started to run a fever and decided it was an alien ward. For 
spies only.
St. Albans enlisted the help of the kitchen staff and checked the food trays. 
Twenty-four trays went in to Ward T three times a day. Twenty-four came out. 
Sometimes the returning trays were emptied. Most times they were untouched.
Public opinion built up pressure and decided that Ward T was a racket. It was an 
informal club for goldbricks and staff grafters who caroused within. Cow de on 
us eager tour indeed!
For gossip, a hospital can put a small town sewing circle to shame with ease, 
but sick people are easily goaded into passion by trivia. It took just three 
months for idle speculation to turn into downright fury. In January, 2112, St. 
Albans was a sound, well-run hospital. By March, 2112, St. Albans was in a 
ferment, and the psychological unrest found its way into the official records. 
The percentage of recoveries fell off. Malingering set in. Petty infractions 
increased. Mutinies flared. There was a staff shake-up. It did no good. Ward T 
was inciting the patients to riot. There was another shake-up, and another, and 
still the unrest fumed.
The news finally reached General Carpenters desk through official channels.
In our fight for the American Dream, he said, we must not ignore those who 
have already given of themselves. Send me a Hospital Administration expert. The 
expert was delivered. He could do nothing to heal St. Albans. General Carpenter 
read the reports and broke him.
Pity, said General Carpenter, is the first ingredient of civilization. Send 
me a Surgeon General.
A Surgeon General was delivered. He could not break the fury of St. Albans and 
General Carpenter broke him. But by this time Ward T was being mentioned in the 
dispatches.
Send me, General Carpenter said, the expert in charge of Ward T.
St. Albans sent a doctor, Captain Edsel Dimmock. He was a stout young man, 
already bald, only three years out of medical school but with a fine record as 
an expert in psychotherapy. General Carpenter liked experts. He liked Dimmock. 
Dimmock adored the general as the spokesman for a culture which he had been too 
specially trained to seek up to now, but which he hoped to enjoy after the war 
was won.
Now look here, Dimmock, General Carpenter began. Were all of us tools, 
todaysharpened and hardened to do a specific job. You know our motto: A job for 
everyone and everyone on the job. Somebodys not on the job at Ward T and weve 
got to kick him Out. Now, in the first place, what the hell is Ward T?
Dimmock stuttered and fumbled. Finally he explained that it was a special ward 
set up for special combat cases. Shock cases.
Then you do have patients in the ward?
Yes, sir. Ten women and fourteen men.
Carpenter brandished a sheaf of reports. Says here the St. Albans patients 
claim nobodys in Ward T.
Dimmock was shocked. That was untrue, he assured the general.
All right, Dimmock. So youve got your twenty-four crocks in there. Their jobs 
to get well. Your jobs to cure them. What the hells upsetting the hospital 
about that?
W-Well, sir. Perhaps its because we keep them locked up.
You keep Ward T locked?
Yes, sir.
Why?
To keep the patients in, General Carpenter.
Keep em in? What dyou mean? Are they trying to get out? They violent, or 
something?
No, sir. Not violent.
Diinmock, I dont like your attitude. Youre acting damned sneaky and evasive. 
And Ill tell you something else I dont like. That T classification. I checked 
with a Filing Expert from the Medical Corps and there is no T classification. 
What the hell are you up to at St. Albans?
W-Well, sir. . . We invented the T classification. It  They ... Theyre rather 
special cases, sir. We dont know what to do about them or how to handle them. 
W-Weve been trying to keep it quiet until weve worked out a modus operandi, 
but its brand new, General Carpenter. Brand new! Here the expert in Dinimock 
triumphed over discipline. Its sensational. Itll make medical history, by 
God! Its the biggest damned thing ever.
What is it, Dimmock? Be specific.
Well, sir, theyre shock cases. Blanked out. Almost catatonic. Very little 
respiration. Slow pulse. No response.
Ive seen thousands of shock cases like that, Carpenter grunted. Whats so 
unusual?
Yes, sir. So far it sounds like the standard Q or R classification. But heres 
something unusual. They dont eat and they dont sleep.
Never?
Some of them never.
Then why dont they die?
We dont know. The metabolism cycles broken, but only on the anabolism side. 
Catabolism continues. In other words, sir, theyre eliminating waste products 
but theyre not taking anything in. Theyre eliminating fatigue poisons and 
rebuilding worn tissue, but without sleep. God knows how. Its fantastic.
That why youve got them locked up? Mean to say... Dyou suspect them of 
stealing food and cat naps somewhere else?
N-No, sir. Dimmock looked shamefaced. I dont know how to tell you this, 
General Carpenter. I. . . We lock them up because of the real mystery. They. . . 
Well, they disappear.
They what?
They disappear, sir. Vanish. Right before your eyes.
The hell you say.
I do say, sir. Theyll be sitting on a bed or standing around. One minute you 
see them, the next minute you dont. Sometimes theres two dozen in Ward T. 
Other times none. They disappear and reappear without rhyme or reason. Thats 
why weve got the ward locked, General Carpenter. In the entire history of 
combat and combat injury theres never been a case like this before. We dont 
know how to handle it.
Bring me three of those cases, General Carpenter said.
 
Nathan Riley ate French toast, eggs benedict; consumed two quarts of brown ale, 
smoked a John Drew, belched delicately and arose from the breakfast table. He 
nodded quietly to Gentleman Jim Corbett, who broke off his conversation with 
Diamond Jim Brady to intercept him on the way to the cashiers desk.
Who do you like for the pennant this year, Nat? Gentleman Jim inquired.
The Dodgers, Nathan Riley answered.
Theyve got no pitching.
Theyve got Snider and Furillo and Campanella. Theyll take the pennant this 
year, Jim. Ill bet they take it earlier than any team ever did. By September 
13th. Make a note. See if Im right.
Youre always right, Nat, Corbett said.
Riley smiled, paid his check, sauntered out into the street and caught a 
horsecar bound for Madison Square Garden. He got off at the corner of 50th and 
Eighth Avenue and walked upstairs to a handbook office over a radio repair shop. 
The bookie glanced at him, produced an envelope and counted out fifteen thousand 
dollars.
Rocky Marciano by a TKO over Roland La Starza in the eleventh, he said. How 
the hell do you call them so accurate, Nat?
Thats the way I make a living, Riley smiled. Are you making book on the 
elections?
Eisenhower twelve to five. Stevenson
Never mind Adlai. Riley placed twenty thousand dollars on the counter. Im 
backing Ike. Get this down for me.
He left the handbook office and went to his suite in the Waldorf where a tall, 
thin young man was waiting for him anxiously.
Oh yes, Nathan Riley said. Youre Ford, arent you? Harold Ford?
Henry Ford, Mr. Riley.
And you need financing for that machine in your bicycle shop. Whats it 
called?
I call it an Ipsimobile, Mr. Riley.
Hmmm. Cant say I like that name. Why not call it an automobile?
Thats a wonderful suggestion, Mr. Riley. Ill certainly take it.
I like you, Henry. Youre young, eager, adaptable. I believe in your future and 
I believe in your automobile. Ill invest two hundred thousand dollars in your 
company.
Riley wrote a check and ushered Henry Ford out. He glanced at his watch and 
suddenly felt impelled to go back and look around for a moment. He entered his 
bedroom, undressed, put on a gray shirt and gray slacks. Across the pocket of 
the shirt were large blue letters: U.S.A.H.
He locked the bedroom door and disappeared.
He reappeared in Ward T of the United States Army Hospital in St. Albans, 
standing alongside his bed which was one of twenty-four lining the walls of a 
long, light steel barracks. Before he could draw another breath, he was seized 
by three pairs of hands. Before he could struggle, he was shot by a pneumatic 
syringe and poleaxed by 1 cc of sodium thiomorphate.
Weve got one, someone said.
Hang around, someone else answered. General Carpenter said he wanted three.
After Marcus Junius Brutus left her bed, Lela Machan clapped her hands. Her 
slave women entered the chamber and prepared her bath. She bathed, dressed, 
scented herself and breakfasted on Smyrna figs, rose oranges and a flagon of 
Lacrima Christi. Then she smoked a cigarette and ordered her litter.
The gates of her house were crowded as usual by adoring hordes from the 
Twentieth Legion. Two centurions removed her chair-bearers from the poles of the 
litter and bore her on their stout shoulders. Lela Machan smiled. A young man in 
a sapphire-blue cloak thrust through the mob and ran toward her. A knife flashed 
in his hand. Lela braced herself to meet death bravely.
Lady! he cried. Lady Lela!
He slashed his left arm with the knife and let the crimson blood stain her robe.
This blood of mine is the least I have to give you, he cried.
Lela touched his forehead gently.
Silly boy, she murmured. Why?
For love of you, my lady.
You will be admitted tonight at nine, Lela whispered. He stared at her until 
she laughed. I promise you. What is your name, pretty boy?
Ben Hur.
Tonight at nine, Ben Hur.
The litter moved on. Outside the forum, Julius Caesar passed in hot argument 
with Marcus Antonius, Antony. When he saw the litter he motioned sharply to the 
centurions, who stopped at once. Caesar swept back the curtains and stared at 
Lela, who regarded him languidly. Caesars face twitched.
Why? he asked hoarsely. I have begged, pleaded, bribed, wept, and all without 
forgiveness. Why, Lela? Why?
Do you remember Boadicea? Lela murmured.
Boadicea? Queen of the Britons? Good God, Lela, what can she mean to our love? 
I did not love Boadicea. I merely defeated her in battle.
And killed her, Caesar.
She poisoned herself, Lela.
She was my mother, Caesar! Suddenly Lela pointed her finger at Caesar. 
Murderer. You will be punished. Beware the Ides of March, Caesar!
Caesar recoiled in horror. The mob of admirers that bad gathered around Lela 
uttered a shout of approval. Amidst a rain of rose petals and violets she 
continued on her way across the Forum to the Temple of the Vestal Virgins where 
she abandoned her adoring suitors and entered the sacred temple.
Before the altar she genuflected, intoned a prayer, dropped a pinch of incense 
on the altar flame and disrobed. She examined her beautiful body reflected in a 
silver mirror, then experienced a momentary twinge of homesickness. She put on a 
gray blouse and a gray pair of slacks. Across the pocket of the blouse was 
lettered U.S.A.H.
She smiled once at the altar and disappeared.
She reappeared in Ward T of the United States Army Hospital where she was 
instantly felled by 1 cc sodium thiomorphate injected subcutaneously by a 
pneumatic syringe.
Thats two, somebody said.
One more to go.
 
George Hanmer paused dramatically and stared around at the opposition benches, 
at the Speaker on the woolsack, at the silver mace on a crimson cushion before 
the Speakers chair. The entire House of Parliament, hypnotized by Hanmers 
fiery oratory, waited breathlessly for him to continue.
I can say no more, Hanmer said at last. His voice was choked with emotion. His 
face was blanched and grim. I will fight for this bill at the beachheads. I 
will fight in the cities, the towns, the fields and the hamlets. I will fight 
for this bill to the death and, God willing, I will fight for it after death. 
Whether this be a challenge or a prayer, let the consciences of the right 
honorable gentlemen determine; but of one thing I am sure and determined: 
England must own the Suez Canal.
Hanmer sat down. The House exploded. Through the cheering and applause he made 
his way out into the division lobby where Gladstone, Canning and Peel stopped 
him to shake his hand. Lord Palmerston eyed him coldly, but Pam was shouldered 
aside by Disraeli who limped up, all enthusiasm, all admiration.
Well have a bite at Tattersalls, Dizzy said. My cars waiting.
Lady Beaconfield was in the Rolls Royce outside the Houses of Parliament. She 
pinned a primrose on Dizzys lapel and patted Hanmers cheek affectionately.
Youve come a long way from the schoolboy who used to bully Dizzy, Georgie, 
she said.
Hanmer laughed. Dizzy sang: Gaudeamus igitur ...and Hanmer chanted the ancient 
scholastic song until they reached Tattersalls. There Dizzy ordered Guinness 
and grilled bones while Hanmer went upstairs in the club to change.
For no reason at all he had the impulse to go back for a last look. Perhaps he 
hated to break with his past completely. He divested himself of his surtout, 
nankeen waistcoat, pepper and salt trousers, polished Hessians and 
undergarments. He put on a gray shirt and gray trousers and disappeared.
He reappeared in Ward T of the St. Albans hospital where he was rendered 
unconscious by 1 cc of sodium thiomorphate.
Thats three, somebody said.
Take em to Carpenter.
 
So there they sat in General Carpenters office, PFC Nathan Riley, M/Sgt Lela 
Machan, and Corp/2 George Hanmer. They were in their hospital grays. They were 
torpid with sodium thiomorphate.
The office had been cleared and it blazed with blinding light. Present were 
experts from Espionage, CounterEspionage, Security and Central Intelligence. 
When Captain Edsel Dimmock saw the steel-faced ruthless squad awaiting the 
patients and himself, he started. General Carpenter smiled grimly.
Didnt occur to you that we mightnt buy your disappearance story, eh, 
Dimmock?
S-Sir?
Im an expert too, Dimmock. Ill spell. it out for you. The wars going badly. 
Very badly. Thereve been intelligence leaks. The St. Albans mess might point to 
you.
B-But they do disappear, sir. I
My experts want to talk to you and your patients about this disappearance act, 
Dimmock. Theyll start with you.
The experts worked over Dimmock with preconscious softeners, id releases and 
superego blocks. They tried every truth serum in the books and every form of 
physical and mental pressure. They brought Dimmock, squealing, to the breaking 
point three times, but there was nothing to break.
Let him stew for now, Carpenter said. Get on to the patients.
The experts appeared reluctant to apply pressure to, the sick men and the woman.
For Gods sake, dont be squeamish, Carpenter raged. Were fighting a war for 
civilization. Weve got to protect our ideals no matter what the price. Get to 
it!
The experts from Espionage, Counter-Espionage, Security and Central Intelligence 
got to it. Like three candles, PFC Nathan Riley, M/Sgt Lela Machan and Corp/2 
George Hanmer snuffed out and disappeared. One moment they were seated in chairs 
surrounded by violence. The next moment they were not.
The experts gasped. General Carpenter did the handsome thing. He stalked to 
Dimmock. Captain Dimmock, I apologize. Colonel Dimmock, youve been promoted 
for making an important discovery. . . only what the hell does it mean? Weve 
got to check ourselves first.
Carpenter snapped up the intercom. Get me a combat-shock expert and an 
alienist.
The two experts entered and were briefed. They examined the witnesses. They 
considered.
Youre all suffering from a mild case of shock, the combat-shock expert said. 
War jitters.
You mean we didnt see them disappear?
The shock expert shook his head and glanced at the alienist who also shook his 
head.
Mass illusion, the alienist said.
At that moment PFC Riley, M/Sgt Machan and Corp/2 Hanmer reappeared. One moment 
they were a mass illusion; the next, they were back sitting in their chairs 
surrounded by confusion.
Dope em again, Dimmock, Carpenter cried. Give em a gallon. He snapped up 
his intercom. I want every expert weve got. Emergency meeting in my office at 
once.
Thirty-seven experts, hardened and sharpened tools all, inspected the 
unconscious shock cases and discussed them for three hours. Certain facts were 
obvious: This must be a new fantastic syndrome brought on by the new and 
fantastic horrors of the war. As combat technique develops, the response of 
victims of this technique must also take new roads. For every action there is an 
equal and opposite reaction. Agreed.
This new syndrome must involve some aspects of teleportation. . . the power of 
mind over space. Evidently combat shock, while destroying certain known powers 
of the mind, must develop other latent powers hitherto unknown. Agreed.
Obviously, the patients must only be able to return to the point of departure, 
otherwise they would not continue to return to Ward T nor would they have 
returned to General Carpenters office. Agreed.
Obviously, the patients must be able to procure food and sleep wherever they go, 
since neither was required in Ward T. Agreed.
One small point, Colonel Dimmock said. They seem to be returning to Ward T 
less frequently. In the beginning they would come and go every day or so. Now 
most of them stay away for weeks and hardly ever return.
Never mind that, Carpenter said. Where do they go?
Do they teleport behind the enemy lines? someone asked. Theres those 
intelligence leaks.
I want Intelligence to check, Carpenter snapped. Is the enemy having similar 
difficulties with, say, prisoners of war who appear and disappear from their POW 
camps? They might be some of ours from Ward T.
They might simply be going home, Colonel Dimmock suggested.
I want Security to check, Carpenter ordered. Cover the home life and 
associations of every one of those twenty-four disappearers. Now. . . about our 
operations in Ward T. Colonel Dimmock has a plan.
 Well set up six extra beds in Ward T, Edsel Dimmock explained. Well send 
in six experts to live there and observe. Information must be picked up 
indirectly from the patients. Theyre catatonic and nonresponsive when 
conscious, and incapable of answering questions when drugged.
Gentlemen, Carpenter summed it up. This is the greatest potential weapon in 
the history of warfare I dont have to tell you what it can mean to us to be 
able to teleport an entire army behind enemy lines. We can win the war for the 
American Dream in one day if we can win this secret hidden in those shattered 
minds. We must win!
 
The experts hustled, Security checked, Intelligence probed. Six hardened and 
sharpened tools moved into Ward T in St. Albans Hospital and slowly got 
acquainted with the disappearing patients who appeared and departed less and 
less frequently. The tension increased.
Security was able to report that not one case of strange appearance had taken 
place in America in the past year. Intelligence reported that the enemy did not 
seem to be having similar difficulties with their own shock cases or with POWs.
Carpenter fretted. This is all brand new. Weve got no specialists to handle 
it. Weve got to develop new tools. He snapped up his intercom. Get me a 
college, he said.
They got him Yale.
I want some experts in mind over matter. Develop them, Carpenter ordered. Yale 
at once introduced three graduate courses in Thaumaturgy, Extra Sensory 
Perception and Telekinesis.
The first break came when one of the Ward T experts requested the assistance of 
another expert. He wanted a Lapidary.
What the hell for? Carpenter wanted to know.
He picked up a reference to a gem stone, Colonel
Dimmock explained. He cant relate it to anything in his experience. Hes a 
personnel specialist.
And hes not supposed to, Carpenter said approvingly. A job for every man and 
every man on the job. He flipped up the intercom. Get me a Lapidary.
An expert Lapidary was given leave of absence from the army arsenal and asked to 
identify a type of diamond called Jim Brady. He could not.
Well try it from another angle, Carpenter said. He snapped up his intercom. 
Get me a Semanticist.
The Semanticist left his desk in the War Propaganda Department but could make 
nothing of the words Jim Brady. They were names to him. No more. He suggested a 
Genealogist.
A Genealogist was given one days leave from his post with the Un-American 
Ancestors Committee but could make nothing of the name of Brady beyond the fact 
that it had been a common name in America for five hundred years. He suggested 
an Archaeologist.
An Archaeologist was released from the Cartography Division of Invasion Command 
and instantly identified the name Diamond Jim Brady. It was a historic personage 
who had been famous in the city of Little Old New York some time between 
Governor Peter Stuyvesant and Governor Fiorello La Guardia.
Christ! Carpenter marveled. Thats centuries ago. Where the hell did Nathan 
Riley get that? Youd better join the experts in Ward T and follow this up.
The Archaeologist followed it up, checked his references and sent in his report. 
Carpenter read it and was stunned. He called an emergency meeting of his staff 
of experts.
Gentlemen, he announced, Ward T is something bigger than teleportation. Those 
shock patients are doing something far more incredible ... far more meaningful. 
Gentlemen, theyre traveling through time.
The staff rustled uncertainly. Carpenter nodded emphatically.
Yes, gentlemen. Time travel is here. It has not arrived the way we expected it 
... as a result of expert research by qualified specialists; it has come as a 
plague . . . an infection . . . a disease of the war ... a result of combat 
injury to ordinary men. Before I continue, look through these reports for 
documentation.
The staff read the stenciled sheets. PFC Nathan Riley disappearing into the 
early twentieth century in New York; M/Sgt Lela Machan.. . visiting the first 
century in Rome; Corp/2 George Hanmer. . . journeying into the nineteenth 
century in England. And all the rest of the twenty-four patients, escaping the 
turmoil and horrors of modern war in the twenty-second century by fleeing to 
Venice and the Doges, to Jamaica and the buccaneers, to China and the Han 
Dynasty, to Norway and Eric the Red, to any place and any time in the world.
I neednt point out the colossal significance of this discovery, General 
Carpenter pointed out. Think what it would mean to the war if we could send an 
army back in time a week or a month or a year. We could win the war before it 
started. We could protect our Dream . . . poetry and beauty and the fine culture 
of America ... from barbarism without ever endangering it.
The staff tried to grapple with the problem of winning battles before they 
started.
The situation is complicated by the fact that these men and women of Ward T are 
non compos. They may or may not know how they do what they do, but in any case 
theyre incapable of communicating with the experts who could reduce this 
miracle to method. Its for us to find the key. They cant help us.
The hardened and sharpened specialists looked around uncertainly.
Well need experts, General Carpenter said.
The staff relaxed. They were on familiar ground again.
Well need a Cerebral Mechanist, a Cyberneticist, a Psychiatrist, an Anatomist, 
an Archaeologist and a first rate Historian. Theyll go into that ward and they 
wont come out until their job is done. They must get the technique of time 
travel.
 
The first five experts were easy to draft from other war departments. All 
America was a tool chest of hardened and sharpened specialists. But there was 
trouble locating a first-class Historian until the Federal Penitentiary 
cooperated with the army and released Dr. Bradley Scrim from his twenty years at 
hard labor. Dr. Scrim was acid and jagged. He had held the chair of Philosophic 
History at a Western university until he spoke his mind about the war for the 
American Dream. That got him the twenty years hard.
Scrim was still intransigent, but induced to play ball by the intriguing problem 
of Ward T.
But Im not an expert, he snapped. In this benighted nation of experts, Im 
the last singing grasshopper in the ant heap.
Carpenter snapped up the intercom. Get me an Entomologist, he said.
Dont bother, Scrim said. Ill translate. Youre a nest of ants . . . all 
working and toiling and specializing. For what?
To preserve the American Dream, Carpenter answered hotly. Were fighting for 
poetry and culture and education and the Finer Things in Life.
Youre fighting to preserve me, Scrim said. Thats what Ive devoted my life 
to. And what do you do with me? Put me in jail.
You were convicted of enemy sympathizing and fellow-traveling, Carpenter said.
I was convicted of believing in the American Dream, Scrim said. Which is 
another way of saying I had a mind of my own.
Scrim was also intransigent in Ward T. He stayed one night, enjoyed three good 
meals, read the reports, threw them down and began hollering to be let out.
Theres a job for everyone and everyone must be on  the job, Colonel Dimmock 
told him. You dont come out until youve got the secret of time travel.
Theres no secret I can get, Scrim said.
Do they travel in time?
Yes and no.
The answer has to be one or the other. Not both. Youre evading the
Look, Scrim interrupted wearily. What are you an expert in? 
Psychotherapy.
Then how the hell can you understand what Im talking about? This is a 
philosophic concept. I tell you theres no secret here that the army can use. 
Theres no secret any group can use. Its a secret for individuals only.
I dont understand you.
I didnt think you would. Take me to Carpenter.
They took Scrim to Carpenters office where he grinned at the general 
malignantly, looking for all the world like a red-headed, underfed devil.
Ill need ten minutes, Scrim said. Can you spare them out of your tool box?
Carpenter nodded.
Now listen carefully. Im going to give you all the clues to something vast, so 
strange, so new, that it will need all your fine edge to cut into it.
Carpenter looked expectant.
Nathan Riley goes back in time to the early twentieth century. There he lives 
the life of his fondest dreams. Hes a big-time gambler, the friend of Diamond 
Jim Brady and others. He wins money betting on events because be always knows 
the outcome in advance. He won money betting on Eisenhower to win an election. 
He won money betting on a prize fighter named Marciano to beat another prize 
fighter named La Starza. He made money investing in an automobile company owned 
by Henry Ford. There are the clues. They mean anything to you?
Not without a Sociological Analyst, Carpenter answered. He reached for the 
intercom.
Dont bother. Ill explain. Lets try some more clues. Lela Machan, for 
example. She escapes into the Roman empire where she lives the life of her 
dreams as a femme fatale. Every man loves her. Julius Caesar, Brutus, the entire 
Twentieth Legion, a man named Ben Hur. Do you see the fallacy?
No.
She also smokes cigarettes.
Well? Carpenter asked after a pause.
I continue, Scrim said. George escapes into England of the nineteenth century 
where hes a Member of Parliament and the friend of Gladstone, Canning and 
Disraeli, who takes him riding in his Rolls Royce. Do you know what a Rolls 
Royce is?
No.
It was the name of an automobile.
You dont understand yet?
No.
Scrim paced the floor in exaltation. Carpenter, this is a bigger discovery than 
teleportation or time travel. This can be the salvation of man. I dont think 
Im exaggerating. Those two dozen shock victims in Ward T have been H-Bombed 
into something so gigantic that its no wonder your specialists and experts 
cant understand it.
What the hells bigger than time travel, Scrim?
Listen to this, Carpenter. Eisenhower did not run for office until the middle 
of the twentieth century. Nathan Riley could not have been a friend of Diamond 
Jim Bradys and bet on Eisenhower to win an election . . . not simultaneously. 
Brady was dead a quarter of a century before Ike was President. Marciano 
defeated La Starza fifty years after Henry Ford started his automobile company. 
Nathan Rileys time traveling is full of similar anachronisms.
Carpenter looked puzzled.
Lela Machan could not have had Ben Hur for a lover. Ben Hur never existed in 
Rome. He never existed at all. He was a character in a novel. She couldnt have 
smoked. They didnt have tobacco then. You see? More anachronisms. Disraeli 
could never have taken George Hanmer for a ride in a Rolls Royce because 
automobiles werent invented until long after Disraelis death.
The hell you say, Carpenter exclaimed. You mean theyre all lying?
No. Dont forget, they dont need sleep. They dont need food. They are not 
lying. Theyre going back in time all right. Theyre eating and sleeping back 
there.
But you just said their stories dont stand up. Theyre full of anachronisms.
Because they travel back into a time of their own imagination. Nathan Riley has 
his own picture of what America was like in the early twentieth century. Its 
faulty and anachronistic because hes no scholar; but its real for him. He can 
live there. The same is true for the others.
Carpenter goggled.
The concept is almost beyond understanding. These people have discovered how to 
turn dreams into reality. They know how to enter their dream realities. They can 
stay there, live there, perhaps forever. My God, Carpenter, this is your 
American dream. Its miracle-working, immortality, Godlike creation, mind over 
matter... It must be explored. It must be studied. It must be given to the 
world.
Can you do it, Scrim?
No, I cannot. Im a historian. Im noncreative, so its beyond me. You need a 
poet . . . a man who understands the creation of dreams. From creating dreams on 
paper or canvas it oughtnt to be too difficult to take the step to creating 
dreams in actuality.
A poet? Are you serious?
Certainly Im serious. Dont you know what a poet is? Youve been telling us 
for five years that this war is being fought to save the poets.
Dont be facetious, Scrim, I
Send a poet into Ward T. Hell learn how they do it. Hes the only man who can. 
A poet is half doing it anyway. Once he learns, he can teach, your psychologists 
and anatomists. Then they can teach us; but the poet is the only man who can 
interpret between those shock cases and your experts.
I believe youre right, Scrim.
Then dont delay, Carpenter. Those patients are returning to this world less 
-and less frequently. Weve got to get at that secret before they disappear 
forever. Send a poet to Ward T.
Carpenter snapped up his intercom. Send me a poet, be said.
He waited, and waited . . . and waited . . . while America sorted feverishly 
through its two hundred and ninety millions of hardened and sharpened experts, 
its specialized tools to defend the American Dream of beauty and poetry and the 
Better Things in Life. He waited for them to find a poet, not understanding the 
endless delay, the fruitless search, not understanding why Bradley Scrim laughed 
and laughed and laughed at this final, fatal disappearance.
 
ELISABETH MANN BORGESE
 
Star in its history was able to draw on the services of a clear majority of the 
best writers in the science fiction field; but there were, too, a sizable number 
of first-rate contributions by "mainstream" writers, drawn to science fiction 
because they had something to say that could not be said elsewhere. There were 
half a dozen of theseGerald Kersh, Jessamyn West, one or two who elected the 
protection of pen namesand there is Mrs. Borgese, who is not only the daughter 
of one of the greatest writers of all, but in her own right a talented artist 
with words. Have no doubt of this; discover it for yourself in
 
Twin's Wail
 
When he first said, "It is not Martha's fault, why, any Martha would have done 
it; he got her to be that way; I too had a Martha like that," people simply 
thought he was crazy. But after he had pieced the facts together, patiently and 
humbly, they made sense. People began to wonder about the sense they made and 
wanted to hope for the best, wish them well, Phil and Martha, whoever they were. 
Somehow it seemed the toll was paid; what for, no one could quite discern, but a 
toll was paid. They could go ahead now, Phil and Martha.
Vanyambadi, April 24, 1918. 
 
Today James christened them. Willoughby and Theophil. Willoughby, after Dad. 
"Willy" just suits him, the cute thing. And if one is Willy, it is nice that the 
other be Philly. We thought of Philip, too; but, come to think of it, it doesn't 
make much sense, in our family. "Theophil" augurs well. Let him be dear to God.
June 6.
 
Will always has to be on the left side, Phil always on the right, in the crib 
and in the buggy too. If you put them the other way, they'll cry. It's really 
easier that way to tell them apart. Dr. Edgecomb says to separate them. They 
would grow better, he says. But it can't be done. They'll cry: Will keeps his 
left arm under his head, Phil the right one. And when people stare at themthey 
have never seen a pair of twins here; they stare at them as if they were 
monstersthey both start crying at the same time. And when I rock the buggy they 
are quiet and begin to suck their thumbs: Will the right one, Phil the left. 
It's always like that. One is always the mirror image of the other.
July 24.
 
The kind of service you've got to put up with! I am frankly scared of Yoshi, but 
if I fire her the next one may be worse yet. Yoshi says they want to be two but 
the dasus prevent it. Chewing a parrot feather for a toothpick, she says if they 
cannot be two they'll bring on the earthquake, a terrible earthquake.
November 11.
 
They both spat out their spinach. They have the same likes and the same 
dislikes. They wet their diapers at the same time. Woe, if I changed Phil 
without changing Will! And Will must always be first.
May 1.
 
Yoshi says, and she wears an old stocking of mine on her head for a turban, help 
them be two. She says: Do shave Will's hair and sacrifice it to 
Shiva-with-the-Four-Arms that he sever them into two times two. Burn Will's 
hair. But Phil's hair should be done up with cow dung. That will help them be 
two.
November 9.
 
Will's cold is hanging on. We still kept him indoors today. He's rather cross 
and a bit run down. Got himself badly scratched up, along the left leg, while 
playing in his play-pen with some train tracks. When Phil came home I'll be 
darned if he hadn't his leg scratched up too. The right one. He had crawled off 
towards the garden fence and fallen against the barbed wire.
December 13.
 
Yoshi said, in a magical singsong voice not her own: Don't bathe them in water, 
which makes for sameness. Will should be rubbed with the fat of a hilsa, but for 
Phil you should get the twice-chewed hay of a sacred cow and boil it in palm 
oil, with leaves of sandalwood and minusops. That you should rub on Phil. It 
will make them different.
February 12.
 
There is a Peter Toledo and a Peter MacGregor among the boys down at the Mission 
Nursery. Peter Toledo is small and dark and flabby, and Peter MacGregor is tall 
and blond and springy. They haven't got a thing in common but their name. And 
that Phil is picking on Peter Toledo and Will is bothering Peter MacGregor. 
Today Phil took Peter Toledo's cookies, up in the dining room, and bit him when 
he cried, while Will kicked Peter MacGregor off the swing, down in the backyard, 
and rocked himself wildly and burst with laughter when he saw that Peter had got 
hurt.
Christmas.
 
It seems so strange, these two children who are really only one. And you don't 
know where one ends and the other begins. Will is for Phil, Phil is for Will, 
and there seems to be no room for anybody else. The space between them seems 
different from the space around, permeated by invisible communications. I've 
looked it up in the books, and it seems to be all perfectly normal the way it 
is. James says each one has a soul, each one of them is alone before God. But 
sometimes I wonder.
May 5.
 
Phil has grown faster than Will. He is almost an inch taller now. But Will is 
getting so bossy. Phil"My Phil"he has to do everything just the way Will wants 
him to. Phil is such a good boy. He does not mind. This morning Will wetted 
Phil's bed. I know he did, because Phil's bed was dry when I picked him up for 
his bath. But Will said: "Phil made wettywetty in his beddy. Bad Phil." And Phil 
looked at us so sorrowfully with guilty eyes. I really think he believed he did 
it.
Halloween.
 
Yoshi said: Their karmas are two. They are two. She sat on a stool by the bead 
curtain front door, spreading her shawl over Will and Phil on her sides, and she 
held their handsWill's left, Phil's right joined on her lap. The heart and the 
head line will never meet on Will's palm; he's going to be an impulsive boy. 
Phil will be pensive. See, where they join, the head and the heart line, in one. 
This swelling shows fortune and foresight. The life line is long but the 
mountain of love is shrivelled; dimpled and broken his pride and reliance. Will 
too shows good fortune but is reckless and wild. The field of Dishnana augurs 
abundance, but the mountain of love is like Phil's, just like Phil's, and his 
life line is cut through by Asuras. Their karmas are two, said Yoshi.
Palm Sunday.
 
I gave Phil a bunny with floppy ears, but he cried till Will got one just like 
it. I gave Willy a set of jinglebells but he broke them in two, half for him, 
half for Philly. I gave them a team of galloping horses hitched to a covered 
wagon. They cried they did not want one but two. But there wasn't another one, 
not in all of Vanyambadi. So they cried and they said: We are scared of it, take 
it away!
 
This is as far as she got. Poor mother. Here her hand was halted.
Had she listened to Yoshi, perhaps the earth would have tarried. And we were to 
leave anyway, for Dad had been called to the Christ Church in Chicago. But the 
earth did not wait. God knows why it was sore at me and my Will.
There is not much I can remember. A sulky day of frightening colors. The kitten 
vomited and mewed, and the sheep dog had his tail between his legs. Yoshi was 
off to the village. Rice wine, too much rice wine, 1 remember they said. Has 
anybody ever seen a sunset like this, they said. A cloud with a golden rim was 
hovering over the horizon like a monster. Then I felt dizzy, trying to hold 
myself on all fours, and sick to my stomach. When it was over, the house had 
crumbled and the yard was gaping and smoking and the sheep dog was howling at 
the ruins and Dad took me in his arms and kissed me and carried me away. Mother 
had gone to Heaven, he said, and Will had gone with her so she wouldn't be 
lonely, but Philly and Daddy would go to Chicago. The stars had long tails and 
swirled over the sky through the ship's bull's eye.
Poor father. Had he listened to me, we might have found Will, for he was not in 
Heaven. I heard his voice calling in the night and wept to the nurse who came to 
soothe me. "My Will is crying, my Will wants me." I heard him often and knew him 
to be sick and looking for us. Phil is missing Will so, they said.
There was a mirror in the dressing room at the Nursery School in Chicago. I 
looked at it, while the teacher but-toned up my snowsuit, and called, overjoyed, 
"There is my Will." The other children too began to point at their selves in the 
mirror and shouted names and jumped and laughed. There is another Dick. Where is 
the other Helen? My Tommy! Many a one fancied a twin. It was a game like 
another. Thus my Will faded to fantasy and then was forgotten. He was put away 
with the old toys for new ones.
That was thirty years ago.
 
CHICAGO TRIBUNE, December 4, 1952. AUTHOR SLAIN IN APARTMENT BY DRUNKEN WIFE. 
Rome, December 3. William Sailor, thirty-four-year-old Anglo-Indian, was 
murdered this afternoon in his apartment in Via Sistina. Apparently he was 
attacked by his wife, the former Martha Egan, a television starlet, with a 
hunting knife. The woman, who was found to be doped and drunk, stabbed his left 
cheek and wounded his left arm. While Sailor was staggering and trying to regain 
his senses, the woman fired two shots from a pistol. Sailor was killed 
instantly. Neighbors and police were brought to the scene by the shots. Mrs. 
Sailor suffered a nervous breakdown. The Sailors had been heard quarrelling 
several times before.
Sailor lost all his family during the earthquake of Vanyambadi, India, in 1921. 
At sixteen he joined the British Merchant Navy and led an adventurous life that 
took him over most of the Asian and African coasts. After the war he settled in 
Rome where he married Martha Egan in 1949. William Sailor is the author of 
numerous books on travel and adventure. His best known work is a novel, No Home 
for Strangers.
 
"Did you see that, Phil?" Robby McNutting said over the luncheon table. "It's 
this morning's Trib. He looked just exactly like you. My word, I've never seen 
such a likeness in all my life. Look at the forehead, generous like yours; the 
short cropped hair, the questioning eyes. Must be dark, like yours. The long 
straight nose, and the folds down the mouth, deeper on one side. Look, he even 
draws one shoulder up like you. Your mirror image." And he handed the page to 
Phil.
The paper trembled in Phil's hand so he put it down before him on the table and 
wiped over it with the back of his spoon as though to flatten it, or to see 
whether it was really there. Jim Wilder pushed his chair round the corner of the 
table, to look at the picture too, and Ted Connally, on the opposite side, got 
up, walked round, leaned his arms on the back of Phil's chair, and looked over 
his shoulder.
"Boy," Jim Wilder said, "it's almost uncanny."
"Phil, old fellow," Ted Connally guffawed, slapping him on the shoulder, "how 
does it feel to have been murdered?"
"Oh, come on," Robby McNutting said helpfully, "you can't tell from a telephoto. 
Maybe the man looked altogether different."
Phil kept staring at the picture and the story. "And I knew it, I knew it, I 
knew it all the time," he mumbled. Then he poured down his Martini, and 
McNutting's and Wilder's and what was left of Ted Connally's second, and 
staggered out of the Club.
 
CHICAGO TRIBUNE, December 8, 1952. MURDERESS DEFENDED BY VICTIM'S DOUBLE. Rome, 
December 7. Theophil Thorndike, a Chicago banker, arrived here today by plane 
from New York. He claimed to be the twin brother of William Sailor who was 
murdered by his wife on December 3. Thomdike said he had documents to prove the 
relationship. People who knew William Sailor said the similarity to Thorndike 
was astounding. Thorndike hired a lawyer to defend Mrs. Sailor and obtained her 
transfer, pending trial, to a private room at the sanatorium Villa Igea.
 
They certainly had explained my coming. But probably she had not listened. She 
was easily distracted. When I opened the door she seemed utterly unprepared.
She stared at me, buried her face in her hands, then stared again, forlorn. She 
jerked up from the red upholstered armchair in which she had been resting and 
retreated towards the red-framed window, groping blindly backwards with her 
arms, always staring at me, through me, at the red rousing wall. She leaned 
against the window, her palms cooling on the glass pane. Her black open hair 
fell over her black shoulders. Her face was pale and contorted. A witch 
condemned to the stake, a poor sick suffering girl. "Go away," she hissed, 
"please go away and leave me alone."
"How do you do, Martha." The calm swing of a trained business voice sounded 
utterly out of place, even to me. "I am Will's brother Phil Thorndike. From 
Chicago. Didn't they tell you?" There was not another sound to be gotten out of 
her. She stood there black and twisted, her arms spread out, a barren tree 
against the darkling sky. A quarter of an hour, perhaps half an hour, and night 
fell. I stole towards the door and slipped out.
 
The next morning he brought her roses and candies.
"Hello, Martha, you look fine today. Had a good rest? It was cold in Chicago 
when I left, you know; the wings of the plane were heavy with ice. We had a hard 
time taking off. Didn't he ever tell you he had a brother? He probably didn't 
remember. I couldn't either, but then I knew it even though he ceased to be real 
long ago, in a certain way. Dad kept talking about him and mother, and there 
were pictures and the baby book. I'll show them to you. Look, I bought a copy of 
No Home for Strangers. Started reading it. He must have been a tough guy. You 
know, I wanted to be a writer, too. Took a couple of courses in creative writing 
at college. But then, I metMarthamy wife's name was Martha tooand then I got 
a job at the Morris Trust Company and went to Lass School. I guess that didn't 
leave much time for anything else. Why don't you try these candies? You smoke? 
You know, I don't know a soul here in Rome. It's funny. But there are American 
bars all over the place. Hot dogs deluxethe Romans take them so seriously and 
they're terribly fashionable. But I don't like it here. People staring at me. 
`That must be William Sailor's brother'do I really look so much like Will?"
"Why don't you shut up?"
 
"Hello Martha. Feeling better today?"
"Say, how long are you going to hang around here?"
"Oh, Martha, I want to stay as long as necessary. I want to help you.... I've 
finished Will's book. Do you like it, Martha?"
"I hate it. And I hate Will. I hate both of you. Oh, don't go! Please don't go 
away."
Martha wept, fitfully and fearfully. Her face on her arm on the red polished 
hospital table. Her back shaking. Tears clogging her nose and choking her 
throat. The world, coming to an end with each long pressed sob, vanished 
trembling behind the wall of tears. The void closed in, tightening on her 
deluged temples, her squeezed lungs. She wept on Phil's hand stretched to stroke 
soothingly her jerking shoulders. "Poor girl," he said. "I know it. I know it 
all. Cry it out. Cry it all out of your system."
She stroked his face, blindly, gratefully.
"The scar," she said, and had suddenly stopped weeping. "The scar on your 
cheek, on your right cheek." She looked at him in new horror.
"Nothing. An accident. A crash. Three months ago. It's all healed now."
Martha:   Good morning Phil. How nice of you to come so early.
Phil:        Had a good rest?
Martha:   Just fine. Thanks. And you?
Phil:        I got up early and took a walk in the city. 
Martha:   It's a wonderful city.
Phil:        People sitting outdoors in the caf6s.
Martha:   In Via Veneto.
Phil:        In December. In Chicago it's blizzards. 
Martha:   And here the light is lambent on the red stones.
Phil:        You just walk for hours, just walk and get lost. 
Martha:   One discovery opening into another.
Phil:        Don't you love it?
Martha:   I loved it.
Phil:        How long have you been living here, Martha? 
Martha:   Seven, almost eight years. It's almost eight years.
Phil:        Met Will in Rome?
Martha:   At Dermott McDermott's.
Phil:        You know Dermott?
Martha.   Of course I do. I was staying with him, and you know Freddy.
Phil:        Freddy? It's years and years.
Martha:   He pays him ninety dollars a month.
Phil:        Just for the fun of sleeping with him.
Martha:   Freddy is a terrible mess.
Phil:        I don't see what Dermott finds in him.
Martha:   Sometimes he won't speak to Dermott all day. 
Phil:        I think he hates Dermott. I think he will kill Dermott some day.
Martha:   When Dermott wants to dress up and go to the show, Freddy won't shave 
and he'll hang around in dirty jeans, and he'll go out into the street and talk 
to the whores.
Phil:        Like and like keep good company.
Martha:   He won't do a thing at home. The bathroom, always messy. He'd use up 
the last piece of soap.
Phil:        The last piece of toilet paper.
Martha:   But he'd never dream of replacing it.
Phil:        Never. You had to do it all.
Martha:   What are you smiling at? Am I boring you? I guess I am boring you.
Phil:        Not in the least, Martha.
Martha:   Will smiled, just before that gun went off. 
Phil:        Smiled, just like that.
Martha:   I sometimes think: You. Simply you. You almost did it. You died. You 
scared me. Don't do it again. I must be more careful. That must never happen 
again. Phil, I am so scared.
Phil:        How did Will and Dermott get along?
Martha:   At first, famously. That is, Will adored Dermott. 
Phil:        And Dermott just loves being adored.
Martha:   For Will, Dermott was a real writer, and artist.
Dermott had to check every comma Will wrote. 
Phil:        Poor Will. And he himself wasn't a real writer? 
Martha: Just thrillers, you know. And he said he did not know any language at 
all.
Phil:        He must have known Hindi, as a child. 
Martha:   He forgot it, and English he never learned. Just picked it up from the 
boys in the Navy. 
Phil:        And read a lot, I guess.
Martha:   But it was not his language. And lately he started getting mixed up 
with Italian.
Phil:        He had no language.
Martha:   It does something to your mind, he said.
Phil:        Huprooted. Kicked around in world and creeds and systems. So 
huprooted. All of us.
Martha:   And did he show off in front of Dermott, spending silly amounts of 
money, you know, and telling him how many copies of his latest book had been 
sold and in how many languages it had been translated.
Phil:        Dermott couldn't care less.
Martha: And he said it read best in Persian, although there were a few minor 
mistakes in the translation.
Phil:        That's sheer snobbism.
Martha:   I don't know why he picked up with me in the first place; whether it 
was because he cared for me or whether he thought it would hurt Dermott. You 
know, he was jealous of Dermott, at the same time.
Phil:        And you?
Martha:   I don't know. I really don't know. He said he was going to get me a 
part in his new television play. A part written just for me. He was wonder-fully 
like you. Don't die any more, please don't.
Phil:        It is late, Martha, and I must go. They are getting your lunch 
ready. Halfway decent? What shall I bring you tomorrow? Okay, Martha, it will be 
marrons glares. So long, Martha.
 
She is not a bad girl after all. Simple, forthright, cordial, rather generous by 
nature, underneath. Out of place in this career. Slithered into it God knows 
why. What made her act so horridly with Will?
My Martha was different. Wicked right from the outset. A go-getter. At first she 
seemed nice enough, though, and active. Pretty tall blond she was.
Dead. Destroyed. Kaputt. Won't work no more. Slipped out of my impotent hands. 
And left a hard hole, hard white hole, superimposing its Martha shape, planing 
into its contours whoever wants to float up through.
The other girls at the office didn't like her, though. Fawning on the boss and 
bossy on the fawns. (That's a good one. Must tell Martha. Which Martha?) She 
certainly knew what she wanted. Spun her web round me in no time. And then the 
allergies. Never seemed to bother her till she had me. But then! Endless trouble 
and troubled end.
 
Phil:        Listen, Martha, what I made up yesterday on my way home: "Fawning 
on the boss and bossy on the fawns." Isn't that a good one?
Martha: Who? What?
Phil:        Any one. I mean, I was thinking of my wife, when she was still 
working at the office. Can you imagine. She wasn't a bit like you: all cold and 
calculating.
Martha:   Just the name.
Phil:        That does not create any bond.
Martha:   Maybe it does.
Phil:        There are many Marthas.
Martha:   And one proto-Martha.
Phil:        What difference does it make?
Martha:   There's something damned about all Marthas. 
Phil:        Perhaps.
Martha:   Parents ought to be more careful.
Phil:        It's their way, their luck, they impress with that chosen name.
Martha:   I wish my name wasI can't think of a suitable name for myself; but 
imagine if my name was, everything would have been different. There's something 
damned about all Marthas. 
Phil:        About mine there was, by Jove. Hell of a life. Martha: What did she 
do to you?
Phil:        The allergies. The air-conditioned rooms and the oxygen tents. The 
fumes and the moves and the fired nurses.
Martha:   if she was sick?
Phil:        I couldn't accept any invitations for dinner 
Martha:   or bring home any guests.
Phil:        She'd be sick, infallibly. She called me at the office and she 
called me at board meetings 
Martha:   and woe, if you didn't get home on time. Phil:        She made my life 
utterly impossible.
Martha:   Why didn't you get rid of her?
Phil:        I did. Divorce, you know, has an ugly ring in the ear of a 
missionary's son
Martha: and I think you just wanted it like that. Some people just have to have 
hell at home. You know, Will....
Phil:        Did you run Will like that?
Martha:   I don't know. I guess I was worried about him be-cause he took to 
drinking so heavily.
Phil:        You canceled his dinner engagements? 
Martha:   Because I didn't want people to see him so drunk.
Phil:        There's always some because
Martha:   because he put both hands into the salad bowl at the Marchesa 
Marchesani's
Phil:        if he didn't do worse than that
Martha:   and he would argue. Did he argue, with Dermott, when they both were 
drunk? He was quite unbearable.
Phil:        What did they argue about?
Martha:   Politics, lots of it. Imperialism. Socialism, and all the rest.
Phil:        Well. I know where Dermott stands on all those things
Martha:   and you can imagine what happened when Will said the Indians were 
inferior.
Phil:        Did he say that?
Martha:   And the children there get blind because they are too lazy to drive 
the flies off their eyes. He said they just sit there and let the flies eat 
their eyes. 
Phil:        Maybe it's true. 1 heard it too.
Martha:   You know, he lived with them, street urchins, for years, after he got 
lost during the earthquake a girl named Maharata picked him up and mothered him 
as best she couldand he said, if he didn't turn out to be a mess like them it 
was because he had the stuff it takes to be a man.
Phil:        it's the same stuff I am made of. I can assure you.
Martha:   It hasn't got anything to do with the "social order" he said. And the 
British officers in India did a wonderful job
Phil:        they tried to bring the natives up to their standards: didn't he 
say that?
Martha:   Why, they even left their personal silver to the Indian Officers Mess, 
when they quit, just to show them
Phil:        that was undoubtedly generous on their part. 
Martha:   But the Labour Government was terrible
Phil:        that wasn't exactly what Dermott thought. 
Martha: But Will, he turned literally green when you as much as mentioned one of 
them. Which, after all, is rather strange because he knew nothing about politics 
in the first place.
Phil:        What did he think was wrong?
Martha:   The way they betrayed the Empire, he said, was terrible and they 
killed initiative at home and produced soft characters, whereas, what you need 
to get along is to be tough, he said
Phil:        come to think about it, that's just the way I used to feel
Martha:   you've got to be tough
Phil:        it was because I was so tough that I became president of the Morris 
Trust Co. at thirty years of age 
Martha:   you thought the real way to start a business was to sell apples from 
an apple cart
Phil:        I even tried to write a book about these things, you know, how 
tough and self-made you've got to be
Martha:   and that the New Deal was terrible
Phil:        and that the government should keep off my affairs and yours
Martha:   and stuff like that.
Phil:        It was to be called: Keep Going West, Young Man, but I guess it was 
so badly written no one wanted to publish it, thank goodness.
Martha:   Why did you change your mind about these things?
Phil:        it's all stuff and nonsense: I and I and I. Did you ever hear about 
a fellow named Plato?
Martha:   Vaguely.
Phil:        My favored author at the Great Books class. 
Martha:   Your mind is wandering, Phil.
Phil:        At the beginning, he said, there were neither men nor women
Martha:   but some kind of funny beings
Phil:        male and female at once.
Martha:   I guess they must have had four arms
Phil:        and four legs and so on
Martha:   I wonder whether they were happy that way 
Phil:        until, one day, a certain rude deity split them asunder
Martha:   severing boy and girl
Phil:        and they have been looking for one another ever since.
Martha:   What are you driving at, Phil?
Phil:        It's the story of Will and me.
Martha:   Split asunder, one day, by a certain rude deity? 
Phil:        A quirk of fate.
Martha: You should have been one, are one. Don't die any more, please don't die 
again.
Phil:        One case of 86 works out like that: Twins. One out of every 862, 
makes triplets; one of every 863, quadruplets. The dickens knows why. But that's 
the way it is
Martha:   and it had to be you
Phil:        or else it might have been one of 87
Martha:   the law upset
Phil:        a false interval, a dissonant chord: it hurts my ear to think of it
Martha:   it could not happen
Phil:        the name of the new Platonic God is Statistics. 
Martha:   You are mad, Phil,
Phil:        and all that he-man stuff just to hide the half-man, you know
Martha:   and you were lonely and little and scared underneath.
It had gotten dark in the room.
 
"Martha, dear, Doctor Rosselli says the trial has been set for a month from now. 
He is very confident it will go all right. He says he can drop the plea for 
temporary insanityyour nervous breakdown came after the factand base your case 
on self-defense. Accidental killing in self-defense. He says the only trouble is 
that there are no witnesses, and the fact that you were doped, but he hopes to 
get around that. But now you should tell me everything. The whole story. That 
may be very, very helpful. Are you strong enough to tell me everything?"
"I'll try. But it's a long story. I'll try to piece it together. Well, Will was 
getting worse all the time. He drank terribly. For a certain time, he grew a 
beard, and he was wearing dark glasses. The light hurt his eyes, he said. What 
are you fumbling with in your pocket. Now look there, for God's sake, dark 
glasses! You too! He looked terribly sick. I wanted to take him to a doctor, but 
he said he knew I wanted to murder him. He said that all the time. He whispered 
it into my ear at night. He developed the strangest notions."
"What notions?"
"For awhile he always thought that he ... stank. That was before he grew the 
beard. Later he didn't care any more. At that time, he would constantly change 
his underwear, order that it be boiled, sniff at his shirts and jackets and 
pillow cases. He would constantly get new mouth waters and tooth pastes. When 
there was some bad smell somewherefor instance, at the post officehe would say 
with a very loud voice, the puzzo, what a stink! And everybody would look at 
himwhich is just what he wantedfor he wanted them all to know that it wasn't 
he. At the restaurant he would order the waiter to open the windowsI smell the 
smell of sour feet, he would announceand when the lady at the next table 
protested against the draught, he said, Lady, if I were in your shoes --and I 
mean what 1 say, he added1 would not pro-test against a little fresh air. But 
some people don't seem to notice when they ... because the smell goes away: it 
doesn't go up into your own nose. He had often noticed that, he said. It was 
quite embarrassing."
"What's there to giggle about, Martha? Poor Will."
"And when I opened the door to his room, he said, why don't you come in, does it 
stink here? But, as I said, it got worse and worse. He stayed up all night, 
trying to work. And then he would sleep for days on end. He hollered at me, even 
when there were other people, and he threw things at me. The telephone. He kept 
it unplugged most of the time. And if I forgot to unplug it and it rang, he 
picked it up and cooed `googlegooglegoo' into it, and then he hit me over the 
head with it."
"He would go to any length to get you to be what you were not."
"Well, I guess, I got mean too. It's contagious, you know. I smashed his 
bottles, and then I watched him lapping the whiskey off the ground."
"How ghastly, Martha."
"And then came the affair with Freddy. And that was the end."
"What do you mean, affair?"
"I mean I had an affair with Freddy."
"Didn't you say you couldn't stand him?"
"I'll tell you in a minute. But first I must tell you about Licky. Poor Licky. 
She was so cute."
"Who was Licky?"
"A little Dalmatian. The cutest dog you ever saw. Dermott's wedding present. 
Well, Licky was in heat. And we kept her locked up in my bedroom. She could open 
all the doors, if you didn't lock them with the key. She was so smart. And I 
would take her down, three, four times a day, on the leash, of course, and never 
letting go of her for a minute. When she was in her third weekwhich is, of 
course, the worst possible momentI came home one evening and saw Licky, loose, 
racing around like crazy, panting, her tongue out, and Will, going his way as if 
there was nothing to it. I said, for Christ's sake, Will, are you out of your 
mind? He saidhe was so drunknow don't start fussing. The mutt got her too, I 
saw it, he said, but so what. To hell with it all. I'll fix her up, he said. 
Don't start fussing. Then he got a shot from the vetErgotinina I guess he gave 
it the wrong way, or, at any rate, much too much of ithe should have given her 
3 cc and he gave her about 10and poor Licky, her heart was not strong ever 
since she had had distemper. What we went through with that dog, sitting up days 
and nights, and I won't tell you what we spent on medicines and vet bills that 
distemper had left her with a weak heart. And, what with that wrong shot, she 
beastly died."
"That's terrible."
"I am telling you all that, because he did exactly the same thing to me. He 
practically arranged it. He always managed to get the two of us together."
"But why?"
"I guess it wasn't enough for him to have taken me away from Derrnott. He wanted 
to take away Freddy too." 
"Sheer wickedness."
"And jealousy. Anyway. One evening Dermott and Freddy came over, and Will said, 
and he was all dressed up, even with a hat, he said, Dermott and he had to go to 
a PEN Club meeting which was terribly important. He said he was arranging for 
some sumptuous prize to be awarded to Dermottbut Freddy and I couldn't come 
along, he said, because we were not members, and we should wait at home, and 
there was a new bottle of Scotch, and we should play some records. After we were 
half through with the Scotch, I assure you I felt so bored and so drunk, and 
there was nothing we had to say to each other, and I guess so I started making 
love to Freddy. Freddy was puzzled; he'd never done it with a girl before. But 
before we knew it."
"Goodness gracious."
"When we found out that I was pregnant, Will got so disgusting it's hard to 
describe. You know, he didn't get angry or passionate about it, just cold and 
cynical. Quite disgusting. He said, either you pull out of here or 1'll see to 
it that you get fixed up all right. He said he didn't want a child of Freddy's 
in his house. As a matter of fact he didn't want any child at all. I felt so 
sick and nauseated I told him it was all the same to me, just so long as he took 
care of everything. And he did. But I kept having pains afterwards, and then he 
would get me dope but I felt just terrible, terrible. And that Sicilian woman 
who came in to clean up, she knew all about it. She was tiny and black and her 
eyes stung. I still hear the click of her clogs and she kept hissing at me 
ammazzalo, you should kill him."
"Sicilians are quick at that."
"Between Will's own obessions and that Sicilian's constant whispers I gradually 
got quite used to the idea." "Did you really want to kill him?"
"I guess I did not really want anything at all. One evening I said I wished I 
had died like Licky. And he said: But Licky was a good bitch. At that moment I 
picked up that pistol from his deskI was sitting near his deskand pointed it 
at him. I did not know whether it was loaded, and I don't know how to fire a gun 
anyway. I just kept pointing it at him. And he grabbed a hunting knife and leapt 
forward and spat like a cat: So you are going to kill me, no, you aren't. And he 
smiled. Now I don't understand whether it was because he wasn't as tough as he 
thought he was, or because he had the knife in his right handyou know, he was 
left-handedat any rate, I dropped the pistol and tried to wrestle the knife 
from him. He was so awkward and so weak, come to think of it, he practically 
slashed his cheekthe left onewith his own hand, and then the knife slipped and 
stuck in his left arm. He yelled and stepped back to pull it out and I picked up 
the pistol again and pointed it against him, just in case he attacked again. 
But, I don't know how, the pistol fired. And that was the end."
"Oh, Martha, poor poor girl. Don't cry now. It is all too terrible for words. It 
is even more terrible than you think it is. But now it's all over. Poor, poor 
Martha, it is not your fault, and it will be plain for every one to see. Look at 
the scar on my cheek . . . right check ... my right arm was badly mangled too. 
You asked me the first day what it was. Now I'll tell you. It's weird. Martha, 
my wife, she got pregnant too. But she did not want it at all. If you want to 
breast-feed him you can have him, she said to me. Her lips were pale, her cheeks 
drawn, her eyes shot venom."
"Maybe she was really ill."
"With the kind of service you've got to put up with here, she said, I'd lose 
years playing nursemaid. Farewell to social life. Farewell to lectures and 
studies. And as sick and delicate as I am, she said. The allergies. Just shut up 
at home. That's what you wanted, I know, she said. There was no way of stopping 
her."
"But if she was really sick ..."
"She said, and how do you know it is your child? She said it out of sheer 
meanness. There was absolutely no reason for supposing that it was not my child. 
I guess she was much too selfish to plunge into the sea of trouble, to go 
through all the fluster and gripes it takes to have a lover."
"Couldn't it be that she was too nice?"
"Why are you trying to defend her?"
"She's dead."
"I remember, I remember: She hustled in her dressing gown and kicked up the kind 
of smell nasty ladies have on them in the morning. You know. Mixed up perfumes 
and powders and greases and sleep and some coffee in it . . ."
"You too go in for smells?"
"Are you trying to be funny? It is strange. I never thought of that. Anyway, 
what would you have told her?"
"I'd let her go to hell. I mean, I suppose, you should have comforted her, 
encouraged her, told her it would be a fine baby."
"Oh, come on now."
"What did you tell her then?"
"I felt so disgusted by that timehapless creature, I thoughtso I merely said: 
You're your own boss, darling. It's your problem. You solve it."
"And she?"
"I never saw anybody turning so green. I suppose she expected me to fall on my 
knees and beg her not to do it. But I simply didn't feel like it."
"And so she got it fixed?"
"I didn't see her until after it was all over. She felt lousy and she hated me 
for it. I guess it was all my fault."
"What do you mean, your fault, if the same thing happened to Will just about at 
the same time?"
"Wasn't it his fault? Didn't he act simply beastly?" 
"How could it have been his fault, if it happened to you too?"
"Whose fault is it then?"
"I guess fault isn't the right word here"
"Well. Now you are getting nearer to where I want you to get. Because surely it 
was not your fault"
"Go on with your story."
"I am nearly at the end. We did not see much of each other after that. And we 
didn't see anybody else. Only once I accepted an invitation for lunch, at the 
Wilcoxes at Winnetka. Martha said she was glad to go to the Wilcoxes. It was a 
Sunday, and so foggy you couldn't see your own hand at an arm's length, and we 
took the Outer Drive."
"You were living on the South Side?"
"Yes. And just after the underpass at 53rd Street . .. a crazy car, passing 
another one in that fog. He came up against us, at full speed. I saw him coming 
when he was practically crashing into us. All three cars, smashed. Four people, 
badly cut up. Only Martha was dead."
"And you felt that you killed her."
"I certainly did. And I still don't understand how. Look, it was she or I. if 
the car had swerved to the rightas it shouldI would have been killed; she 
wounded. But it swerved to the left. God knows how. I think, when she saw what 
was going on, she herself grabbed the wheel and pushed it over. Or perhaps I did 
it, I really don't know."
"Just like the fight between Will and me. And that moment of indecision."
"Indecision on things long since decided."
"It was he or I. And I don't know, still don't know, how it was that it was he 
..."
"And his left side cut up and my right, in the process." 
"That is the way it had to be. Wait a moment: Can you explain to me why?"
"Karma. It all was there. Nothing to be done about it. And one half and one half 
made one."
"You know, I think it does something to your mind, the mere fact of having been 
born in the Orient."
"Sure does. Just look at Harry Luce."
"Thank you, Doctor Rosselli, Martha is getting much much better. And I am so 
glad that you think the material at our disposal is shaping up so promisingly."
"I think Mr. McDermott's statement will be very useful. After all, he has known 
Martha for a long long time and seen her practically until the day of the ... 
accident."
"And the maid is ready to testify."
"That'll be helpful too."
"I, myself, have prepared a little statement, avvocato. I don't know whether it 
will be of any use to you. Just some thoughts I had on the whole thingthe way I 
see it. And so I put them down. Here, at any rate, avvocato, here it is."
 
TWIN'S WAIL
 
You are trying Martha Egan Sailor for murder while everyone says she is such a 
good girl, but the more they talk about her and the more she talks about 
herself, the wronger her case gets, and she's just a plain murderess.
Why didn't any one try me for murder? I killed Martha in a crash and took to the 
deed all the ingredients my brother used but plus one: the grace of God.
If it is a grace to live. Cain lived, but Abel died. There was Cain in Will, 
much Cain, but some Abel, for he died. There was Abel in me, much able Abel, but 
some Cain; for I live.
I was quite a regular fellow, standing on my own two feet, with a regular career 
and a successful one; I thought that was my merit and a bit of luck. With a 
marriage that miscarried: I thought that was my fault and a bit of disgrace.
It stopped there and made sense: a closed system of information.
Will too was a typical fellow, standing on his own two feet, with a typical 
career that made sense absolute, and a marriage that failed and ended in 
violence, an old and self-sufficient story.
Another closed system of information, and if you stop there, his murderess is a 
murderess.
But extrapolate the facts and interpolate the systems, and differentiate and 
integrate, which is not enough: who knows how much to interpolate, to extegrate 
and communate to get the whole, complex, infiniplex truth to the nth potential. 
Somehow no value can be assigned to Guilt in these equations. It whittles down, 
infinitesimal.
A wretched wrecked girl pulling a trigger is such a trivial factor in this 
factura. Incogent to think you'll bring down the crushing structure of incognita 
by sawing away at that thin leg of my cognita cognate. Let her alone. Whatever 
her part of how do you call it, Guilt, in the context of her own closed system, 
she was certainly expiated. The fact is that what happened here had to happen 
and did happen because it happened another time far away. Our wills are tied 
through the ages across spaces, and what I did, or had done to, my right hand 
was but a reflex of what he did with, or had done to, his left. It always was 
like that between us and was all written down. (Exhibit A, attached.)
That knocks out the girl, altogether, her only fault being that her name is 
Martha. Calling all Marthas, suing all Marthas, if you wish.
Blind chance has once more shown its foresight in permitting us to reason this 
out at Villa Igea, an insane asylum providing undoubtedly the most suitable 
setting for suchlike revelations. I am putting them down because, whereas it is 
of course possible that we are freaks of nature, half-men, conditioned by one 
another, it is, on the other hand, equally possible that our experience, though 
extreme, is yet more or less typical, and that men proud of their achievements 
or crushed by their guilt are equally presumptuous, for thinking they are 
freethey are not. With kindest regards, very sincerely yours.
 
"Oh, Phil, dear, the news is a little bit too good."
"It never can be too good, Martha. Why, what did he say, Doctor Comedger?"
"He said I was fine. General condition, excellent. Blood count, satisfactory. 
Weight, satisfactory. But, Phil, brace yourself for the good news ... "
"Well, what could it be?"
"Phil, it's twins."
 
WILLIAM MORRISON
 
Joseph Samachson, Ph.D., is a quiet and industrious chemist who translates 
technical works from difficult languages, does complicated things on the 
research staff of a major New York hospital and, in spare time, writes books 
about archeology and the ballet with his wife, Dorothy. There is, however, 
another area of extreme competence in the man. Under the pseudonym of "William 
Morrison," Dr. Samachson has for years been among the foremost writers of 
science fiction. When the two halves of his personality fuse, when the 
biochemist meets the science fictioneer, we reap such a splendid hybrid harvest 
as
 
Country Doctor
 
WILLIAM MORRISON
 
Joseph Samachson, Ph.D., is a quiet and industrious chemist who translates 
technical works from difficult languages, does complicated things on the 
research staff of a major New York hospital and, in spare time, writes books 
about archeology and the ballet with his wife, Dorothy. There is, however, 
another area of extreme competence in the man. Under the pseudonym of "William 
Morrison," Dr. Samachson has for years been among the foremost writers of 
science fiction. When the two halves of his personality fuse, when the 
biochemist meets the science fictioneer, we reap such a splendid hybrid harvest 
as
 
Country Doctor
 
He had long resigned himself to thinking that opportunity had passed him by for 
life. Now, when it struck so unexpectedly and so belatedly, he wasn't sure that 
it was welcome.
He had gone to sleep early, after an unusually hectic day. As if the need for 
immunizing against the threat of an epidemic hadn't been enough, he had also had 
to treat the usual aches and pains, and to deliver one baby, plus two premature 
Marsopolis calves. Even as he pulled the covers over himself, the phone was 
ringing, but he let Maida answer it. Nothing short of a genuine first-class 
emergency was going to drag him out of the house again before morning if he 
could help it. Evidently the call wasn't that important, for Maida hadn't come 
in to bother him about it, and his last feeling, before dropping off to sleep, 
was one of gratitude for her common sense.
He wasn't feeling grateful when the phone rang again. He awoke with a start. The 
dark of night still lay around the house, and from alongside him came the sound 
of his wife's slow breathing. In the next room, one of the kids, he couldn't 
tell which, said drowsily, "Turn off the alarm." Evidently the sound of the 
ringing hadn't produced complete wakefulness.
While he lay there, feeling too heavy to move, Maida moaned slightly in her 
sleep, and he said to himself, "If that's old Bender, calling about his 
constipation again, I'll feed him dynamite pills." Then he reached over to the 
night table and forced himself to pick up the phone. "Who is it?"
"Doctor Meltzer?" He recognized the hoarse and excited tones of Tom Linton, the 
city peace officer. "You better get over here right away!"
"What is it, Tom? And where am I supposed to get?"
"Over at the space port. Ship out of controlalmost ran into Phobos coming 
downand it landed with a crash. They need you fast."
"I'm coming."
The sleep was out of his eyes now. He grabbed his emergency equipment, taking 
along a plentiful supply of antibiotics and adjustable bandages. There was no 
way of knowing how many men had been hurt, and he had better be ready to treat 
an entire crew.
Outside the house, his bicar was waiting for him. He tossed in his equipment and 
hopped in after it. A throw of the switch brought in full broadcast power, and a 
fraction of a second later he had begun to skim over the smooth path that led 
over the farmland reclaimed from the desert.
The space port was less than twenty miles away, and it took him no more than ten 
minutes to get there. As he approached, the light blinked green at an 
intersection. Ah, he thought, one advantage of being a country doctor with a 
privileged road is that you always have the right of way. Are there any other 
advantages? None that you can think of offhand. You go through college with a 
brilliant record, you dream of helping humanity, of doing research in medicine, 
of making discoveries that will lengthen human life and lend it a little added 
happiness. And then, somehow, you find yourself trapped. The frontier outpost 
that's supposed to be the steppingstone to bigger things turns out to be a 
lifetime job. You find that your most important patients are not people, but 
food-animals. On Mars there are plenty of men and women, but few cows and sheep. 
Learn to treat them, and you really amount to something. Save a cow, and the 
news gets around faster than if you saved a man. And so, gradually, the animals 
begin to take more and more of your time, and you become known and liked in the 
community. You marry, you have children, you slip into a routine that dulls the 
meaning of the fast-hurrying days. You reach fiftyand you realize suddenly that 
life has passed you by. Half your alloted hundred years are gone, you can't tell 
where. The opportunities that once beckoned so brightly have faded in the 
distance.
What do you have to show for what the years have taken? One wife, one boy, one 
girl
A surge of braking-power caught him from the direction of the space port. The 
sudden deceleration brought him out of his musings to realize that the entire 
area was brightly lit up. A huge ship lay across the middle of the field. Its 
length was at least a thousand feet, and he knew that there must be more than 
two dozen men in its crew. He hoped that none had been killed.
"Doc!"
Tom was rushing over to him. "How many hurt, Tom?"
"Our injuries are all minor, Doctor," said a sharp voice. "Nothing that I can't 
handle well enough myself."
As he stared at the man in the gold-trimmed uniform who was standing alongside 
Tom, he had a feeling of disappointment. If there were no serious injuries, what 
was the rush all about? Why hadn't they telephoned him while he was riding over, 
told him there was no need of him, let him get back to bed?
"I thought there was a serious crash."
"The crash was nothing, Doctor. Linton, here, was excited by our near-miss of 
Phobos. But we've no time to waste discussing that fact. I understand, Doctor 
Meltzer, that you're a first-class vet."
He flushed. "I hope you didn't drag me out of bed to treat a sick dog. I'm not 
sentimental about ship's pets"
"This is no pet. Come along, and I'll show you."
He followed silently as the Captain led the way up the ramp and into the ship. 
Inside the vessel, there were no indications of any disorder caused by the 
crash. One or two of the men were bandaged around the head, but they seemed 
perfectly capable of getting around and doing their work.
He and the Captain were on a moving walkway now, and for three hundred feet they 
rode swiftly along it together, toward the back of the ship. Then the Captain 
stepped off, and Dr. Meltzer followed suit. When he caught sight of the thing 
that was waiting for him, he jaw dropped.
Almost the entire stern of the ship, about one third its length, was occupied by 
a great reddish creature that lay there quietly like an overgrown lump of flesh 
taken from some giant's butcher shop. A transparent panel walled it off from the 
rest of the ship. Through the panel Dr. Meltzer could see the thirty-foot-wide 
slit that marked the mouth. Above that was a cluster of breathing pores, 
looking like gopher holes, and above these was a semicircle of six great eyes, 
half closed and dulled as if with pain.
He had never seen anything like it before. "My God, what it it?"
"For lack of a better name, we call it a space-cow. Actually, it doesn't inhabit 
free spacewe picked it up on Ganymede as a matter of factand as you can see, 
it doesn't resemble a cow in the least."
"Is that supposed to be my patient?"
"That's it, Doctor."
He laughed, with more anger than amusement. "I haven't the slightest idea what 
that behemoth is like and what's wrong with it. How do you expect me to treat 
it?"
"That's up to you. Now, wait a minute, Doctor, before you blow up. This thing is 
sick. It isn't eating. It hardly moves. And it's been getting worse almost from 
the time we left Ganymede. We meant to land at Marsopolis and have it treated 
there, but we overshot the place and when something went wrong with our drive we 
had no choice but to come down here."
"Don't they have any doctors to spare from town?"
"They're no better than you are. I mean that, Doctor. The vets they have in 
Marsopolis are used to treating pets for a standard series of diseases, and they 
don't handle animals as big as the ones you do. And they don't meet the kind of 
emergencies you do, either. You're as good a man as we can get."
"And I tell you, I don't know a thing about this overgrown hunk of protein."
"Then you'll just have to find out about it. We've radioed Earth, and hope to be 
getting some information soon from some of their zoo directors. Meanwhile"
The crewmen were bringing over what appeared to be a diver's uniform. "What's 
this?" he asked suspiciously.
"Something for you to wear. You're going to go down into this animal."
"Into that mass of flesh?" For a moment horror left him with his mouth open. 
Then anger took over. "Like hell I am."
"Look, Doctor, it's necessary. We want to keep this beast alivefor scientific 
purposes, as well as possible value as a food animal. And how can we keep it 
alive unless we learn something about it?"
"There's plenty we can learn without going into it. Plenty of tests we can make 
first. Plenty of"
He caught himself abruptly because he was talking nonsense and he knew it. You 
could take the thing's temperaturebut what would the figure you got tell you? 
What was normal temperature for a space-cow? What was normal blood 
pressureprovided the creature had blood? What was normal heartbeatassuming 
there was a heart? Presumably the thing had teeth, a bony skeletonbut how to 
learn where and what they were? You couldn't X-ray a mass of flesh like thisnot 
with any equipment he had ever seen, even in the best-equipped office.
There were other, even more disquieting ways in which he was ignorant. What kind 
of digestive juices did the thing have? Suppose he did go down in a divers 
uniform would the juices dissolve it? Would they dissolve the oxygen lines, the 
instruments he used to look around and probe the vast inside of the beast?
He expressed his doubts to the Captain, and the latter said, "These suits have 
been tested, and so have the lines. We know that they can stand a half hour 
inside without being dissolved away. If they start to go, you'll radio to us, 
and we'll pull you up."
"Thanks. How do I know that once the suit starts to go, it won't rip? How do I 
know that the juices simply won't eat my skin away?"
There was no answer to that. You just didn't know, and you had to accept your 
ignorance.
Even while he was objecting, Dr. Meltzer began putting on the suit. It was thin 
and light, strong enough to withstand several atmospheres of pressure, and at 
the same time not so clumsy as to hamper his movements considerably. Scaled 
pockets carried an assortment of instruments and supplies. Perfect two-way 
communication would make the exchange of ideassuch as they might beas easy as 
if the person he was talking to were face to face with him. With the suit came a 
pair of fragile-looking gloves that left his hands almost as free as if they 
were bare. But the apparent fragility was misleading. Mechanical strength was 
there.
But what about resistance to biological action? The question kept nagging him. 
You can't know, he told himself. About things like that you take a chance. You 
take a chance and hope that if anything goes wrong, they'll pull you up before 
the juices have time to get working on you.
They had everything in readiness. Two of the other men were also wearing 
uniforms like his own, and when he had put his on, and tested it, the Captain 
gave the signal, and they all went into a small airlock. The door sealed behind 
them, a door in front opened. They were in the chamber where the great beast lay 
and quivered dully as if in giant pain.
They tied strong thin plastic cords around Doctor Meltzer's waist, tested the 
oxygen lines. Then they put a ladder up in front of the beast's face. Doctor 
Meltzer had a little trouble breathing, but it was not because of anything wrong 
with the oxygen supply. That was at the right pressure and humidity, and it was 
mixed with the correct amount of inert gases. It was merely the thought of going 
down into the creature's belly that constricted his throat, the idea of going 
into a strange and terrible world so different from his own, of submitting to 
unimaginable dangers.
He said hoarsely into the radio speaker, "How do I get in anyway, knock? The 
mouth's at least forty feet off the ground. And it's closed. You've got to open 
it, Captain. Or do you expect me to pry it open myself?"
The two men with him stretched out a plastic ladder. In the low gravity of Mars, 
climbing forty feet was no problem. Dr. Meltzer began to pull his way up. As he 
went higher, he noticed that the great mouth was slowly opening. One of the men 
had poked the creature with an electric prod.
Dr. Meltzer reached the level of the low jaw, and with the fascinated fear of a 
bird staring at a snake, gazed at the great opening that was going to devour 
him. Inside there was a gray and slippery surface which caught the beam of his 
flashlight and reflected it back and forth until the rays faded away. Fifty feet 
beyond the opening, the passage made a slow turn to one side. What lay ahead, he 
couldn't guess.
The sensible thing was to go in at once, but he couldn't help hesitating. 
Suppose the jaws closed just as he got between them? He'd be crushed like an 
eggshell. Suppose that throat constricted with the irritation he caused it? That 
would crush him too. He recalled suddenly an ancient fable about a man who had 
gone into a whale's belly. What was the man's name, now? Danielno, he had only 
gone into a den of lions. Jobwrong again. Job had been afflicted with boils, 
the victim of staphylococci at the other end of the scale of size. Jonah, that 
was it. Jonah, the man whose name was a symbol among the superstitious for bad 
luck.
But a scientist had no time for superstition. A scientist just thrust himself 
forward.
He stepped off the ladder into the great mouth. Beneath him, the jaw was 
slippery. His feet slid out from under him, and then his momentum carried him 
forward, and he glided smoothly down the yawning gullet. It was like going down 
a Martian hillside on a greased sled, the low gravity making the descent nice 
and easy. He noticed that the cords around his waist, as well as the oxygen 
lines, were descending smoothly after him. He reached the turn, threw his body 
away from the gray wall, and continued sliding. Another fifty feet, and he 
landed with a small plash in a pool of liquid.
The stomach? Never mind what you called it, this was probably the beginning of a 
digestive tract. He'd have a chance now to see how resistant his suit was.
He was immersed in the liquid now, and he sank slowly until his feet touched 
more solid flesh again. By the beam from his flashlight, he saw that the liquid 
around him was a light green. The portion of the digestive tract on which he 
stood was slate gray, with bright emerald streaks.
A voice spoke anxiously in his ears. "Doctor Meltzer! Are you safe?"
"Fine, Captain. Having a wonderful time. Wish you were here."
"What's it like in there?"
"I'm standing at the bottom of a pool of greenish liquid. I'm fascinated, but 
not greatly instructed."
"See anything that might be wrong?"
"How the devil would f tell right from wrong in here? I've never been in one of 
these beasts before. I've got sample bottles, and I'm going to fill them in 
various places. This is going to be sample one. You can analyze it later."
"Fine, Doctor. You just keep on going."
He flashed the beam around him. The liquid was churning gently, possibly 
because of the splash he himself had made. The gray-green walls themselves were 
quiet, and the portion underfoot yielded slightly as he put his weight upon it, 
but was otherwise apparently undisturbed by his presence.
He moved ahead. The liquid grew shallower, came to an end. He climbed out and 
stepped cautiously forward. "Doctor, what's happening?"
"Nothing's happening. I'm just looking around." "Keep us informed. I don't think 
there's any danger, but"
"But in case there is, you want the next man to know what to watch out for? All 
right, Captain."
"Lines all right?"
"They're fine." He took another step forward. "The groundI suppose I can call 
it the groundis getting less slippery. Easier to walk on. Walls about twenty 
feet apart here. No sign of macroscopic flora or fauna. No artifacts to indicate 
intelligent life."
The Captain's voice sounded pained. "Don't let your sense of humor carry you 
away, Doctor. This is important. Maybe you don't realize exactly how important, 
but"
He interrupted. "Hold it, Captain, here's something interesting. A big reddish 
bump, about three feet across, in the gray-green wall."
"What is it?"
"Might be a tumor. I'll slice some tissue from the wall itself. That's sample 
number two. Tissue from the tumor, sample number three."
The wall quivered almost imperceptibly as he sliced into it. The fresh-cut 
surface was purple, but it slowly turned red again as the internal atmosphere of 
the beast got at it.
"Here's another tumor, like the first, this time on the other side of the wall. 
And here are a couple more. I'm leaving them alone. The walls are getting 
narrower. There's still plenty of room to walk, butwait a minute, I take that 
back. There's some kind of valve ahead of me. It's opening and closing 
spasmodically."
"Can you get through?"
"I'd hate to take a chance. And even if I did make it while it was open, it 
could crush the oxygen lines when it closed."
"Then that's the end of the road?"
"I don't know. Let me think."
He stared at the great valve. It moved rapidly, opening and closing in a 
two-second rhythm. Probably a valve separating one part of the digestive system 
from another, he thought, like the human pylorus. The green-streaked gray flesh 
seemed totally unlike human muscle, but all the same it appeared to serve a 
similar function. Maybe the right kind of drug would cause muscular relaxation.
He pulled a large hypodermic syringe from one of the sealed pockets of his 
diver's uniform. He plunged the needle quickly into the edge of the valve as it 
paused for a fraction of a second before closing, shot a pint of drug solution 
into the flesh, and ripped the needle out again. The valve closed once more, but 
more slowly. It opened, closed again, opened once moreand stayed open.
How long before it recovered, and shut off his retreat? He didn't know. But if 
he wanted to find out what was on the other side, he'd have to work fast. He 
plunged forward, almost slipping in his eagerness, and leaped through the 
motionless valve.
Then he called up to tell the Captain what he had done.
The Captain's voice was anxious. "I don't know whether you ought to risk it, 
Doctor."
"I'm down here to learn things. I haven't learned much yet. By the way, the 
walls are widening out again. And there's another pool of liquid ahead. Blue 
liquid, this time."
"Are you taking a sample?"
"I'm a sampler from way back, Captain."
He waded into the blue pond, filled his sample bottle, and put it into one of 
his pockets. Suddenly, in front of him something broke the surface of the pond, 
then dived down again.
He came to a full stop. "Hold it, Captain. There seems to be fauna."
"What? Something alive?"
"Very much alive."
"Be careful, Doctor. I think there's a gun in one of the pockets of that 
uniform. Use it if necessary."
"A gun? Don't be cruel, Captain. How'd you like to have somebody shooting off 
guns inside you?"
"Be careful, man!"
"I'll use my hypodermic as a weapon."
But the creature, whatever it was, did not approach him again, and he waded 
further into the blue pool. When his eyes were below the surface of the liquid, 
he saw the thing moving again.
"Looks like an overgrown tadpole, about two feet long." "Is it coming close?"
"No, it's darting away from me. And there's another one. I think the light 
bothers it."
"Any signs that the thing is dangerous?"
"I can't tell. It may be a parasite of the big creature, or it may be something 
that lives in symbiosis with it."
"Stay away from it, Doctor. No use risking your life for nothing."
A trembling voice said, "Larry! Are you all right?" 
"Maida! What are you doing here?"
"I woke up when you left. And then I had trouble going to sleep again."
"But why did you come to the space port?"
"Ships began to flash by overhead, and I began to wonder what had happened. So I 
called upand they told me."
"Ships overhead?"
The Captain's voice cut in again. "The news services, Doctor. This case has 
aroused great interest. I didn't want to tell you before, but don't be surprised 
if you come up to find yourself famous."
"Never mind the news services. Have you heard from Earth yet?"
"No messages from Earth. We did hear from the curator of the Marsopolis Zoo."
"What did he say?"
"He never even heard of a space-cow, and he has no suggestions to make."
"That's fine. By the way, Captain, are there any photographers around from those 
news services?"
"Half a dozen. Still, motion picture, television"
"How about sending them down inside to take a few pictures?"
There was a moment of silence. Then the Captain's voice again: "I don't think 
they can go down for a while yet. Maybe later."
"Why can't they go down now? I'd like to have some company. If the beast's mouth 
is open" A disquieting thought struck him. "Say, it is open, isn't it?"
The Captain's voice sounded tense. "Now, don't get upset, Doctor, we're doing 
all we can!"
"You mean it's closed?"
"Yes, it's closed. I didn't want to tell you this, but the mouth closed 
unexpectedly, and then, when we did have the idea of sending a photographer down 
inside, we couldn't get it open again. Apparently the creature has adapted to 
the effects of the electric shock."
"There must be some way of getting it open again."
"Of course there's a way, There's always a way. Don't worry, Doctor, we're 
working on it. We'll find it."
"But the oxygen"
"The lines are strong, and the mouth isn't closed tight enough to pinch them 
off. You can breathe all right, can't you?"
"Now that I think of it, I can. Thanks for telling me." 
"You see, Doctor, it isn't so bad."
"It's perfectly lovely. But what happens if my uniform or the oxygen lines start 
to dissolve?"
"We'll pull you out. We'll do something to open the mouth. Just don't get caught 
behind that valve, Doctor."
"Thanks for the advice. I don't know what I'd do without it, Captain."
He felt a sudden surge of anger. If there was one thing he hated, it was good 
advice, given smugly when the giver could stand off to one side, without sharing 
the danger of the person he was helping. Don't let this happen, don't get caught 
here, take care of yourself. But you were down here to do a job, and so far you 
hadn't done it. You hadn't learned a thing about what made this monstrous 
creature tick.
And the chances were that you wouldn't learn, either. The way to examine a beast 
was from the outside, not from within. You watched it eat, you studied the 
transfer of the food from one part of the body to another, you checked on the 
circulation of the body fluids, using radioactive tracers if no other methods 
offered, you dissected specimens of typical individuals. The Captain should have 
had a few scientists aboard, and they should have done a few of these things 
instead of just sitting there staring at the beast. But that would have made 
things too easy. No, they had to wait for you to come aboard, and then send you 
deliberately sliding down into the guts of an animal you didn't know anything 
about, in the hope of having a miracle happen to you. Maybe they thought a loop 
of intestine or some gland of internal secretion would come over to you and say, 
"I'm not working right. Fix me, and everything will be fine."
Another of the tadpole-like creatures was swimming over toward him, approaching 
slowly, the forepart twitching like the nose of a curious dog. Then, like the 
others, the creature turned and darted away. "Maybe that's the cause," he 
thought. "Maybe that's the parasite that's causing the trouble."
Onlyit might just as well be a creature necessary to the larger creature's 
health. Again and again you were faced with the same problem. Down here you were 
in a world you knew nothing about. And when everything was so strange to 
youwhat was normal, and what wasn't?
When in doubt, he decided, move on. He moved.
The blue pool was shallow, and once more he came up on what he decided to call 
dry ground. Once more the walls grew narrow again. After a time he could reach 
out and touch the walls on either side of him at the same time.
He flashed his light into the narrow passage, and saw that a dozen yards ahead 
of him it seemed to come to an end. "Blind alley," he thought. "Time to turn 
back."
The Captain's voice came to him again, "Doctor, is everything all right?"
"Beautiful. I've had a most interesting tour. By the way, did you get the 
creature's mouth open yet?"
"We're still working on it."
"I wish you luck. Maybe when those reports from Earth come in"
"They've come. None of the curators knows anything about space-cows. For some 
reason, the electric shock method doesn't work any more, and we're trying all 
sorts of other stimuli."
"I take it that nothing is effective."
"Not yet. One of the photo service men suggested we use a powerful mechanical 
clamp to pull the jaws open. We're having one flown over."
"Use anything," he said fervently. "But for God's sake, get that mouth open!"
Dr. Meltzer cursed the photo service people, to whom he meant nothing more than 
a series of colored lines in space. Then he added an unkind word or two for the 
Captain, who had got him into this mess, and started back.
The tadpole creatures seemed to be interested in his progress. They came 
swarming around him, and now he could see that there were almost a dozen of 
them. They moved with quick flips of their tails, like the minnows he had once 
seen back on Earth, where he had attended medical school. Between each pair of 
flips there was a momentary pause, and when they came close he was able to get 
a reasonably good look at them. He was surprised to see that they had two rows 
of eyes each.
Were the eyes functional or vestigial? In the former case, they must spend some 
part of their life cycle outside the host creature, in places where they had 
need of the sense of sight. In the latter case, they were at least descended 
from outside creatures. Maybe I'll try to catch one of them, he thought. Once I 
get it outside I can give it a real examination.
Once I get it outside, he repeated. Provided I get outside myself.
He waded through the pond again. As he reached the shallow part of the blue 
liquid, a voice came to himthis time his wife's voice. "Larry, are you all 
right?"
"Doing fine. How are the kids?"
"They're with me. They woke up during the excitement, and I brought them along."
"You didn't tell me that before!"
"I didn't want to upset you."
"Oh, it doesn't upset me in the least. Nothing like a nice family picnic. But 
how do you expect them to go to school in the morning?"
"Oh, Larry, what difference does it make if they miss school for once? A chance 
to be in on something like this happens once in a lifetime."
"That's a little too often to suit me. Well, now that I know they're here, let 
me talk to them."
Evidently they had been waiting for the chance, for Jerry's voice came at once. 
"Hiya, Dad."
"Hiya, Jerry. Having a good time?"
"Swell. You oughtta be out here, Dad. There are a lot of people. They're 
treatin' us swell."
Martia cut in. "Mom, he isn't letting me talk. I want to talk to Daddy too."
"Let her talk, Jerry. Go ahead, Martia. Say something to Daddy."
A sudden blast almost knocked out his eardrum. "Dad, can you hear me?" Martia 
screamed. "Can you hear me, Dad?"
"I can hear you, and so can these animals. Not so loud, sweetheart."
"Gee, Dad, you oughtta see all the people. They took pictures of me and Mom. Oh, 
we're so thrilled!"
"They took pictures of me too, Dad," said Jerry.
"They're sending the pictures all over. To Earth and Venus, and everywhere. 
We're gonna be on television too, Dad. Isn't it exciting?"
"It's terrific, Martia. You don't know what this does for my morale."
"Aw, all she thinks about is pictures. Mom, make her get away from the 
microphone, or I'll push her away."
"You've had your chance, Martia. Let Jerry talk again."
"You know what, Dad? Everybody says you're gonna be famous. They say this is the 
only animal of its kind ever discovered. And you're the only person ever went 
into it. Can I go down there too, Dad?"
"No!" he yelled.
"Okay, okay. Say, Dad know what? If you bring it back alive, they're gonna take 
it to Earth, and put it in a special zoo of its own."
"Thank them for me. Look, Jerry, did they get the animal's mouth open yet?"
"Not yet, Dad, but they're bringing in a great big machine."
The Captain's voice again: "We'll have the mouth open soon, Doctor. Where are 
you now?"
"Approaching the valve again. Having you heard anything that could be useful? 
Maybe some explorer or hunter might be able to tell you something about 
space-cows"
"Sorry, Doctor. Nobody knows anything about space-cows."
"That's what you said before. All right, Captain, stand by for further news. 
I've got a shoal of these tadpole beasts in attendance. Let's see what happens 
now."
"They're not attacking, are they?"
"Not yet."
"You feel all right otherwise?"
"Fine. A little short of breath, though. That may be the result of tension. And 
a little hungry. I wonder how this beast would taste rawmy God!"
The Captain asked anxiously, "What is it?"
"That valve I paralyzed. It's working normally once more!"
"You mean it's opening and closing?"
"The same rhythm as before. And every time it closes, it squeezes those oxygen 
tubes. That's why I sometimes feel short of breath. I have to get out of here!"
"Do you have enough drug to paralyze the valve again?"
"No, I don't. Keep quiet, Captain, let me figure this out."
"That valve I paralyzed. It's working normally once more!" place to take off 
from.
He might have dived safely through the opening during the near-second when the 
muscles were far apart. But there was no place for a take-off. He had to 
approach up a slippery slope, hampered by uniform and lines. And if he misjudged 
the right moment to go through, he'd be caught when the valve closed again.
He stood there motionless for a moment, sweat pouring down his forehead and into 
his eyes. Damn it, he thought, I can't even wipe it away. I've got to tackle 
this thing half blind.
Through one partially fogged eyeplate he noticed the tadpole creatures 
approaching more closely. Were they vicious after all? Were they coming closer 
because they sensed that he was in danger? Were they closing in for the kill?
One of them plunged straight at him, and involuntarily he ducked. The thing 
turned barely aside at the last moment, raced past him, slithered out of the 
blue liquid, and squirmed up the slope toward the valve.
Unexpectedly, the valve opened to twice its previous width, and the creature 
plunged through without trouble. "Doctor Meltzer? Are you still all right?"
"I'm alive, if that interests you. Listen, Captain, I'm going to try getting 
through that valve. One of the tadpole beasts just did it, and the valve opened 
a lot wider to let it through."
"Just how do you expect to manage?"
"I'll try grabbing one of the beasts and hitch-hike through. I just hope it 
isn't vicious, and doesn't turn on me."
But the tadpole creatures wouldn't let themselves be grabbed. In this, their 
home territory, they moved a great deal faster than he did, and even though they 
didn't seem to be using their eyes to see with, they evaded his grasp with great 
skill.
At last he gave up the attempt and climbed out of the blue pool. The creatures 
followed him.
One of the biggest of them suddenly dashed forward. Sensing what the thing was 
going to do, Dr. Meltzer hurried after it. It scurried up the slope, and 
plunged through the valve. The valve opened wide. Dr. Meltzer, racing 
desperately forward, threw himself into the opening. The valve paused, then 
snapped at him. He felt it hit his heel.
The next moment he was gasping for breath. The oxygen lines had become tangled.
He fought frenziedly to untwist them, and failed. Then he realized that he was 
trying to do too much. All he needed to do was loosen the knot and straighten 
out the kinks. By the time he finally succeeded, he was seeing black spots in 
front of his eyes.
"Doctor Meltzer, Doctor Meltzer!"
The sound had been in his ears for some time. "Still alive," he gasped.
"Thank God! We're going to try to open the mouth now, Doctor. If you hurry 
forward, you'll be in a position to be pulled out."
"I'm hurrying. By the way, those tadpoles are still with me. They trailing along 
as if they'd found a long-lost friend. I feel like a pie-eyed piper."
"I just hope they don't attack."
"You're not hoping any harder than I am."
He could catch his breath now, and with the oxygen lines free, the perspiration 
that had dimmed his sight slowly evaporated. He caught sight of one of the 
reddish tumors he had noticed on his forward passage.
"May as well be hung for a sheep as a lamp," he murmured. "It would take an axe 
really to chop that tumor out, but I may as well slice into it and see what I 
can learn."
From one of his pockets he took a sharp oversize scalpel, and began to cut 
around the edges.
The tumor throbbed convulsively.
"Well, well, I may have something here," he said, with a surgeon's pleasure. He 
dug deeper.
The tumor erupted. Great gobs of reddish liquid spurted out, and with one of 
them came another of the tadpole creatures, a small one, half the average size 
of those he had first encountered.
"Glory be," he muttered. "So that's the way they grow."
The creature sensed him and darted aside, in the direction of the valve. As it 
approached, the open valve froze in place, and let the small creature through, 
further into the host, without enlarging. Then the valve began to close again.
They're adapted to each other, he thought. Probably symbiosis, rather then a 
one-sided parasitism.
He moved upwards, toward the greenish liquid. An earthquake struck.
The flesh heaved up beneath his feet, tossing him head over heels into the pool. 
The first shock was followed by a second and third. A tidal wave hit him, and 
carried him to the side of the pool. He landed with a thud against the hard side 
and bounced back.
The sides began to constrict, hemming him in.
"Captain!" he yelled. "What's going on out there? What are you doing to the 
beast?"
"Trying to pry open its mouth. It doesn't seem to like the idea. It's threshing 
around against the walls of the ship."
"For God's sake, cut it out! It's giving me a beating in here."
They must have halted their efforts at once, for immediately afterwards the 
beast's movements became less convulsive. But it was some time before the 
spasmodic quivering of the side walls came to an end.
Dr. Meltzer climbed out of the pool of liquid, making an automatic and entirely 
useless gesture to wipe the new perspiration from his forehead.
"Is it better in there, Doctor?"
"It's better. Don't try that again," he panted. 
"We have to get the mouth open some way." 
"Try a bigger electric shock."
"If you want us to. But it may mean another beating for you, Doctor."
"Then wait a minute. Wait till I get near the upper part of the gullet."
"Whenever you say. Just tell us when you're ready."
Better be ready soon, he thought. My light's beginning to dim. When it goes out 
altogether, I'll probably be in a real panic. I'll be yelling for him to do 
anything, just to get me out of there.
And what about the suit and the oxygen lines? I think the digestive fluid's 
beginning to affect them. It's hard to be sure, now that the light's weakening, 
but they don't have the clear transparent look they had at first. And when they 
finally go, I go with them.
He tried to move forward faster, but the surface underfoot was slimy, and when 
he moved too hastily, he slipped. The lines were getting tangled too. Now that 
the creature's mouth was closed, it was no use tugging at the cord around his 
waist. That wouldn't get him up.
"Doctor Meltzer!"
He didn't answer. Instead, he pulled out his lancet and cut the useless cords 
away. The oxygen lines too were a nuisance, in constant danger of kinking and 
tangling, now that they were no longer taut. But at least the gas was still 
flowing through them and would continue to flowuntil the digestive fluid ate 
through.
The tadpole creatures seemed to have developed a positive affection for him. 
They were all around him, not close enough for him to grab them, but too close 
for comfort. At any moment they might decide to take a nip out of his suit or 
an oxygen line. And with the plastic already weakened, even a slight tear might 
be fatal.
He reached the sharp slope that signified the gullet. "Dr. Meltzer?"
"What do you want?"
"Why didn't you answer?"
"I was busy. I cut the cords away from around my waist. Now I'm going to try 
climbing up inside this thing's throat."
"Shall we try that sharp electric shock?"
"Go ahead."
He had a pair of small surgical clamps, and he took one in each hand. The 
flashlight he put in a holder at his waist. Then, getting down on all fours, he 
began to crawl up, digging each pair of clamps into the flesh in turn to give 
him a grip. A slow wave ran away in both directions every time he inserted one 
of the pairs of clamps into the flesh, but otherwise the beast didn't seem to 
mind too much.
He was about halfway up, when the earthquakes began again. The first one sent 
him tumbling head over heels down the slope. The others added some slight injury 
to the insult, knocking him painfully against the walls. They must have used a 
powerful electric jolt, for some of it was transmitted through the creature to 
him, making his skin tingle. He hadn't lost his flashlight, but by now it was 
exceedingly dim, and shed only a feeble circle of light. Far ahead of him, where 
the mouth was to open, was blackness.
"No luck, Captain?"
"No luck, Doctor. We'll try again."
"Don't. You just make things worse."
"Larry, were you hurt? Larry"
"Don't bother me now, Maida," he said roughly. "I have to figure out a way to 
get out."
A faint hiss came from the oxygen line. A leak. Time was growing short.
The tadpole creatures were swimming around faster now. They too must have been 
upset by the shock. One of them darted ahead of him, and wriggled ahead until it 
was lost in blackness.
That seems to be trying to get out too, he told himself. Maybe we can work this 
together. There must be some way, something to get this creature to open its 
mouth. Maybe the Captain can't do it from outside, but I'm in here, where the 
beast's most sensitive. I can hit it, slash at it, tickle it
There's a thought. Tickle it. It's a monster, and it'll take some monstrous 
tickling, but sooner or later, something should affect it.
He stamped hard with his foot. No effect. He took his large lancet from his 
pocket and slashed viciously with it. A shudder ran through the flesh, but that 
was all.
And then he had an idea. That green liquid undoubtedly contained hormones. 
Hormones, enzymes, co-enzymes, antibiotics, biological chemicals of all kinds. 
Stuff to which some tissues would be adapted and some would not. And those that 
weren't would react violently.
He turned back, filled his hypodermic syringe with the greenish liquid, and ran 
forward again. The light was almost gone by now, and the hissing from the oxygen 
line was growing ominously, but he climbed forward as far as he could before 
plunging the hypodermic in and injecting its contents.
The creature heaved. He dropped hypodermic, light, and clamps, and let the huge 
shuddering take him where it would. First it lifted him high. Then it let him 
fall suddenlynot backwards, but in the same place. Two of the tadpole beasts 
were thrown against him. Then he was lifted way up again, and this time forward. 
A huge cavern opened before him. Light bathed the gray surface and he was 
vomited out.
The light begun to flicker, and he had time for one last thought. Oxygen lack, 
he told himself. My suit's ripped, the lines have finally torn.
And then blackness.
When he came to, Maida was at his side. He could see that she had been crying. 
The Captain stood a little further off, his face drawn, but relieved.
"Larry, dear, are you all right? We thought you'd never get out."
"I'm fine." He sat up and saw his two children, standing anxious and awestricken 
on the other side of the bed. Their silence showed how strongly they had been 
affected. "I hope you kids didn't worry too much about me."
"Of course I didn't worry," said Jerry bravely. "I knew you were smart, Dad. I 
knew you'd think of a way to get out."
"While we're on the subject," interposed the Captain, "What was the way out?"
"I'll tell you later. How's the patient?"
"Doing fine. Seems to have recovered completely."
"How many of the tadpoles came out with me?"
"About six. We're keeping them in the same low-oxygen atmosphere as the creature 
itself. We're going to study them. We figure that if they're parasites"
"They're not parasites. I finally came to a conclusion about them. They're the 
young."
"What?"
"The young. If you take good care of them, they'll eventually grow to be as big 
as the mother-monster you've got in the ship."
"Good God, where will we keep them?"
"That's your worry. Maybe you'd better expand that zoo you're preparing. What 
you'll do for money to feed them, though, I don't know."
"But what"
"The trouble with that monsterits `illness'was merely that it was gravid."
"Gravid?"
"That means pregnant," exclaimed Jerry.
"I know what it means." The Captain flushed. "Look, do we have to have these 
kids in here while we discuss this?"
"Why not? They're a doctor's children. They know what it's all about. They've 
seen calves and other animals being born."
"Lots of times," said Martia.
"Confined as it was on the ship, your beast couldn't get the exercise it needed. 
And the young couldn't get themselves born."
"But that was the digestive tract you went down"
"What of it? Are all animals born the same way? Ask the average kid where a baby 
grows, and he'll tell you that it's in the stomach."
"Some kids are dopes," said Jerry.
"They wouldn't be in this case. What better place to get a chance at the food 
the mother eats, in all stages from raw to completely digested? All that beast 
needed to give birth was a little exercise. You gave it some from the outside, 
but not enough. I finished the job by injecting some of its own digestive fluid 
into the flesh. That caused a pretty little reaction."
The Captain scratched his head. "Doctor, you did a good job. How would you like 
to take care of that beast permanently? I could recommend you"
"To go down inside that monster again? No, thanks. From now on, I treat nothing 
but small monsters. Sheep, cowsand human beings."
There was a pounding of feet in the hallway. Then the door swung in, violently. 
Flashbulbs that gave invisible light began to pop with inaudible bursts of 
high-frequency sound. Cameras pointed menacingly at him and sent his image 
winging to Earth and far-off planets. Reporters began to fire their questions.
"My God," he muttered wearily, "who let these animals in here? They're worse 
than the ones I met inside the blue pool."
"Be nice to them, dear," chided Maida gently. "They're turning you into a great 
man."
Then Maida and Jerry and Martia grouped themselves around him, and the cameras 
caught them too. The proud look on their faces was something to see. And he 
realized that he was glad for their sake.
Opportunity had knocked, and when he had opened the door to it, it had proved to 
be an exacting guest. Still, he hadn't been a bad hostnot a bad host at all, he 
thought. And slowly his features relaxed into a tired and immediately famous 
grin.
 
ROBERT BLOCH
 
With indignation Bob Bloch denies a libel: "It is not true that I am a monster! 
I have the heart of a small boy. I keep it in my desk drawer." Heart he has (no 
matter whose); he also has wit and insight. And if sometimes what he has to tell 
us is monstrous (witness his recent shuddery suspense novel Psycho, or, for that 
matter, the following), it is not that he exaggerates a picture, but only that 
his perceptions are so clear. Almost any writer could have conceived the setting 
he describes below, but only Robert Bloch could have made it into
 
Daybroke
 
Up in the sky the warheads whirled, and the thunder of their passing shook the 
mountain.
Deep in his vaulted sanctuary he sat, godlike and inscrutable, marking neither 
the sparrow's nor the missile's fall. There was no need to leave his shelter to 
stare down at the city.
He knew what was happeninghad known ever since early in the evening when the 
television flickered and died. An announcer in the holy white garb of the 
healing arts had been delivering an important message about the world's most 
popular laxativethe one most people preferred, the one four out of five doctors 
used them-selves. Midway in his praise of this amazing new medical discovery he 
had paused and advised the audience to stand by for a special bulletin.
But the bulletin never came; instead the screen went blank and the thunder 
boomed.
All night long the mountain trembled, and the seated man trembled too; not with 
anticipation but with realization. He had expected this, of course, and that 
was why he was here. Others had talked about it for years; there had been wild 
rumors and solemn warnings and much muttering in taverns. But the rumor-mongers 
and the warning-sounders and the tavern-mutterers had made no move. They had 
stayed in the city and he alone had fled.
Some of them, he knew, had stayed to stave off the inevitable end as best they 
could, and these he saluted for their courage. Others had attempted to ignore 
the future, and these he detested for their blindness. And all of them he 
pitied.
For he had realized, long ago, that courage was not enough and that ignorance 
was no salvation. Wise words and foolish words are onethey will not halt the 
storm. And when the storm approaches, it is best to flee.
So he had prepared for himself this mountain retreat, high over the city, and 
here he was safe; would be safe for years to come. Other men of equal wealth 
could have done the same, but they were too wise or too foolish to face reality. 
So while they spread their rumors and sounded their warnings and muttered in 
their cups, he built his sanctuary; lead-guarded, amply provisioned, and stocked 
with every need for years to come, including even a generous supply of the 
world's most popular laxative.
 
Dawn came at last and the echoes of the thunder died, and he went to a special, 
shielded place where he could sight his spyglass at the city. He stared and he 
squinted, but there was nothing to be seennothing but swirling clouds that 
billowed blackly and rolled redly across the hazed horizon.
Then he knew that he must go down to the city if he wanted to find out, and made 
due preparations.
There was a special suit to wear, a cunning seamless garment of insulated cloth 
and lead, difficult and costly to obtain. It was a top secret suit; the kind 
only Pentagon generals possess. They cannot procure them for their wives, and 
they must steal them for their mistresses. But he had one. He donned it now.
An elevated platform aided his descent to the base of the mountain, and there 
his car was waiting. He drove out, the shielded doors closing automatically 
behind hint, and. started for the city. Through the eyepiece of his insulated 
helmet he stared out at a yellowish fog, and he drove slowly, even though he 
encountered no traffic nor any sign of life.
After a time the fog lifted, and he could see the countryside. Yellow trees and 
yellow grass stood stiffly silhouetted against a yellow sky in which great 
clouds writhed and whirled.
Van Gogh's work, he told himself, knowing it was a lie. For no artist's hand had 
smashed the windows of the farmhouses, peeled the paint from the sides of the 
barns, or squeezed the warm breath from the herds huddling in the fields, 
standing fright-frozen but dead.
He drove along to the broad arterial leading to the city; an arterial which 
ordinarily swarmed with the multi-colored corpuscles of motor vehicles. But 
there were no cars moving today, not in this artery.
Not until he neared the suburbs did he see them, and then he rounded a curve and 
was halfway upon the vanguard before he panicked and halted in a ditch.
The roadway ahead was packed with automobiles as far as the eye could seea 
solid mass, bumper to bumper, ready to descend upon him with whirring wheels.
But the wheels were not turning.
The cars were dead. The further stretches of the highway were an automobile 
graveyard. He approached the spot on foot, treading with proper reverence past 
the Cadillac-corpses, the cadavers of Chevrolets, the bodies of Buicks. Close at 
hand he could see the evidence of violent ends; the shattered glass, the smashed 
fenders, the battered bumpers and twisted hoods.
The signs of struggle were often pitiable to observe; here was a tiny 
Volkswagen, trapped and crushed between two looming Lincolns; there an MG had 
died beneath the wheels of a charging Chrysler. But all were still now. The 
Dodges dodged no longer, the Hornets had ceased their buzzing, and the Ramblers 
would never ramble again.
It was hard for him to realize with equal clarity the tragedy that had overtaken 
the people inside these carsthey were dead, too, of course, but somehow their 
passing seemed insignificant. Maybe his thinking had been affected by the 
attitude of the age, in which a man tended to be less and less indentified as an 
individual and more and more regarded on the basis of the symbolic status of the 
car he drove. When a stranger rode down the street, one seldom thought of him as 
a person; one's only immediate reaction was, "There goes a Fordthere goes a 
Pontiacthere goes one of those big goddam Imperials." And men bragged about 
their cars instead of their characters. So somehow the death of the automobiles 
seemed more important than the death of their owners. It didn't seem as though 
human beings had perished in this panic-stricken effort to escape from the city; 
it was the cars which had made a dash for final freedom and then failed.
He skirted the road and now continued along the ditch until he came to the first 
sidewalks of the suburbs. Here the evidence of destruction was accentuated. 
Explosion and implosion had done their work. In the country, paint had been 
peeled from the walls, but in the suburbs walls had been peeled from the 
buildings. Not every home was leveled. There were still plenty of ranch houses 
standing, though no sign of a rancher in a gray flannel suit. In some of the 
picturesquely modern white houses, with their light lines and heavy mortgages, 
the glass side walls remained unshattered, but there was no sign of happy, busy 
suburban life withinthe television sets were dead.
Now he found his progress impeded by an increasing litter. Apparently a blast 
had swept through this area; his way was blocked by a clutter of the 
miscellaneous debris of Exurbia.
He waded through or stepped around:
Boxes of Kleenex, artificial shrunken heads which had once dangled in the 
windows of station-wagons, crumpled shopping-lists and scribbled notices of 
appointments with psychiatrists.
He stepped on an Ivy League cap, nearly tripped over a twisted barbecue grille, 
got his feet tangled in the straps of foam-rubber falsies. The gutters were 
choked with the glut from a bombed-out drugstore; bobbie-pins, nylon 
bobby-socks, a spate of pocketbooks, a carton of tranquilizers, a mass of 
suntan lotion, suppositories, deodorants, and a big cardboard cutout of Harry 
Belafonte obscured by a spilled can of hot fudge.
He shuffled on, through a welter of women's electric shavers, 
Book-of-the-Month-Club bonus selections, Presley records, false teeth, and 
treatises of Existentialism. Now he was actually approaching the city proper. 
Signs of the devastation multiplied. Trudging past the campus of the university 
he noted, with a start of horror, that the huge football stadium was no more. 
Nestled next to it was the tiny Fine Arts building, and at first he thought that 
it too had been razed. Upon closer inspection, however, he realized it was 
untouched, save for the natural evidence of neglect and decay.
He found it difficult to maintain a regular course, now, for the streets were 
choked with wrecked vehicles and the sidewalks often blocked by beams or the 
entire toppled fronts of buildings. Whole structures had been ripped apart, and 
here and there were freakish variations where a roof had fallen in or a single 
room smashed to expose its contents. Apparently the blow had come instantly, and 
without forewarning, for there were few bodies on the streets and those he 
glimpsed inside the opened buildings gave indication that death had found them 
in the midst of their natural occupations.
Here, in a gutted basement, a fat man sprawled over the table of his home 
workshop, his sightless eyes fixed upon the familiar calendar exhibiting 
entirely the charms of Marilyn Monroe. Two flights above him, through the empty 
frame of a bathroom window, one could see his wife, dead in the tub, her hand 
still clutching a movie magazine with a Rock Hudson portrait on the cover. And 
up in the attic, open to the sky, two young lovers stretched on a brass bed, 
locked naked in headless ecstasy.
He turned away, and as his progress continued he deliberately avoided looking 
at the bodies. But he could not, avoid seeing them now, and with familiarity the 
revulsion softened to the merest twinge. It then gave way to curiosity.
Passing a school playground he was pleased to see that the end had come without 
grotesque or unnatural violence. Probably a wave of paralyzing gas had swept 
through this area. Most of the figures were frozen upright in normal postures. 
Here were all of the aspects of ordinary childhoodthe big kid punching the 
little kid, both leaning up against a fence where the blast had found them; a 
group of six youngsters in uniform black leather jackets piled upon the body of 
a child wearing a white leather jacket.
Beyond the playground loomed the center of the city. From a distance the mass of 
shattered masonry looked like a crazy garden-patch turned by a mad plowman. Here 
and there were tiny blossoms of flame sprouting forth from the interstices of 
huge clods, and at intervals he could see lopped, stemlike formations, the lower 
stories of sky-scrapers from which the tops had been sheared by the swish of a 
thermonuclear scythe.
He hesitated, wondering if it was practical to venture into this weird welter. 
Then he caught sight of the hillside beyond, and of the imposing structure which 
was the new Federal Building. It stood there, somehow miraculously untouched by 
the blast, and in the haze he could see the flag still fluttering from its roof. 
There would be life here, and he knew he would not be content until he reached 
it.
But long before he attained his objective, he found other evidences of continued 
existence. Moving delicately and deliberately through the debris, he became 
aware that he was not entirely alone here in the central chaos.
Wherever the flames flared and flickered, there were furtive figures moving 
against the fire. To his horror, he realized that they were actually kindling 
the blazes; burning away barricades that could not otherwise be removed, as 
they entered shops and stores to loot. Some of the scavengers were silent and 
ashamed, others were boisterous and drunken; all were doomed.
It was this knowledge which kept him from interfering. Let them plunder and 
pilfer at will, let them quarrel over the spoils in the shattered streets; in a 
few hours or a few days, radiation and fallout would take inevitable toll.
No one interfered with his passage; perhaps the helmet and protective garment 
resembled an official uniform. He went his way unhindered and saw:
A barefooted man wearing a mink coat, dashing through the door of a cocktail 
lounge and passing bottles out to a bucket-brigade of four small children
An old woman standing in a bombed-out bank vault, sweeping stacks of bills into 
the street with her broom. Over in one corner lay the body of a white-haired 
man, his futile arms outstretched to embrace a heap of coins. Impatiently, the 
old woman nudged him with her broom. His head lolled, and a silver dollar popped 
out of his open mouth
A soldier and a woman wearing the armband of the Red Cross, carrying a stretcher 
to the blocked entrance of a partially-razed church. Unable to enter, they bore 
the stretcher around to the side, and the soldier kicked in one of the 
stained-glass windows
An artist's basement studio, open to the sky; its walls still intact and covered 
with abstract paintings. In the center of the room stood the easel, but the 
artist was gone. What was left of him was smeared across the canvas in a 
dripping mass, as though the artist had finally succeeded in putting something 
of himself into his picture
A welter of glassware that had once been a chemical laboratory, and in the 
center of it a smocked figure slumped over a microscope. On the slide was a 
single cell which the scientists had been intently observing when the world 
crashed about his ears
A woman with the face of a Vogue model, spread-eagled in the street. Apparently 
she had been struck down while answering the call of duty, for one slim, 
aristocratic hand still gripped the strap of her hatbox. Otherwise, due to some 
prank of explosion, the blast had stripped her quite naked; she lay there with 
all her expensive loveliness exposed
A thin man, emerging from a pawnshop and carrying an enormous tuba. He 
disappeared momentarily into a meat market, next door, then came out again, the 
bell of his tuba stuffed with sausages
A broadcasting studio, completely demolished, its once immaculate sound stage 
littered with the crumpled cartons of fifteen different varieties of America's 
Favorite Cigarette and the broken bottles of twenty brands of America's 
Favorite Beer. Protruding from the wreckage was the head of America's Favorite 
Quizmaster, eyes staring glassily at a sealed booth in the corner which now 
served as the coffin for a nine-year-old boy who had known the batting-averages 
of every team in the American and National Leagues since 1882
A wild-eyed woman sitting in the street, crying and crooning over a kitten 
cradled in her arms
A broker caught at his desk, his body mummified in coils of ticker-tapes
A motor-bus, smashed into a brick wall; its passengers still jamming the aisles; 
standees clutching straps in rigor mortis
The hindquarters of a stone lion before what had once been the Public Library; 
before it, on the steps, the corpse of an elderly lady whose shopping-bag had 
spewed its contents over the streettwo murder-mysteries, a rental copy of 
Peyton Place, and the latest issue of the Reader's Digest
A small boy wearing a cowboy hat, who levelled a toy pistol at his little sister 
and shouted, "Bang! You're dead!"
(She was.)
He walked slowly now, his pace impeded by obstacles both physical and of the 
spirit. He approached the building on the hillside by a circuitous route; 
avoiding repugnance, overcoming morbid curiosity, shunning pity, recoiling from 
horror, surmounting shock.
He knew there were others about him here in the city's core, some bent on acts 
of mercy, some on heroic rescue. But he ignored them all, for they were dead. 
Mercy had no meaning in this mist, and there was no rescue from radiation. Some 
of those who passed called out to him, but he went his way unheeding, knowing 
their words were mere death-rattles.
But suddenly, as he climbed the hillside, he was crying. The salty warmth ran 
down his cheeks and blurred the inner surface of his helmet so that he no longer 
saw anything clearly. And it was thus he emerged from the inner circle; the 
inner circle of the city, the inner circle of Dante's hell.
His tears ceased to flow and his vision cleared. Ahead of him was the proud 
outline of the Federal Building, shining and intactor almost so.
 
As he neared the imposing steps and gazed up at the facade, he noted that there 
were a few hints of crumbling and corrosion on the surface of the structure. The 
freakish blast had done outright damage only to the sculptured figures 
surmounting the great arched doorway; the symbolic statuary had been partially 
shattered so that the frontal surface had fallen away. He blinked at the empty 
outlines of the three figures; somehow he never had realized that Faith, Hope 
and Charity were hollow.
Then he walked inside the building. There were tired soldiers guarding the 
doorway, but they made no move to stop him, probably because he wore a 
protective garment even more intricate and impressive than their own.
Inside the structure a small army of low clerks and high brass moved antlike in 
the corridors; marching grim-faced up and down the stairs. There were no 
elevators, of coursethey'd ceased functioning when the electricity gave out. 
But he could climb.
He wanted to climb now, for that was why he had come here. He wanted to gaze out 
over the city. In his gray insulation he resembled an automaton, and like an 
automaton he plodded stiffly up the stairways until he reached the topmost 
floor.
But there were no windows here, only walled-in offices. He walked down a long 
corridor until he came to the very end. Here, a single large cubicle glowed with 
gray light from the glass wall beyond.
A man sat at a desk, jiggling the receiver of a field telephone and cursing 
softly. He glanced curiously at the intruder, noted the insulating uniform, and 
returned to his abuse of the instrument in his hand.
So it was possible to walk over to the big window and look down.
It was possible to see the city, or the crater where the city had been.
Night was mingling with the haze on the horizon, but there was no darkness. The 
little incendiary blazes had been spreading, apparently, as the wind moved in, 
and now he gazed down upon a growing sea of flame. The crumbling spires and 
gutted structures were drowning in red waves. As he watched, the tears came 
again, but he knew there would not be enough tears to put the fires out.
So he turned back to the man at the desk, noting for the first time that he wore 
one of the very special uniforms reserved for generals.
This must be the commander, then. Yes, he was certain of it now, because the 
floor around the desk was littered with scraps of paper. Maybe they were 
obsolete maps, maybe they were obsolete treaties. It didn't matter now.
There was another map on the wall behind the desk, and this one mattered very 
much. It was studded with black and red pins, and it took but a moment to 
decipher their meaning. The red pins signified destruction, for there was one 
affixed to the name of this city. And there was one for New York, one for 
Chicago, Detroit, Los Angelesevery important center had been pierced.
He looked at the general, and finally the words came.
"It must be awful," he said.
"Yes, awful," the general echoed.
"Millions upon millions dead."
"Dead."
"The cities destroyed, the air polluted, and no escape. No escape anywhere in 
the world."
"No escape."
He turned away and stared out the window once more, stared down at Inferno. 
Thinking, this is what it has come to, this is the way the world ends.
He glanced at the general again, and then sighed. "To think of our being 
beaten," he whispered.
The red glare mounted, and in its light he saw the general's face, gleeful and 
exultant.
"What do you mean, man?" the general said proudly, the flames rising. "We won!"
 
ARTHUR C. CLARKE
 
Writer, lecturer, skin diver, travel expert, and interpreter of science for the 
lay audience, Arthur Clarke is not quite all things to all men but he is giving 
it a good try. He helped British pilots outwit the Luftwaffe in the Battle of 
Britain. He was one of the founders of the British rocket society. He has had no 
fewer than six sightings of UFOs (all of which he explains in non-saucerian 
terms). And, in general, he has shown a remarkable capacity for being where the 
excitement is, and coming back to tell the rest of us about it. He is also a 
science fiction writer at the very rarefied level of general excellence shared 
by only a few. You already know this, of course; but if you didn't you would 
soon learn in reading
 
The Deep Range
 
There was a killer loose on the range. A 'copter patrol, five hundred miles off 
Greenland, had seen the great corpse staining the sea crimson as it wallowed in 
the waves. Within seconds, the intricate warning system had been alerted : men 
were plotting circles and moving counters on the North Atlantic chartand Don 
Burley was still rubbing the sleep from his eyes as he dropped silently down to 
the twenty-fathom line.
The pattern of green lights on the tell-tale was a glowing symbol of security. 
As long as that pattern was unchanged, as long as none of those emerald stars 
winked to red, all was well with Don and his tiny craft. Airfuelpowerthis was 
the triumvirate which ruled his life. If any of them failed, he would be sinking 
in a steel coffin down toward the pelagic ooze, as Johnnie Tyndall had done the 
season before last. But there was no reason why they should fail; the accidents 
one foresaw, Don told himself reassuringly, were never the ones that happened.
He leaned across the tiny control board and spoke into the mike. Sub 5 was still 
close enough to the mother ship for radio to work, but before long he'd have to 
switch to the sonics.
"Setting course 255, speed 50 knots, depth 20 fathoms, full sonar coverage. . . 
. Estimated time to target area, 70 minutes.... Will report at 10-minute 
intervals. That is all.... Out."
The acknowledgement, already weakening with range, came back at once from the 
Herman Melville.
"Message received and understood. Good hunting. What about the hounds?"
Don chewed his lower lip thoughtfully. This might be a job he'd have to handle 
alone. He had no idea, to within fifty miles either way, where Benj and Susan 
were at the moment. They'd certainly follow if he signaled for them, but they 
couldn't maintain his speed and would soon have to drop behind. Besides, he 
might be heading for a pack of killers, and the last thing he wanted to do was 
to lead his carefully trained porpoises into trouble. That was common sense and 
good business. He was also very fond of Susan and Benj.
"It's too far, and I don't know what I'm running into," he replied. "If they're 
in the interception area when I get there, I may whistle them up."
The acknowledgement from the mother ship was barely audible, and Don switched 
off the set. It was time to look around.
He dimmed the cabin lights so that he could see the scanner screen more clearly, 
pulled the polaroid glasses down over his eyes, and peered into the depths. This 
was the moment when Don felt like a god, able to hold within his hands a circle 
of the Atlantic twenty miles across, and to sec clearly down to the 
still-unexplored deeps, three thousand fathoms below. The slowly rotating beam 
of inaudible sound was searching the world in which he floated, seeking out 
friend and foe in the eternal darkness where light could never penetrate. The 
pattern of soundless shrieks, too shrill even for the hearing of tile bats who 
had invented sonar a million years before man, pulsed out into the watery night: 
the faint echoes came tingling back as floating, blue-green flecks on the 
screen.
Through long practice, Don could read the message with effortless ease. A 
thousand feet below, stretching out to his submerged horizon, was the scattering 
layerthe blanket of life that covered half the world. The sunken meadow of the 
sea, it rose and fell with the passage of the sun, hovering always at the edge 
of darkness. But the ultimate depths were no concern of his. The flocks he 
guarded, and the enemies who ravaged them, belonged to the upper levels of the 
sea.
Don flicked the switch of the depth-selector, and his sonar beam concentrated 
itself into the horizontal plane. The glimmering echoes from the abyss vanished, 
but he could see more clearly what lay around him here in the ocean's 
stratospheric heights. That glowing cloud two miles ahead was a school of fish; 
he wondered if Base knew about it, and made an entry in his log. There were some 
larger, isolated blips at the edge of the schoolthe carnivores pursuing the 
cattle, insuring that the endlessly turning wheel of life and death would never 
lose momentum. But this conflict was no affair of Don's; he was after bigger 
game.
Sub 5 drove on toward the west, a steel needle swifter and more deadly than any 
other creature that roamed the seas. The tiny cabin, lit only by the flicker of 
lights from the instrument board, pulsed with power as the spinning turbines 
thrust the water aside. Don glanced at the chart and wondered how the enemy had 
broken through this time. There were still many weak points, for fencing the 
oceans of the world had been a gigantic task. The tenuous electric fields, 
fanning out between generators many miles apart, could not always hold at bay 
the starving monsters of the deep. They were learning, too. When the fences were 
opened, they would sometimes slip through with the whales and wreak havoc before 
they were discovered.
The long-range receiver bleeped plaintively, and Don switched over to 
TRANSCRIBE. It wasn't practical to send speech any distance over an ultrasonic 
beam, and code had come back into its own. Don had never learned to read it by 
ear, but the ribbon of paper emerging from the slot saved him the trouble.
COPTER REPORTS SCHOOL 50-100 WHALES HEADING 95 DEGREES GRID REF X186475 Y438034 
STOP. MOVING AT SPEED. STOP. MELVILLE. OUT.
Don started to set the coordinates on the plotting grid, then saw that it was no 
longer necessary. At the extreme edge of his screen, a flotilla of faint stars 
had appeared. He altered course slightly, and drove head-on toward the 
approaching herd.
The 'copter was right: they were moving fast. Don felt a mounting excitement, 
for this could mean that they were on the run and luring the killers toward him. 
At the rate at which they were traveling he would be among them in five minutes. 
He cut the motors and felt the backward tug of water bringing him swiftly to 
rest.
Don Burley, a knight in armor, sat in his tiny dim-lit room fifty feet below the 
bright Atlantic waves, testing his weapons for the conflict that lay ahead. In 
these moments of poised suspense, before action began, his racing brain often 
explored such fantasies. He felt a kinship with all shepherds who had guarded 
their flocks back to the dawn of time. He was David, among ancient Palestinian 
hills, alert for the mountain lions that would prey upon his father's sheep. But 
far nearer in time, and far closer in spirit, were the men who had marshaled the 
great herds of cattle on the American plains, only a few lifetimes ago. They 
would have understood his work, though his implements would have been magic to 
them. The pattern was the same; only the scale had altered. It made no 
fundamental difference that the beasts Don herded weighed almost a hundred 
tons, and browsed on the endless savannahs of the sea.
The school was now less than two miles away, and Don checked his scanner's 
continuous circling to concentrate on the sector ahead. The picture on the 
screen altered to a fanshaped wedge as the sonar beam started to flick from side 
to side; now he could count every whale in the school, and even make a good 
estimate of its size. With a practiced eye, he began to look for stragglers.
Don could never have explained what drew him at once toward those four echoes at 
the southern fringe of the school. It was true that they were a little apart 
from the rest, but others had fallen as far behind. There is some sixth sense 
that a man acquires when he has stared long enough into a sonar screensome 
hunch which enables him to extract more from the moving flecks than he has any 
right to do. Without conscious thought, Don reached for the control which would 
start the turbines whirling into life. Sub 5 was just getting under way when 
three leaden thuds reverberated through the hull, as if some-one was knocking on 
the front door and wanted to come in.
"Well I'm damned," said Don. "How did you get here?" He did not bother to switch 
on the TV; he'd know Benj's signal anywhere. The porpoises must have been in the 
neighborhood and had spotted him before he'd even switched on the hunting call. 
For the thousandth time, he marveled at their intelligence and loyalty. It was 
strange that Nature had played the same trick twice on land with the dog, in 
the ocean with the porpoise. Why were these graceful sea-beasts so fond of man, 
to whom they owed so little? It made one feel that the human race was worth 
something after all, if it could inspire such unselfish devotion.
It had been known for centuries that the porpoise was at least as intelligent as 
the dog, and could obey quite complex verbal commands. The experiment was still 
in progress, but if it succeeded then the ancient partnership between shepherd 
and sheep-dog would have a new lease on life.
Don switched on the speakers recessed into the sub's hull and began to talk to 
his escorts. Most of the sounds he uttered would have been meaningless to other 
human ears; they were the product of long research by the animal psychologists 
of the World Food Administration. He gave his orders twice to make sure that 
they were understood, then checked with the sonar screen to see that Benj and 
Susan were following astern as he had told them to.
The four echoes that had attracted his attention were clearer and closer now, 
and the main body of the whale pack had swept past him to the east. He had no 
fear of a collision; the great animals, even in their panic, could sense his 
presence as easily as he could detect theirs, and by similar means. Don wondered 
if he should switch on his beacon. They might recognize its sound pattern, and 
it would reassure them. But the still unknown enemy might recognize it too.
He closed for an interception, and hunched low over the screen as if to drag 
from it by sheer will power every scrap of information the scanner could give. 
There were two large echoes, some distance apart, and one was accompanied by a 
pair of smaller satellites. Don wondered if he was already too late. In his 
mind's eye, he could picture the death struggle taking place in the water less 
than a mile ahead. Those two fainter blips would be the enemyeither shark or 
grampusworrying a whale while one of its companions stood by in helpless 
terror, with no weapons of defense except its mighty flukes.
Now he was almost close enough for vision. The TV camera in Sub 5's prow 
strained through the gloom, but at first could show nothing but the fog of 
plankton. Then a vast shadowy shape began to form in the center of the screen, 
with two smaller companions below it. Don was seeing, with the greater precision 
but hopelessly limited range of ordinary light, what the sonar scanners had 
already told him.
Almost at once he saw his mistake. The two satellites were calves, not sharks. 
It was the first time he had ever met a whale with twins; although multiple 
births were not unknown, a cow could suckle only two young at once and usually 
only the stronger would survive. He choked down his disappointment; this error 
had cost him many minutes and he must begin the search again.
Then came the frantic tattoo on the hull that meant danger. It wasn't easy to 
scare Benj, and Don shouted his reassurance as he swung Sub 5 round so that the 
camera could search the turgid waters. Automatically, he had turned toward the 
fourth blip on the sonar screenthe echo he had assumed, from its size, to be 
another adult whale. And he saw that, after all, he had come to the right place.
"Jesus!" he said softly. "I didn't know they came that big." He'd seen larger 
sharks before, but they had all been harmless vegetarians. This, he could tell 
at a glance, was a Greenland shark, the killer of the northern seas. It was 
supposed to grow up to thirty feet long, but this specimen was bigger than Sub 
5. It was every inch of forty feet from snout to tail, and when he spotted it, 
it was already turning in toward the kill. Like the coward it was, it had 
launched its attack at one of the calves.
Don yelled to Benj and Susan, and saw them racing ahead into his field of 
vision. He wondered fleetingly why porpoises had such an overwhelming hatred of 
sharks; then he loosed his hands from the controls as the auto-pilot locked on 
to the target. Twisting and turning as agilely as any other sea-creature of its 
size, Sub 5 began to close in upon the shark, leaving Don free to concentrate on 
his armament.
The killer had been so intent upon his prey that Benj caught him completely 
unawares, ramming him just behind the left eye. It must have been a painful 
blow: an iron-hard snout, backed by a quarter-ton of muscle at fifty miles an 
hour is something not to be laughed at even by the largest fish. The shark 
jerked round in an impossibly tight curve, and Don was almost jolted out of his 
seat as the sub snapped on to a new course. If this kept up, he'd find it hard 
to use his String. But at least the killer was too busy now to bother about his 
intended victims.
Benj and Susan were worrying the giant like dogs snapping at the heels of an 
angry bear. They were too agile to be caught in those ferocious jaws, and Don 
marveled at the coordination with which they worked. When either had to surface 
for air, the other would hold off for a minute until the attack could be resumed 
in strength.
There was no evidence that the shark realized that a far more dangerous 
adversary was closing in upon it, and that the porpoises were merely a 
distraction. That suited Don very nicely; the next operation was going to be 
difficult unless he could hold a steady course for at least fifteen seconds. At 
a pinch he could use the tiny rocket torps to make a kill. If he'd been alone, 
and faced with a pack of sharks, he would certainly have done so. But it was 
messy, and there was a better way. He preferred the technique of the rapier to 
that of the hand-grenade.
Now he was only fifty feet away, and closing rapidly. There might never be a 
better chance. He punched the launching stud.
From beneath the belly of the sub, something that looked like a sting-ray 
hurtled forward. Don had checked the speed of his own craft; there was no need 
to come any closer now. The tiny, arrow-shaped hydrofoil, only a couple of feet 
across, could move far faster than his vessel and would close the gap in 
seconds. As it raced forward, it spun out the thin line of the control wire, 
like some underwater spider laying its thread. Along that wire passed the energy 
that powered the Sting, and the signals that steered it to its goal. Don had 
completely ignored his own larger craft in the effort of guiding this underwater 
missile. It responded to his touch so swiftly that he felt he was controlling 
some sensitive high-spirited steed.
The shark saw the danger less than a second before impact. The resemblance of 
the Sting to an ordinary ray confused it, as the designers had intended. Before 
the tiny brain could realize that no ray behaved like this, the missile had 
struck. The steel hypodermic, rammed forward by an exploding cartridge, drove 
through the shark's horny skin, and the great fish erupted in a frenzy of 
terror. Don backed rapidly away, for a blow from that tail would rattle him 
around like a pea in a can and might even cause damage to the sub. There was 
nothing more for him to do, except to speak into the microphone and call off his 
hounds.
The doomed killer was trying to arch its body so that it could snap at the 
poisoned dart. Don had now reeled the Sting back into its hiding place, pleased 
that be had been able to retrieve the missile undamaged. He watched without pity 
as the great fish succumbed to its paralysis.
Its struggles were weakening. It was swimming aimlessly back and forth, and 
once Don had to sidestep smartly to avoid a collision. As it lost control of 
buoyancy, the dying shark drifted up to the surface. Don did not bother to 
follow; that could wait until he had attended to more important business.
He found the cow and her two calves less than a :mile away, and inspected them 
carefully. They were uninjured, so there was no need to call the vet in his 
highly specialized two-man sub which could handle any cetological crisis from a 
stomach-ache to a Caesarian. Don made a note of the mother's number, stencilled 
just behind the flippers. The calves, as was obvious from their size, were this 
season's and had not yet been branded.
Don watched for a little while. They were no longer in the least alarmed, and a 
check on the sonar had shown that the whole school had ceased its panicky 
flight. He wondered how they knew what had happened; much had been learned about 
communication among whales, but much was still a mystery.
"I hope you appreciate what I've done for you, old lady," he muttered. Then, 
reflecting that fifty tons of mother love was a slightly awe-inspiring sight, he 
blew his tanks and surfaced.
It was calm, so he cracked the airlock and popped his head out of the tiny 
conning tower. The water was only inches below his chin, and from time to time a 
wave made a determined effort to swamp him. There was little danger of this 
happening, for he fitted the hatch so closely that he was quite an effective 
plug.
Fifty feet away, a long slate-colored mound, like an overturned boat, was 
rolling on the surface. Don looked at it thoughtfully and did some mental 
calculations. A brute this size should be valuable; with any luck there was, a 
chance of a double bonus. In a few minutes he'd radio his report, but for the 
moment it was pleasant to drink the fresh Atlantic air and feel the open sky 
above his head.
A gray thunderbolt shot up out of the depths and smashed back onto the surface 
of the water, smothering Don with spray. It was just Benj's modest way of 
drawing attention to himself; a moment later the porpoise had swum up to the 
conning tower, so that Don could reach down and tickle its head. The great, 
intelligent eyes stared back into his; was it pure imagination, or did an almost 
human sense of fun also lurk in their depths?
Susan, as usual, circled shyly at a distance until jealousy overpowered her and 
she butted Benj out of the way. Don distributed caresses impartially and 
apologized be-cause he had nothing to give them. He undertook to make up for the 
omission as soon as he returned to the Herman Melville.
"I'll go for another swim with you, too," he promised, "as long as you behave 
yourselves next time." He rubbed thoughtfully at a large bruise caused by Benj's 
playfulness, and wondered if he was not getting a little too old for rough 
games like this.
"Time to go home," Don said firmly, sliding down into the cabin and slamming the 
hatch. He suddenly realized that he was very hungry, and had better do something 
about the breakfast he had missed. There were not many men on earth who had 
earned a better right to eat their morning meal. He had saved for humanity more 
tons of meat, oil and milk than could easily be estimated.
Don Burley was the happy warrior, coming home from one battle that man would 
always have to fight. He was holding at bay the specter of famine which had 
confronted all earlier ages, but which would never threaten the world again 
while the great plankton farms harvested their millions of tons of protein, and 
the whale herds obeyed their new masters. Man had come back to the sea after 
aeons of exile; until the oceans froze, he would never be hungry again....
Don glanced at the scanner as he set his course. He smiled as he saw the two 
echoes keeping pace with the central splash of light that marked his vessel. 
"Hang around," he said. "We mammals must stick together." Then, as the autopilot 
took over, he lay back in his chair.
And presently Benj and Susan heard a most peculiar noise, rising and falling 
against the drone of the turbines. It had filtered faintly through the thick 
walls of Sub 5, and only the sensitive ears of the porpoises could have detected 
it. But intelligent beasts though they were, they could hardly be expected to 
understand why Don Burley was announcing, in a highly unmusical voice, that he 
was Heading for the Last Round-up....
 
HENRY KUTTNER
 
The present editor was (and still is) a fan; and almost the first fan letter he 
ever wrote was to the Weird Tales of the Thirties, attempting to communicate 
his high excitement at having read a story by a brand-new name in that magazine. 
The story was a ghastly, shuddery bit of horror; and the author was Henry 
Kuttner, just beginning, a long way from the heights of competence and 
creativity he was to attain, but already showing a most individual capacity for 
stirring the guts of his readers. Henry Kuttner wrote an incredible quantity for 
more than two decades after that (all good, and much superb) until his tragic 
death in 1958. Almost the lastand one of the bestof his countless fine science 
fiction stories is 
 
A Cross of Centuries
 
They called him Christ. But he was not the Man who had toiled up the long road 
to Golgotha five thousand years before. They called him Buddha and Mohammed; 
they called him the Lamb, and the Blessed of God. The called him the Prince of 
Peace and the Immortal One.
His name was Tyrell.
He had come up another road now, the steep path that led to the monastery on the 
mountain, and he stood for a moment blinking against the bright sunlight. His 
white robe was stained with the ritual black.
The girl beside him touched his arm and urged him gently forward. He stepped 
into the shadow of the gateway.
Then he hesitated and looked back. The road had led up to a level mountain 
meadow where the monastery stood, and the meadow was dazzling green with early 
spring. Faintly, far away, he felt a wrenching sorrow at the thought of leaving 
all this brightness, but he sensed that things would be better very soon. And 
the brightness was far away. It was not quite real any more. The girl touched 
his arm again and he nodded obediently and moved forward, feeling the troubling 
touch of approaching loss that his tired mind could not understand now.
I am very old, he thought.
In the courtyard the priests bowed before him. Mons, the leader, was standing at 
the other end of a broad pool that sent back the bottomless blue of the sky. Now 
and again the water was ruffled by a cool, soft breeze.
Old habits sent their messages along his nerves. Tyrell raised his hand and 
blessed them all.
His voice spoke the remembered phrases quietly.
Let there be peace. On all the troubled earth, on all the worlds and in Gods 
blessed sky between, let there be peace. The powers ofof his hand wavered; 
then he rememberedthe powers of darkness have no strength against Gods love 
and understanding. I bring you Gods word. It is love; it is understanding; it 
is peace.
They waited till he had finished. It was the wrong time and the wrong ritual. 
But that did not matter, since he was the Messiah.
Mons, at the other end of the pool, signaled. The girl beside Tyrell put her 
hands gently on the shoulders of his robe.
Mons cried, Immortal, will you cast off your stained garment and with it the 
sins of time?
Tyrell looked vaguely across the pool.
Will you bless the worlds with another century of your holy presence?
Tyrell remembered some words.
I leave in peace; I return in peace, he said.
The girl gently pulled off the white robe, knelt, and removed TyrelIs sandals. 
Naked, he stood at the pools edge.
He looked like a boy of twenty. He was two thousand years old.
Some deep trouble touched him. Mons had lifted his arm, summoning, but Tyrell 
looked around confusedly and met the girls gray eyes.
Nerina? he murmured..
Go in the pool, she whispered. Swim across it.
He put out his hand and touched hers. She felt that wonderful current of 
gentleness that was his indomitable strength. She pressed his hand tightly, 
trying to reach through the clouds in his mind, trying to make him know that it 
would be all right again, that she would be waitingas she had waited for his 
resurrection three times already now, in the last three hundred years.
She was much younger than Tyrell, but she was unmortal too.
For an instant the mists cleared from his blue eyes.
Wait for me, Nerina, he said. Then, with a return of his old skill, he went 
into the pool with a clean dive.
She watched him swim across, surely and steadily. There was nothing wrong with 
his body; there never was, no matter how old he grew. It was only his mind that 
stiffened, grooved deeper into the iron ruts of time, lost its friction with the 
present, so that his memory would fragment away little by little. But the oldest 
memories went last, and the automatic memories last of all.
She was conscious of her own body, young and strong and beautiful, as it would 
always be. Her mind...there was an answer to that too. She was watching the 
answer.
 I am greatly blessed, she thought. Of all women on all the worlds, I am the 
Bride of Tyrell, and the only other immortal ever born.
Lovingly and with reverence she watched him swim. At her feet his discarded robe 
lay, stained with the memories of a hundred years.
It did not seem so long ago. She could remember it very clearly, the last time 
she had watched Tyrell swim across the pool. And there had been one time before 
thatand that had been the first. For her; not for Tyrell.
He came dripping out of the water and hesitated. She felt a strong pang at the 
change in him from strong sureness to bewildered questioning. But Mons was 
ready. He reached out and took Tyrells hand. He led the Messiah toward a door 
in the high monastery wall and through it. She thought that Tyrell looked back 
at her, with the tenderness that was always there in his deep, wonderful calm.
A priest picked up the stained robe from her feet and carried it away. It would 
be washed clean now and placed on the altar, the spherical tabernacle shaped 
like the mother world. Dazzling white again, its folds would hang softly about 
the earth.
It would be washed clean, as Tyrells mind would be washed clean too, rinsed of 
the clogging deposit of memories that a century had brought.
The priests were filing away. She glanced back, beyond the open gateway, to the 
sharply beautiful green of the mountain meadow, spring grass sensuously reaching 
to the sun after the winters snow. Immortal, she thought, lifting her arms 
high, feeling the eternal blood, ichor of gods, singing in deep rhythm through 
her body. Tyrell was the one who suffered. I have no price to pay for 
thiswonder.
Twenty centuries.
And the first century must have been utter horror.
Her mind turned from the hidden mists of history that was legend now, seeing 
only a glimpse of the calm White Christ moving through that chaos of roaring 
evil when the earth was blackened, when it ran scarlet with hate and anguish. 
Ragnarok, Armageddon, Hour of the Antichristtwo thousand years ago!
Scourged, steadfast, preaching his word of love and peace, the White Messiah had 
walked like light through earths descent into hell.
And he had lived, and the forces of evil had destroyed themselves, and the 
worlds had found peace nowhad found peace so long ago that the Hour of the 
Antichrist was lost to memory; it was legend.
Lost, even to Tyrells memory. She was glad of that. It would have been terrible 
to remember. She turned chill at the thought of what martyrdom he must have 
endured.
But it was the Day of the Messiah now, and Nerina, the only other immortal ever 
born, looked with reverence and love at the empty doorway through which Tyrell 
had gone.
She glanced down at the blue pool. A cool wind ruffled its surface; a cloud 
moved lightly past the sun, shadowing all the bright day.
It would be seventy years before she would swim the pool again. And when she 
did, when she woke, she would find Tyrells blue eyes watching her, his hand 
closing lightly over hers, raising her to join him in the youth that was the 
springtime where they lived forever.
 
Her gray eyes watched him; her hand touched his as he lay on the couch. But 
still he did not waken.
She glanced up anxiously at Morn.
He nodded reassuringly.
She felt the slightest movement against her hand.
His eyelids trembled. Slowly they lifted. The calm, deep certainty was still 
there in the blue eyes that had seen so much, in the mind that had forgotten so 
much. Tyrell looked at her for a moment. Then he smiled.
Nerina said shakily, Each time Im afraid that youll forget me.
Mons said, We always give him back his memories of you, Blessed of God. We 
always will. He leaned over Tyrell. Immortal, have you truly wakened?
Yes, Tyrell said, and thrust himself upright, swinging his legs over the edge 
of the couch, rising to his feet in a swift, sure motion. He glanced around, saw 
the new robe ready, pure white, and drew it on. Both Nerina and Mons saw, that 
there was no more hesitancy in his actions. Beyond the eternal body, the mind 
was young and sure and unclouded again.
Mons knelt, and Nerina knelt too. The priest said softly, We thank God that a 
new Incarnation is permitted. May peace reign in this cycle, and in all the 
cycles beyond.
Tyrell lifted Nerina to her feet. He reached down and drew Mons upright too.
Mons, Mons, he said, almost chidingly. Every century Im treated less like a 
man and more like a god. If youd been alive a few hundred years agowell, they 
still prayed when I woke, but they didnt kneel. Im a man, Mons. Dont forget 
that.
Mons said, You brought peace to the worlds.
Then may I have something to eat, in return?
Mons bowed and went out. Tyrell turned quickly to Nerina. The strong gentleness 
of his arms drew her close.
If I never woke, sometime he said. Youd be the hardest thing of all to give 
up. I didnt know how lonely I was till I found another immortal.
We have a week here in the monastery, she said. A weeks retreat, before we 
go home. I like being here with you best of all.
Wait a while, he said. A few more centuries and youll lose that attitude of 
reverence. I wish you would. Loves betterand who else can I love this way?
She thought of the centuries of loneliness be had had, and her whole body ached 
with love and compassion.
After the kiss, she drew back and looked at him thoughtfully.
Youve changed again, she said. Its still you, but
But what?
Youre gentler, somehow.
Tyrell laughed.
Each time, they wash out my mind and give me a new set of memories. Oh, most of 
the old ones, but the totals a little different. It always is. Things are more 
peaceful now than they were a century ago. So my mind is tailored to fit the 
times. Otherwise Id gradually become an anachronism. He frowned slightly. 
Whos that?
She glanced at the door.
Mons? No. Its no one.
Oh? Well . . . yes, well have a weeks retreat. Time to think and integrate my 
retailored personality. And the past He hesitated again.
She said, I wish Id been born earlier. I could have been with you
No, he said quickly. At leastnot too far back.
Was it so bad?
He shrugged.
I dont know how true my memories are any more. Im glad I dont remember more 
than I do. But I remember enough. The legends are right. His face shadowed 
with sorrow. The big wars ... hell was loosed. Hell was omnipotent! The 
Antichrist walked in the noonday sun, and men feared that which is high. . . . 
His gaze lifted to the pale low ceiling of the room, seeing beyond it Men had 
turned into beasts. Into devils. I spoke of peace to them, and they tried to 
kill me. I bore it. I was immortal, by Gods grace. Yet they could have killed 
me. I am vulnerable to weapons. He drew a deep, long breath. Immortality was 
not enough. Gods will preserved me, so that I could go on preaching peace 
until, little by little, the maimed beasts remembered their souls and reached up 
out of hell.. . .
She had never heard him talk like this.
Gently she touched his hand.
He came back to her.
Its over, he said. The past is dead. We have today.
From the distance the priests chanted a paean of joy and gratitude.
 
The next afternoon she saw him at the end of a corridor leaning over something 
huddled and dark. She ran forward. He was bent down beside the body of a priest, 
and when Nerina called out, he shivered and stood up, his face white and 
appalled.
She looked down and her face, too, went white.
The priest was dead. There were blue marks on his throat, and his neck was 
broken, his head twisted monstrously.
Tyrell moved to shield the body from her gaze.
G-get Mons, he said, unsure as though he had reached the end of the hundred 
years. Quick. This  get him.
Morn came, looked at the body, and stood aghast. He met Tyrells blue gaze.
How many centuries, Messiah? he asked, in a shaken voice.
Tyrell said, Since there was violence? Eight centuries or more. Mons, no oneno 
one is capable of this.
Mons said, Yes. There is no more violence. It has been bred out of the race. 
He dropped suddenly to his knees. Messiah, bring peace again! The dragon has 
risen from the past!
Tyrell straightened, a figure of strong humility in his white robe.
He lifted his eyes and prayed.
Nerina knelt, her horror slowly washed away in the burning power of Tyrells 
prayer.
The whisper breathed through the monastery and shuddered back from the blue, 
clear air beyond. None knew who had closed deadly hands about the priests 
throat. No one, no human, was capable any longer of killing; as Mons had said, 
the ability to hate, to destroy, had been bred out of the race.
The whisper did not go beyond the monastery. Here the battle must be fought in 
secret, no hint of it escaping to trouble the long peace of the worlds.
No human.
But another whisper grew: The Antichrist is born again.
They turned to Tyrell, to the Messiah, for comfort.
Peace, he said, peacemeet evil with humility, bow your heads in prayer, 
remember the love that saved man when hell was loosed on the worlds two thousand 
years ago.
At night, beside Nerina, he moaned in his sleep and struck out at an invisible 
enemy.
Devil! he criedand woke, shuddering.
She held him, with proud humility, till he slept again.
 
She came with Mons one day to Tyrells room, to tell him of the new horror. A 
priest had been found dead, savagely hacked by a sharp knife. They pushed open 
the door and saw Tyrell sitting facing them at a low table. He was praying while 
he watched, in sick fascination, the bloody knife that lay on the table before 
him.
Tyrell she said, and suddenly Mons drew in a quick, shuddering breath and 
swung around sharply. He pushed her back across the threshold.
Wait! he said, with violent urgency. Wait for me here! Before she could 
speak he was beyond the closing door, and she heard it lock.
She stood there, not thinking, for a long time.
Then Mons came out and closed the door softly behind him. He looked at her.
Its all right, he said. But ... you must listen to me now. Then he was 
silent.
He tried again.
Blessed of God Again he drew that difficult breath. Nerina. I He laughed 
oddly. Thats strange. I cant talk unless I call you Nerina.
What is it? Let me go to Tyrell!
Nono. Hell be all right. Nerina, hessick.
She shut her eyes, trying to concentrate. She heard his voice, unsure but 
growing stronger.
Those killings. Tyrell did them.
Now you lie, she said. That is a lie!
Mons said almost sharply, Open your eyes. Listen to me. Tyrell isa man. A very 
great man, a very good man, but no god. He is immortal. Unless he is struck 
down, he will live foreveras you will. He has already lived more than twenty 
centuries.
Why tell me this? I know it! -
Mons said, You must help, you must understand. Immortality is an accident of 
the genes. A mutation. Once in a thousand years, perhaps, or ten thousand, a 
human is born immortal. His body renews itself; he does not age. Neither does 
his brain. But his mind ages
She said desperately, Tyrell swam the pool of rebirth only three days ago. Not 
for another century will his mind age again. Is hehes not dying?
No-no. Nerina, the pool of rebirth is only a symbol. You know that.
Yes. The real rebirth comes afterward, when you put us in that machine. I 
remember.
Mons said, The machine. If it were not used each century, you and Tyrell would 
have become senile and helpless a long time ago. The mind is not immortal, 
Nerina. After a while it cannot carry the weight of knowledge, learning, habits. 
It loses flexibility, it clouds with stiff old age. The machine clears the mind, 
Nerina, as we can clear a computer of its units of memory. Then we replace some 
memories, not all, we put the necessary memories in a fresh, clear mind, so it 
can grow and learn for another hundred years.
But I know all that
Those new memories form a new personality, Nerina.
A new? But Tyrell is still the same.
Not quite. Each century he changes a little, as life grows better, as the 
worlds grow happier. Each century the new mind, the fresh personality of Tyrell 
is differentmore in tune with the new century than the one just past. You have 
been reborn in mind three times, Nerina. You are not the same as you were the 
first time. But you cannot remember that. You do not have all the old memories 
you once had.
Butbut what
Mons said, I do not know. I have talked to Tyrell. I think this is what has 
happened. Each century when the mind of Tyrell was cleansederasedit left a 
blank mind, and we built a new Tyrell on that. Not much changed. Only a little, 
each time. But more than twenty times? His mind must have been very different 
twenty centuries ago. And
How different?
I dont know. Weve assumed that when the mind was erased, the pattern of 
personalityvanished. I think now that it didnt vanish. It was buried. 
Suppressed, driven so deeply into the mind that it could not emerge. It became 
unconscious. Century after century this has happened. And now more than twenty 
personalities of Tyrell are buried in his mind, a multiple personality that can 
no longer stay in balance. From the graves in his mind, there has been a 
resurrection.
The White Christ was never a killer!
No. In reality, even his first personality, twenty-odd centuries ago, must have 
been very great and good to bring peace to the worldsin that time of 
Antichrist. But sometimes, in the burial of the mind, a change may happen. Those 
buried personalities, some of them, may have changed to-to something less good 
than they were originally. And now they have broken loose.
Nerina turned to the door.
Mons said, We must be very sure. But we can save the Messiah. We can clear his 
brain, probe deep, deep root out the evil spirit . . . We can save him and make 
him whole again. We must start at once. Nerinapray for him.
He gave her a long, troubled look, turned, and went swiftly along the corridor. 
Nerina waited, not even think lug. After a while she heard a slight sound. At 
one end of the corridor were two priests standing motionless; at the other end, 
two others.
She opened the door and went in to Tyrell.
 
The first thing she saw was the blood-stained knife on the table. Then she saw 
the dark silhouette at the window, against the aching intensity of blue sky.
Tyrell, she said hesitantly.
He turned. Nerina. Oh, Nerina!
His voice was still gentle with that deep power of calm.
She went swiftly into his arms.
I was praying, he said, bending his head to rest on her shoulder. Mons told 
me ... I was praying. What have I done?
You are the Messiah, she said steadily. You save the world from evil and the 
Antichrist. Youve done that.
But the rest! This devil in my mind! This seed that has grown there, hidden 
from Gods sunlightwhat has it grown into? They say I killed!
After a long, pause she whispered, Did you?
No, he said, with absolute certainty. How could I? I, who have lived by 
lovemore than two thousand yearsI could not harm a living thing.
I knew that, she said. You are the White Christ.
The White Christ, he said softly. I wanted no such name. I am only a man, 
Nerina. I was never more than that. But . . . something saved me, something kept 
me alive through the Hour of the Antichrist. It was God. It was His hand. 
Godhelp me now
She held him tightly and looked past him through the window, bright sky, green 
meadow, tall mountains with the clouds rimming their peaks. God was here, as he 
was out beyond the blue, on all the worlds and in the gulfs between them, and 
God meant peace and love.
He will help you, she said steadily. He walked with you two thousand years 
ago. He hasnt gone away.
Yes, Tyrell whispered. Mons must be wrong. The way it was. . . I remember. 
Men like beasts. The sky was burning fire. There was blood. . . there was blood. 
More than a hundred years of blood that ran from the beast-men as they fought.
She felt the sudden stiffness in him, a trembling rigor, a new sharp straining.
He lifted his head and looked into her eyes.
She thought of ice and fire, blue ice, blue fire.
The big wars, he said, his voice stiff, rusty.
Then he put his hand over his eyes.
Christ! The word burst from his tight throat. God, God
Tyrell! She screamed his name.
Back! he croaked, and she stumbled away, but he was not talking to her. Back, 
devil! He clawed at his head, grinding it between his palms, bowing till he was 
half crouched before her.
Tyrell! she cried. Messiah! You are the White Christ
The bowed body snapped erect. She looked at the new face and felt an abysmal 
horror and loathing.
Tyrell stood looking at her. Then, appallingly, he gave her a strutting, 
derisive bow.
She felt the edge of the table behind her. She groped back and touched the heavy 
thickness of dried blood on the knifeblade. It was part of the nightmare. She 
moved her hand to the haft, knowing she could die by steel, letting her thought 
move ahead of the glittering steels point into her breast.
The voice she heard was touched with laughter.
Is it sharp? he asked. Is it still sharp, my love? Or did I dull it on the 
priest? Will you use it on me? Will you try? Other women have tried! Thick 
laughter choked in his throat.
Messiah, she whispered.    
Messiah! he mocked. A White Christ! Prince of Peace! Bringing the word of 
love, walking unharmed through the bloodiest wars that ever wrecked a world oh 
yes, a legend, my love, twenty centuries old and more. And a lie. Theyve 
forgotten! Theyve all forgotten what it was really like then!
All she could do was shake her head in helpless denial.
Oh yes, he said. You werent alive then. No one was. Except me, Tyrell. 
Butchery! I survived. But not by preaching peace. Do you know what happened to 
the men who preached love? They, diedbut I didnt die. I survived, not by 
preaching.
He pranced, laughing.
Tyrell the Butcher, he cried. I was the bloodiest of them all. All they could 
understand was fear. And they werent easily frightened thennot the men like 
beasts. But they were afraid of me.
He lifted his clawed hands, his muscles straining in an ecstasy of ghastly 
memory.
The Red Christ, he said. They might have called me that. But they didnt. Not 
after Id proved what I had to prove. They had a name for me then. They knew my 
name. And now He grinned at her. Now that the worlds are at peace, now Im 
worshiped as the Messiah. What can Tyrell the Butcher do today?
His laughter came slow, horrible and complacent.
He took three steps and swept his arms around her. Her flesh shrank from the 
grip of that evil.
And then, suddenly, strangely, she felt the evil leave him. The hard arms 
shuddered, drew away, and then tightened again, with frantic tenderness, while 
he bent his head and she felt the sudden hotness of tears.
He could not speak for a while. Cold as stone, she held him.            I
Somehow she was sitting on a couch and he was kneeling before her, his face 
buried in her lap.
She could not make out many of his choking words.
Remember . . . I remember. . . the old memories .
I cant stand it, I cant look back, or ahead ... they they had a name for me. 
I remember now. .. .
She laid one hand on his head. His hair was cold and damp.
They called me Antichrist!
He lifted his face and looked at her.
Help me! he cried in anguish. Help me, help me! Then his head bowed again 
and he pressed his fists against his temples, whispering wordlessly.
She remembered what was in her right hand, and she lifted the knife and drove it 
down as hard as she could, to give him the help he needed.
 
She stood at the window, her back to the room and the dead immortal.
She waited for the priest Mona to return. He would know what to do next. 
Probably the secret would have to be kept, somehow.
They would not harm her, she knew that. The reverence that had surrounded 
Tyrell enfolded her too. She would live on, the only immortal now, born in a 
time of peace, living forever and alone in the worlds of peace. Some day, some 
time, another immortal might be born, but she did not want to think of that now. 
She could think only of Tyrell and her loneliness.
She looked through the window at the bright blue and green, the pure day of God, 
washed clean now of the last red stain of mans bloody past. She knew that 
Tyrell would be glad if he could see this cleanness, this purity that could go 
on forever.
She would see it go on. She was part of it, as Tyrell had not been. And even in 
the loneliness she already felt, there was a feeling of compensation, somehow. 
She was dedicated to the centuries of man that were to come.
She reached beyond her sorrow and love. From far away she could hear the solemn 
chanting of the priests. It was part of the righteousness that had come to the 
worlds now, at last, after the long and bloody path to the new Golgotha. But it 
was the last Golgotha, and she would go on now as she must, dedicated and sure.
Immortal.
She lifted her head and looked steadily at the blue. She would look forward into 
the future. The past was forgotten. And the past, to her, meant no bloody 
heritage, no deep corruption that would work unseen in the black hell of the 
minds abyss until the monstrous seed reached up to destroy Gods peace. And 
love.
Quite suddenly, she remembered that she had committed murder. Her arm thrilled 
again with the violence of the blow; her hand tingled with the splash of shed 
blood.
Very quickly she closed her thoughts against the memory. She looked up at the 
sky, holding hard against the closed gateway of her mind as though the assault 
battered already against the fragile bars.
 
H L. GOLD
 
In science fiction, nearly everybody reads Galaxy. Since its first issue, and in 
all of the decade that followed, it has ranked among the best science fiction 
magazinesalways exciting, and, mutatis mutandis, always reliable. The man whose 
editorial skill steers Galaxy past the rocks where scores of other magazines 
founder is, in his off-duty hours, a talented author in his own right. You 
didn't know this? You will know it very soon ... if you go on to read
 
The Man with English
 
Lying in the hospital, Edgar Stone added up his misfortunes as another might 
count blessings. There were enough to infuriate the most temperate man, which 
Stone notoriously was not. He smashed his fist down, accidentally hitting the 
metal side of the bed, and was astonished by the pleasant feeling. It enraged 
him even more. The really maddening thing was how simply he had goaded himself 
into the hospital.
He'd locked up his drygoods store and driven home for lunch. Nothing unusual 
about that; he did it every day. With his miserable digestion, he couldn't stand 
the restaurant food in town. He pulled into the driveway, rode over a collection 
of metal shapes his son Arnold had left lying around, and punctured a tire. 
"Rita!" he yelled. "This is going too damned far! Where is that brat?" 
"In here," she called truculently from the kitchen. He kicked open the screen 
door. His foot went through the mesh, 
"A ripped tire and a torn screen!" he shouted at Arnold, who was sprawled in 
angular adolescence over a blueprint on the kitchen table. "You'll pay for them, 
by God! They're coming out of your allowance!" 
"I'm sorry. Pop," the boy said. 
"Sorry, my left foot," Mrs. Stone shrieked. She whirled on her husband. "You 
could have watched where you were going. He promised to clean up his things from 
the driveway right after lunch. And it's about time you stopped kicking open the 
door every time you're mad." 
"Mad? Who wouldn't be mad? Me hoping he'd get out of school and come into the 
store, and he wants to be an engineer. An engineer and he can't even make change 
when hehah!helps me out in the store!" 
"He'll be whatever he wants to be," she screamed in the conversational tone of 
the Stone household. 
"Please," said Arnold. "I can't concentrate on this plan." Edgar Stone was never 
one to restrain an angry impulse. He tore up the blueprint and flung the pieces 
down on the table. 
"Aw, Pop," the boy said. 
"Don't say 'Aw, Pop' to me. You're not going to waste a summer vacation on junk 
like this. You'll eat your lunch and come down to the store. And youll do it 
every day for the rest of the summer!" 
"Oh, he will, will he?" demanded Mrs. Stone. "He'll catch up on his studies. And 
as for you, you can go back and eat in a restaurant." 
"You know I can't stand that slop!" 
"You'll eat it because you're not having lunch here any more. I've got enough to 
do without making three meals a day." 
"But I can't drive back with that tire"
He did, though not with the tirehe took a cab. It cost a dollar plus tip, lunch 
was a dollar and a half plus tip, bicarb at Rite Drug Store a few doors away and 
in a great hurry came to another fifteen cents only it didn't work. And then 
Miss Ellis came in for some material. Miss Ellis could round out any miserable 
day. She was fifty, tall, skinny and had thin, disapproving lips. She had a 
sliver of cloth clipped very meagerly on a hem that she intended to use as a 
sample. 
"The arms of the slipcover on my reading chair wore through," she informed him. 
"I bought the material here, if you remember." 
Stone didn't have to look at the fragmentary swatch. 
"That was about seven years ago" 
"Six-and-a-half," she corrected. "I paid enough for it. You'd expect anything 
that expensive to last." 
"The style was discontinued. I have something here that-" 
"I do not want to make an entire slipcover, Mr. Stone. All I want is enough to 
make new panels for the arms. Two yards should do very nicely." 
Stone smothered a bilious hiccup. "Two yards, Miss Ellis?" 
"At the most." 
"I sold the last of that material years ago." He pulled a bolt off a shelf and 
partly unrolled it for her. "Why not use a different pattern as a kind of 
contrast?" 
"I want this same pattern," she said, her thin lips getting even thinner and 
more obstinate. 
"Then I'll have to order it and hope one of my wholesalers still has some of it 
in stock." 
"Not without looking for it first right here, you won't order it for me. You 
can't know all these materials you have on these shelves." 
Stone felt all the familiar symptoms of furythe sudden pulsing of the temples, 
the lurch and bump of his heart as adrenalin came surging in like the tide at 
the Firth of Forth, the quivering of his hands, the angry shout pulsing at his 
vocal cords from below. 
"Ill take a look. Miss Ellis," he said. 
She was president of the Ladies Cultural Society and dominated it so thoroughly 
that the members would go clear to the next town for their dry goods, rather 
than deal with him, if he offended this sour stick of stubbornness. If Stone's 
life insurance salesman had been there, he would have tried to keep Stone from 
climbing the ladder that ran around the three walls of the store. He probably 
wouldn't have been in time. Stone stamped up the ladder to reach the highest 
shelves, where there were scraps of bolts. One of them might have been the 
remnant of the material Miss Ellis had bought six-and-a-half years ago. But 
Stone never found out. 
He snatched one, glaring down meanwhile at the top of Miss Ellis's head, and the 
ladder skidded out from under him. He felt his skull collide with the counter. 
He didn't feel it hit the floor. 
"God damn it!" Stone yelled. "You could at least turn on the lights." 
"There, there, Edgar. Everything's fine, just fine." It was his wife's voice and 
the tone was so uncommonly soft and soothing that it scared him into a panic. 
"What's wrong with me?" he asked piteously. "Am I blind?" 
"How many fingers am I holding up?" a man wanted to know. 
Stone was peering into the blackness. All he could see before his eyes was a 
vague blot against a darker blot. 
"None," he bleated. "Who are you?" 
"Dr. Rankin. That was a nasty fall you had, Mr. Stone concussion of course, and 
a splinter of bone driven into the brain. I had to operate to remove it." 
"Then you cut out a nerve!" Stone said. "You did something to my eyes!" 
The doctor's voice sounded puzzled. "There doesn't seem to be anything wrong 
with them. I'll take a look, though, and see." 
"Youll be all right, dear," Mrs. Stone said reassuringly, but she didn't sound 
as if she believed it. 
"Sure you will. Pop," said Arnold. 
"Is that young stinker here?" Stone demanded. "He's the cause of all this!"
"Temper, temper," the doctor said. "Accidents happen." Stone heard him lower the 
Venetian blinds. As if they had been a switch, light sprang up and everything in 
the hospital became brightly visible. 
"Well!" said Stone. "That's more like it. It's night and you're trying to save 
electricity, hey?" 
"It's broad daylight. Edgar dear," his wife protested. "All Dr. Rankin did was 
lower the blinds and" 
"Please," the doctor said. "If you don't mind, I'd rather take care of any 
explanations that have to be made." He came at Stone with an ophthalmoscope. 
When he flashed it into Stone's eyes, everything went black and Stone let him 
know it vociferously. 
"Black?" Dr. Rankin repeated blankly. "Are you positive? Not a sudden glare?" 
"Black," insisted Stone. "And what's the idea of putting me in a bed filled with 
bread crumbs?" 
"It was freshly made" 
"Crumbs. You heard me. And the pillow has rocks in it." 
"What else is bothering you?" asked the doctor worriedly. 
"It's freezing in here." Stone felt the terror rise in him again. "It was summer 
when I fell off the ladder. Don't tell me I've been unconscious clear through 
till winter!" 
"No, Pop," said Arnold. "That was yesterday" 
"I'll take care of this," Dr. Rankin said firmly. "I'm afraid you and your son 
will have to leave, Mrs. Stone. I have to do a few tests on your husband." 
"Will he be all right?" she appealed. 
"Of course, of course," he said inattentively, peering with a frown at the 
shivering patient. "Shock, you know," he added vaguely. 
"Gosh, Pop," said Arnold, "1m sorry this happened. I got the driveway all 
cleaned up." 
"And we'll take care of the store till you're better," Mrs. Stone promised. 
"Don't you dare!" yelled Stone. "Youll put me out of business!" 
The doctor hastily shut the door on them and came back to the bed. Stone was 
clutching the light summer blanket around himself. He felt colder than he'd ever 
been in his life.
"Can't you get me more blankets?" he begged. "You don't want me to die of 
pneumonia, do you?"
Dr. Rankin opened the blinds and asked, "What's this like?"
"Night," chattered Stone. "A new idea to save electricity booking up the blinds 
to the light switch?"
The doctor closed the blinds and sat down beside the bed. He was sweating as he 
reached for the signal button and pressed it. A nurse came in, blinking in their 
direction.
"Why don't you turn on the light?" she asked.
"Huh?" said Stone. "They are."
"Nurse, I'm Dr. Rankin. Get me a piece of sandpaper, some cotton swabs, an ice 
cube and Mr. Stone's lunch." 
"Is there anything he shouldn't eat?" 
"That's what I want to find out. Hurry, please." 
"And some blankets," Stone put in, shaking with the chill. 
"Blankets, Doctor?" she asked, startled. 
"Half a dozen will do," he said. "I think." It took her ten minutes to return 
with all the items. Stone wanted them to keep adding blankets until all seven 
were on him. He still felt cold. 
"Maybe some hot coffee?" he suggested. 
The doctor nodded and the nurse poured a cup, added the spoon and a half of 
sugar he requested, and he took a mouthful. He sprayed it out violently.
"Ice cold!" he yelped. "And who put salt in it?" 
"Salt?" She fumbled around on the tray. "It's so dark here" 
"I'll attend to it," Dr. Rankin said hurriedly. "Thank you." She walked 
cautiously to the door and went out. 
"Try this," said the doctor, after filling another cup. 
"Well, that's better!" Stone exclaimed. "Damned practical joker. They shouldn't 
be allowed to work in hospitals." 
"And now, if you don't mind," said the doctor, "I'd like to try several tests." 
Stone was still angry at the trick played on him, but he cooperated willingly. 
Dr. Rankin finally sagged back in the chair. The sweat ran down his face and 
into his collar, and his expression was so dazed that Stone was alarmed. 
"What's wrong. Doctor? Am I going togoing to"
"No, no. It's not that. No danger. At least, I don't believe there is. But I 
can't even be sure of that any more."
"You can't be sure if I'll live or die?"
"Look." Dr. Rankin grimly pulled the chair closer. "It's broad daylight and yet 
you can't see until I darken the room. The coffee was hot and sweet, but it was 
cold and salty to you, so I added an ice cube and a spoonful of salt and it 
tasted fine, you said. This is one of the hottest days on record and you're 
freezing. You told me the sandpaper felt smooth and satiny, then yelled that 
somebody had put pins in the cotton swabs, when there weren't any, of course. 
I've tried you with different colors around the room and you saw violet when you 
should have seen yellow, green for red, orange for blue, and so on. Now do you 
understand?"
"No," said Stone frightenedly. "What's wrong?"
"All I can do is guess. I had to remove that sliver of bone from your brain. It 
apparently shorted your sensory nerves."
"And what happened?"
"Every one of your senses has been reversed. You feel cold for heat, heat for 
cold, smooth for rough, rough for smooth, sour for sweet, sweet for sour, and so 
forth. And you see colors backward."
Stone sat up. "Murderer! Thief! You've ruined me!" The doctor sprang for a 
hypodermic and sedative. Just in time, he changed his mind and took a bottle of 
stimulant instead. It worked fine, though injecting it into his screaming, 
thrashing patient took more strength than he'd known he owned. Stone fell asleep 
immediately.
There were nine blankets on Stone and he had a bag of cement for a pillow when 
he had his lawyer, Manny Lubin, in to hear the charges he wanted brought against 
Dr. Rankin. The doctor was there to defend himself. Mrs. Stone was present in 
spite of her husband's objections. She always takes everybody's side against 
me," he explained in a roar.
"I'll be honest with you, Mr. Lubin," the doctor said, after Stone had finished 
on a note of shrill frustration. "I've hunted for cases like this in medical 
history and this is the first one ever to be reported. Except," he amended 
quickly, "that I haven't reported it yet. I'm hoping it reverses itself. That 
sometimes happens, you know."
"And what am I supposed to do in the meantime?" raged Stone. "I'll have to go 
out wearing an overcoat in the summer and shorts in the winterpeople will think 
I'm a maniac. And they'll be sure of it because I'll have to keep the store 
closed during the day and open at night1 can't see except in the dark. And 
matching materials! I can't stand the feel of smooth cloth and I see colors 
backward!" He glared at the doctor before turning back to Lubin. "How would you 
like to have to put sugar on your food and salt in your coffee?"
"But we'll work it out, Edgar dear," his wife soothed. "Arnold and I can take 
care of the store. You always wanted him to come into the business, so that 
ought to please you"
"As long as I'm there to watch him!"
"And Dr. Rankin said maybe things will straighten out."
"What about that. Doctor?" asked Lubin. "What are the chances?"
Dr. Rankin looked uncomfortable. "I don't know. This has never happened before. 
All we can do is hope."
"Hope, nothing!" Stone stormed. "I want to sue him. He had no right to go 
meddling around and turn me upside ' down. Any jury would give me a quarter of a 
million!"
"I'm no millionaire, Mr, Stone," said the doctor.
"But the hospital has money. We'll sue him and the trustees."
There was a pause while the attorney thought. "I'm afraid we wouldn't have a 
case, Mr. Stone." He went on more rapidly as Stone sat up, shivering, to argue 
loudly.
"It was an emergency operation. Any surgeon would have had to operate. Am I 
right, Dr. Rankin?"
The doctor explained what would have happened if he had not removed the pressure 
on the brain, resulting from the concussion, and the danger that the bone 
splinter, if not extracted, might have gone on traveling and caused possible 
paralysis or death.
"That would be better than this," said Stone.
"But medical ethics couldn't allow him to let you die," Lubin objected. "He was 
doing his duty. That's point one."
"Mr. Lubin is absolutely right, Edgar," said Mrs. Stone.
"There, you see?" screamed her husband. "Everybody's right but me! Will you get 
her out of here before I have a stroke?"
"Her interests are also involved," Lubin pointed out.
"Point two is that the emergency came first, the after-effects couldn't be known 
or considered."
Dr. Rankin brightened. "Any operation involves risk, even the excising of a 
corn. I had to take those risks."
"You had to take them?" Stone scoffed. "All right, what are you leading up to, 
Lubin?"
"We'd lose," said the attorney.
Stone subsided, but only for a moment. "So well lose. But if we sue, the 
publicity would ruin him. I want to sue!"
"For what, Edgar dear?" his wife persisted. "Well have a hard enough time 
managing. Why throw good money after bad?"
"Why didn't I marry a woman who'd take my side, even when I'm wrong?" moaned 
Stone. "Revenge, that's what. And he won't be able to practice, so hell have 
time to find out if there's a cure . . . and at no charge, either! I won't pay 
him another cent I"
The doctor stood up eagerly. "But I'm willing to see what can be done right now. 
And it wouldn't cost you anything, naturally."
"What do you mean?" Stone challenged suspiciously.
"If I were to perform another operation, I'll be able to see which nerves were 
involved. There's no need to go into the technical side right now, but it is 
possible to connect nerves. Of course, there are a good many, which complicates 
matters, especially since the splinter went through several layers"
Lubin pointed a lawyer's impaling finger at him. "Are you offering to attempt to 
correct the injury, gratis?"
"Certainly. I mean to say, I'll do my absolute best. But keep in mind, please, 
that there is no medical precedent." The attorney, however, was already 
questioning Stone and his wife. "In view of the fact that we have no legal 
grounds whatever for suit, does this offer of settlement satisfy your claim 
against him?"
"Oh, yes!" Mrs. Stone cried.
Her husband hesitated for a while, clearly tempted to take the opposite position 
out of habit. "I guess so," he reluctantly agreed.
"Well, then, it's in your hands. Doctor," said Lubin. Dr. Rankin buzzed 
excitedly for the nurse. "I'll have him prepared for surgery right away."
"It better work this time," warned Stone, clutching a handful of ice cubes to 
warm his fingers.
Stone came to foggily. He didn't know it, but he had given the anesthetist a 
bewildering problem, which finally had been solved by using fumes of aromatic 
spirits of ammonia. The four blurred figures around the bed seemed to be leaning 
precariously toward him.
"Pop!" said Arnold. "Look, he's coming out of it! Pop!"
"Speak to me, Edgar dear," Mrs. Stone beseeched. Lubin said, "See how he is, 
Doctor."
"He's fine," the doctor insisted heartily, his usual bedside manner evidently 
having returned. "He must bethe blinds are open and he's not complaining that 
it's dark or that he's cold." He leaned over the bed. "How are we feeling, Mr. 
Stone?"
It took a minute or two for Stone to move his swollen tongue enough to answer. 
He wrinkled his nose in disgust.
"What smells purple?" he demanded.
 
GAVIN HYDE
 
A few years back, in Ireland, Ray Bradbury spent some very productive months. 
Not only did he write the script of one of the best motion pictures of recent 
yearsMoby Dick was its namebut on a side trip he met a young writer who had 
just turned his hand to science fiction, and persuaded him to let American 
editors see the results. Star was delighted to acquire two of them; the first 
was "Nor the Moon by Night," and the second is
 
Sparkie's Fall
 
Sparkson was relieved to see the evening sky melt into the terrain of the planet 
where he had been forced down, slowly obliterating the forms of the aliens on 
each side of him. He had been looking forward to night because he had thought it 
over and he hopedrather optimistically, he admitted to himselfthat they might 
let him leave the rocket, or something.
Anything.
Anything was better than walking around the ship for the equivalent of three 
earth days, the only diversion being the mechanical Translator and that 
exasperating as hell as it tried to make sense of what the alien said and type 
it out for him on white little slips of paper: "NAME, I am worried. Could 
Sparkie (eat) (be nourished by) GARBLE?"
And then the answer: "!, (stop) (cease) (desist from) worrying, NAME. Sparkie is 
(in admirable condition) (fine) !"
It had taken him twenty years to get "Sparkie" out of his family's vocabulary. 
And now the first two "people" he met in outer space called him Sparkie.
Just because they were bigger than he was!
They lay on each side of him, gigantic whales from an ocean of soot, their 
lights glowing handfuls of sand. Nothing came out, nothing went in.
There were just two.
Many of his controls had ceased to function when they had pulled him down 
between them. Others were as usual. He couldn't take off, of courseexcept when 
that message came out of the Translator: "NAME, Sparkie might (desire) (want) 
(thirst for) exercise."
He leapt to the chanceit was foolish of them to think that the ship was the man 
and needed exercise, but that foolishness might help him escapebut they had 
gone with him, limiting him to graceful figure eights. He tried turning out of 
one of them, away into space.
He was returned to his place, gently.
When they had captured him, naturally, his first move was to open communications 
with them through the radio. They received him well, with the help of the 
translator. They said hello, yes we know where you came from, hope you had a 
good trip, and then they were quiet.
He had asked them the first forty-nine questions on the checklist designed for 
making contact with aliens. Nothing. At the end he was yelling at them.
Then he forgot his briefings. "What's the matter, battery gone dead?"
They said only: "Time to rest, Sparkie."
They were not exactly their last words, because while he was "exercising" he had 
asked if he could fire a nuclear missile, hoping to arouse a little more 
respect.
Then the one that always seemed subservient to the other said, "NAME, I am 
frightened. Sparkie might not (throw) (hurl) (eject) it free of his vessel. 
(Moreover) (Also) it might GARBLE the alignment of the GARBLE GARBLE."
The other didn't even answer that. "Fire away, Sparkie!"
So he threw the lever and there was a wondrous sun and a mushroom that would 
have turned Einstein over in his grave, certainly, if it had grown under him.
One said, "That's (enough) (sufficient) for (period of time)!" And the other 
said, "Better than 4th of July, eh, Sparkie?"
"It sure is. How come you know about the 4th?" "We know what we need to know. 
Let us rest now." Sparkson tried everything, even "I'm lonely!" But rest it was.
 
He had slept, getting up to check gauges and read some incredibly garbled 
messagesconversations having nothing to do with him that the Translator 
apparently couldn't begin to handle.
Now, with the coming of night, he stayed by the Translator. After an hour of 
darkness a short slip of paper appeared.
"Goodnight, NAME."
Then another. "(Sweet) (Pleasant) (Gentle) dreams of mother, NAME."
They were going to sleep. He sat sweating, staring at the slot, with his hands 
on each side of the gold-braided uniform cap on his head.
After a while some papers slid out of the Translator. Drowsily the aliens were 
communicating, like girls whispering secret, in bed.
"NAME"
 
"It is (odd) (strange) (perplexing)."
 
"I am thinking of Sparkie's mind ... NAME!" "I am awake!"
"Sparkie is so (small) (weak) (defenseless)."
"(Hm) (Mm) (Mmm)."
"His mind is like a (piece) (sheet) of GARBLE. We think on the (bases) 
(conditions) (roots) of our experience, our perceptions which arc multiplied by 
(objects) (things) (forms of matter) which we have sensed. Sparkie must think 
with the (toys) (playthings) of his earth only. How can he understand us? What 
does he know of GARBLE, GARBLE or GARBLE for example, this (small) (weak) 
(defenseless) being? NAME!"
"! Go to sleep."
That was all. He waited another hour. Then he read the bits of paper, in order. 
He read them over and over again, while the starless biblical darkness, one 
thing by God that was not among the forms of matter, offered him freedom.
So he was "(small) (weak) (defenseless)"?
He would show them.
He reviewed the gravity and atmospheric tables beside the suit, strapped 
nuclearms on each side, brought it closed around his body.
As he staggered, arms up and legs bent under the weight, he was made suddenly 
angry by an insistent tension at the back of his throat.
The "(toys) (playthings)" of his earth indeed! He opened the hatch.
He jumped to the surface of the ... the ... Planet?
This?
Some hours later the Translator in the cold metal hum of the ship began to spit 
papers, violently.
Waves of magnetism, pulses of electric desire, like startled schools of fish in 
coral, swept the corridors.
A great rocking bellowing sound and a smell of sorrow spread skyward.
 
FRITZ LEIBER
 
Before Fritz Leiber sat down to tell us what lay in the heart and mind of a 
kitten named Gummitch, he had already behind him a considerable career as writer 
("Gather, Darkness!", the award-winning "The Big Time," and scores of other 
memorable stories), editor (of a popular scientific magazine) and, of all 
things, Shakespearean actor (following in the footsteps of the older Fritz 
Leiber, his father). Surely he has at least as much before him; and it is with 
confidence and glee that we contemplate the fact that the future may hold many 
more stories from his as moving and insighted as
 
Space-time for Springers
 
Gummitch was a superkitten, as he knew very well, with an I.Q. of about 160. Of 
course, he didn't talk. But everybody knows that I.Q. tests based on language 
ability are very one-sided. Besides, he would talk as soon as they started 
setting a place for him at table and pouring him coffee. Ashurbanipal and 
Cleopatra ate horsemeat from pans on the floor and they didn't talk. Baby dined 
in his crib on milk from a bottle and he didn't talk. Sissy sat at table but 
they didn't pour her coffee and she didn't talknot one word. Father and Mother 
(whom Gummitch had nicknamed Old Horsemeat and Kitty-Come-Here) sat at table and 
poured each other coffee and they did talk. Q.E.D.
Meanwhile, he would get by very well on thought projection and intuitive 
understanding of all human speechnot even to mention cat patois, which almost 
any civilized animal could olav by ear. The dramatic monologues and Socratic 
dialogues, the quiz and panel-show appearances, the felidological expedition to 
darkest Africa (where he would uncover the real truth behind lions and tigers), 
the exploration of the outer planetsall these could wait. The same went for the 
books for which he was ceaselessly accumulating material: The Encyclopedia of 
Odors, Anthropofeline Psychology, Invisible Signs and Secret Wonders, 
Space-Time for Springers, Slit Eyes Look at Life, et cetera. For the present it 
was enough to live existence to the hilt and soak up knowledge, missing no 
experience proper to his age levelto rush about with tail aflame.
So to all outward appearances Gummitch was just a vividly normal kitten, as 
shown by the succession of nicknames he bore along the magic path that led from 
blue-eyed infancy toward puberty: Little One, Squawker, Portly, Bumble (for 
purring not clumsiness), Old Starved-to-Death, Fierso, Loverboy (affection not 
sex), Spook and Catnik. Of these only the last perhaps requires further 
explanation: the Russians had just sent Muttnik up after Sputnik, so that when 
one evening Gummitch streaked three times across the firmament of the living 
room floor in the same direction, past the fixed stars of the humans and the 
comparatively slow-moving heavenly bodies of the two older cats, and 
Kitty-Come-Here quoted the line from Keats:
 
Then felt I like some watcher of the skies When a new planet swims into his ken; 
it was inevitable that Old Horsemeat would say, "AhCatnik!"
The new name lasted all of three days, to be replaced by Gummitch, which showed 
signs of becoming permanent.
The little cat was on the verge of truly growing up, at least so Gummitch 
overheard Old Horsemeat comment to Kitty-Come-Here. A few short weeks, Old 
Horsemeat said, and Gummitch's fiery flesh would harden, his slim neck thicken, 
the electricity vanish from everything but his fur, and all his delightful 
kittenish qualities rapidly give way to the earth-bound singlemindness of a tom. 
They'd be lucky, Old Horsemeat concluded, if he didn't turn completely surly 
like Ashurbanipal.
Gummitch listened to these predictions with gay unconcern and with secret 
amusement from his vantage point of superior knowledge, in the same spirit that 
he accepted so many phases of his outwardly conventional existence: the 
murderous sidelong looks he got from Ashurbanipal and Cleopatra as he devoured 
his own horsemeat from his own little tin pan, because they sometimes were given 
canned catfood but he never; the stark idiocy of Baby, who didn't know the 
difference between a live cat and a stuffed teddy bear and who tried to cover up 
his ignorance by making goo-goo noises and poking indiscriminately at all eyes; 
the far more seriousbecause cleverly hiddenmaliciousness of Sissy, who had to 
be watched out for warilyespecially when you were aloneand whose retardedeven 
warped development, Gummitch knew, was Old Horsemeat and Kitty-Come-Here's 
deepest, most secret, worry (more of Sissy and her evil ways soon); the limited 
intellect of Kitty-Come-Here, who despite the amounts of coffee she drank was 
quite as featherbrained as kittens are supposed to be and who firmly believed, 
for example, that kittens operated in the same space-time as other beingsthat 
to get from here to there they had to cross the space between and similar 
fallacies; the mental stodginess of even Old Horsemeat, who although he 
understood quite a bit of the secret doctrine and talked intelligently to 
Gummitch when they were alone, nevertheless suffered from the limitations of his 
statusa rather nice old god but a maddeningly slow-witted one.
But Gummitch could easily forgive all this massed inadequacy and downright 
brutishness in his felino-human household, because he was aware that he alone 
knew the real truth about himself and about other kittens and babies as well, 
the truth which was hidden from weaker minds, the truth that was as 
intrinsically incredible as the germ theory of disease or the origin of the 
whole great universe in the explosion of a single atom.
As a baby kitten Gummitch had believed that Old Horsemeat's two hands were 
hairless kittens permanently attached to the ends of Old Horsemeat's arms but 
having an independent life of their own. How he had hated and loved those two 
five-legged sallow monsters, his first playmates, comforters and 
battle-opponents!
Well, even that fantastic discarded notion was but a trifling fancy compared to 
the real truth about himself!
The forehead of Zeus split open to give birth to Minerva. Gummitch had been born 
from the waist-fold of a dirty old terrycloth bathrobe, Old Horsemeat's basic 
garment. The kitten was intuitively certain of it and had proved it to himself 
as well as any Descartes or Aristotle. In a kitten-size tuck of that ancient 
bathrobe the atoms of his body had gathered and quickened into life. His 
earliest memories were of snoozing wrapped in terrycloth, warmed by Old 
Horsemeat's heat. Old Horsemeat and Kitty-Come-Here were his true parents. The 
other theory of his origin, the one he heard Old Horsemeat and Kitty-Come-Here 
recount from time to timethat he had been the only surviving kitten of a 
litter abandoned next door, that he had had the shakes from vitamin deficiency 
and lost the tip of his tail and the hair on his paws and had to be nursed back 
to life and health with warm yellowish milk-and-vitamins fed from an 
eyedropperthat other theory was just one of those rationalizations with which 
mysterious nature cloaks the birth of heroes, perhaps wisely veiling the truth 
from minds unable to bear it, a rationalization as false as Kitty-Come-Here and 
Old Horsemeat's touching belief that Sissy and Baby were their children rather 
than the cubs of Ashurbanipal and Cleopatra.
The day that Gummitch had discovered by pure intuition the secret of his birth 
he had been filled with a wild instant excitement. He had only kept it from 
tearing him to pieces by rushing out to the kitchen and striking and devouring a 
fried scallop, torturing it fiendishly first for twenty minutes.
And the secret of his birth was only the beginning. His intellectual faculties 
aroused, Gummitch had two days later intuited a further and greater secret: 
since he was the child of humans he would, upon reaching this maturation date of 
which Old Horsemeat had spoken, turn not into a sullen torn but into a godlike 
human youth with reddish golden hair the color of his present fur. He would be 
poured coffee; and he would instantly be able to talk, probably in all 
languages. While Sissy (how clear it was now!) would at approximately the same 
time shrink and fur out into a sharp-clawed and vicious she-cat dark as her 
hair, sex and self-love her only concerns, first harem-mate for Cleopatra, 
concubine to Mhurbanipal.
Exactly the same was true, Gummitch realized at once, for all kittens and 
babies, all humans and cats, wherever they might dwell. Metamorphosis was as 
much a part of the fabric of their lives as it was of the insects'. It was also 
the basic fact underlying all legends of werewolves, vampires and witches' 
familiars.
If you just rid your mind of preconceived notions, Gummitch told himself, it 
was all very logical. Babies were stupid, fumbling, vindictive creatures without 
reason or speech. What more natural than that they should grow up into mute 
sullen selfish beasts bent only on rapine and reproduction? While kittens were 
quick, sensitive, subtle, supremely alive. What other destiny were they possibly 
fitted for except to become the deft, word-speaking, book-writing, music-making, 
meat-getting-and-dispensing masters of the world? To dwell on the physical 
differences, to point out that kittens and men, babies and cats, are rather 
unlike in appearance and size, would be to miss the forest for the treesvery 
much as if an entomologist should proclaim metamorphosis a myth because his 
microscope failed to discover the wings of a butterfly in a caterpillar's slime 
or a golden beetle in a grub.
Nevertheless it was such a mind-staggering truth, Gummitch realized at the same 
time, that it was easy to understand why humans, cats, babies and perhaps most 
kittens were quite unaware of it. How safely explain to a butterfly that he was 
once a hairy crawler, or to a dull larva that he will one day be a walking 
jewel? No, in such situations the delicate minds of man- and feline-kind are 
guarded by a merciful mass amnesia, such as Velikovsky has explained prevents us 
from recalling that in historical times the Earth was catastrophically bumped by 
the planet Venus operating in the manner of a comet before settling down (with 
a cosmic sigh of relief, surely!) into its present orbit.
This conclusion was confirmed when Gummitch in the first fever of illumination 
tried to communicate his great insight to others. He told it in cat patois, as 
well as that limited jargon permitted, to Ashurbanipal and Cleopatra and even, 
on the off chance, to Sissy and Baby. They showed no interest whatever, except 
that Sissy took advantage of his unguarded preoccupation to stab him with a 
fork.
Later, alone with Old Horsemeat, he projected the great new thoughts, staring 
with solemn yellow eyes at the old god, but the latter grew markedly nervous and 
even showed signs of real fear, so Gummitch desisted. ("You'd have sworn he was 
trying to put across something as deep as the Einstein theory or the doctrine of 
original sin," Old Horse-meat later told Kitty-Come-Here.)
But Gummitch was a man now in all but form, the kitten reminded himself after 
these failures, and it was part of his destiny to shoulder secrets alone when 
necessary. He wondered if the general amnesia would affect him when he 
metamorphosed. There was no sure answer to this question, but he hoped notand 
sometimes felt that there was reason for his hopes. Perhaps he would be the 
first true kitten-man, speaking from a wisdom that had no locked doors in it.
Once he was tempted to speed up the process by the use of drugs. Left alone in 
the kitchen, he sprang onto the table and started to lap up the black puddle in 
the bottom of Old Horsemeat's coffee cup. It tasted foul and poisonous and he 
withdrew with a little snarl, frightened as well as revolted. The dark beverage 
would not work its tongue-loosening magic, he realized, except at the proper 
time and with the proper ceremonies. Incantations might be necessary as well. 
Certainly unlawful tasting was highly dangerous.
The futility of expecting coffee to work any wonders by itself was further 
demonstrated to Gummitch when Kitty-Come-Here, wordlessly badgered by Sissy, 
gave a few spoonfuls to the little girl, liberally lacing it first with milk and 
sugar. Of course Gummitch knew by now that Sissy was destined shortly to turn 
into a cat and that no amount of coffee would ever make her talk, but it was 
nevertheless instructive to see how she spat out the first mouthful, drooling a 
lot of saliva after it, and dashed the cup and its contents at the chest of 
Kitty-Come-Here.
Gummitch continued to feel a great deal of sympathy for his parents in their 
worries about Sissy and he longed for the day when he would metamorphose and be 
able as an acknowledged man-child truly to console them. It was heart-breaking 
to see how they each tried to coax the little girl to talk, always attempting it 
while the other was absent, how they seized on each accidentally word like note 
in the few sounds she uttered and repeated it back to her hope-fully, how they 
were more and more possessed by fears not so much of her retarded (they thought) 
development as of her increasingly obvious maliciousness, which was directed 
chiefly at Baby . . . though the two cats and Gummitch bore their share. Once 
she had caught Baby alone in his crib and used the sharp corner of a block to 
dot Baby's large-domed lightly downed head with triangular red marks. 
Kitty-Come-Here had discovered her doing it, but the woman's first action had 
been to rub Baby's head to obliterate the marks so that Old Horsemeat wouldn't 
see them. That was the night Kitty-Come-Here hid the abnormal psychology books.
Gummitch understood very well that Kitty-Come-Here and Old Horsemeat, honestly 
believing themselves to be Sissy's parents, felt just as deeply about her as if 
they actually were and he did what little he could under the present 
circumstances to help them. He had recently come to feel a quite independent 
affection for Babythe miserable little proto-cat was so completely stupid and 
defenselessand so he unofficially constituted himself the creature's guardian, 
taking his naps behind the door of the nursery and dashing about noisily 
whenever Sissy showed up. In any case he realized that as a potentially adult 
member of a felino-human household he had his natural responsibilities.
Accepting responsibilities was as much a part of a kitten's life, Gummitch told 
himself, as shouldering unsharable intuitions and secrets, the number of which 
continued to grow from day to day.
There was, for instance, the Affair of the Squirrel Mirror.
Gummitch had early solved the mystery of ordinary mirrors and of the creatures 
that appeared in them. A little observation and sniffing and one attempt to get 
behind the heavy wall-job in the living room had convinced him that mirror 
beings were insubstantial or at least hermetically sealed into their other 
world, probably creatures of pure spirit, harmless imitative ghostsincluding 
the silent Gummitch Double who touched paws with him so softly yet so coldly.
Just the same, Gummitch had let his imagination play with what would happen if 
one day, while looking into. the mirror world, he should let loose his grip on 
his spirit and let it slip into the Gmnmitch Double while the other's spirit 
slipped into his bodyif, in short, he should change places with the scentless 
ghost kitten. Being doomed to a life consisting wholly of imitation and 
completely lacking in opportunities to show initiativeexcept for the 
behind-the-scenes judgment and speed needed in rushing from one mirror to 
another to keep up with the real Gummitch would be sickeningly dull, Gummitch 
decided, and he resolved to keep a tight hold on his spirit at all times in the 
vicinity of mirrors.
But that isn't telling about the Squirrel Mirror. One morning Gummitch was 
peering out the front bedroom window that overlooked the roof of the porch. 
Gummitch had already classified windows as semi-mirrors having two kinds of 
space on the other side: the mirror world and that harsh region filled with 
mysterious and dangerously organized-sounding noises called the outer world, 
into which grownup humans reluctantly ventured at intervals, donning special 
garments for the purpose and shouting loud farewells that were meant to be 
reassuring but achieved just the opposite effect. The coexistence of two kinds 
of space presented no paradox to the kitten who carried in his mind the 
27-chapter outline of Space-Time for Springersindeed, it constituted one of the 
mirror themes of the book.
This morning the bedroom was dark and the outer worldwas dull and sunless, so 
the mirror world was unusually difficult to see. Gummitch was just lifting his 
face toward it, nose twitching, his front paws on the sill, when what should 
rear up on the other side, exactly in the space that the Gummitch Double 
normally occupied, but a dirty brown, narrow-visaged image with savagely low 
forehead, dark evil walleyes, and a huge jaw filled with shovel-like teeth.
Gummitch was enormously startled and hideously frightened. He felt his grip on 
his spirit go limp, and without volition he teleported himself three yards to 
the rear, making use of that faculty for cutting corners in space-time, 
traveling by space-warp in fact, which was one of his powers that 
Kitty-Come-Here refused to believe in and that even Old Horsemeat accepted only 
on faith.
Then, not losing a moment, he picked himself up by his furry seat, swung himself 
around, dashed downstairs at top speed, sprang to the top of the sofa, and 
stared for several seconds at the Gummitch Double in the wall-mirrornot 
relaxing a muscle strand until he was completely convinced that he was still 
himself and had not been transformed into the nasty brown apparition that had 
confronted him in the bedroom window.
"Now what do you suppose brought that on?" Old Horsemeat asked Kitty-Come-Here.
Later Gummitch learned that what he had seen had been a squirrel, a savage, 
nut-hunting being belonging wholly to the outer world (except for forays into 
attics) and not at all to the mirror one. Nevertheless he kept a vivid memory of 
his profound momentary conviction that the squirrel had taken the Gummitch 
Double's place and been about to take his own. He shuddered to think what would 
have happened if the squirrel had been actively interested in trading spirits 
with him. Apparently mirrors and mirror-situations, just as he had always 
feared, were highly conductive to spirit transfers. He filed the information 
away in the memory cabinet reserved for dangerous, exciting and possibly useful 
information, such as plans for climbing straight up glass (diamond-tipped 
claws!) and flying higher than the trees.
These days his thought cabinets were beginning to feel filled to bursting and he 
could hardly wait for the moment when the true rich taste of coffee, lawfully 
drunk, would permit him to speak.
He pictured the scene in detail: the family gathered in conclave at the kitchen 
table, Ashurbanipal and Cleopatra respectfully watching from floor level, 
himself sitting erect on chair with paws (or would they be hands?) lightly 
touching his cup of thin china, while Old Horsemeat poured the thin black 
steaming stream. He knew the Great Transformation must be close at hand.
At the same time he knew that the other critical situation in the household was 
worsening swiftly. Sissy, he realized now, was far older than Baby and should 
long ago have undergone her own somewhat less glamorous though equally 
necessary transformation (the first tin of raw horse-meat could hardly be as 
exciting as the first cup of coffee). Her time was long overdue. Gummitch found 
increasing horror in this mute vampirish being inhabiting the body of a rapidly 
growing girl, though inwardly equipped to be nothing but a most bloodthirsty 
she-cat. How dreadful to think of Old Horsemeat and Kitty-Come-Here having to 
care all their lives for such a monster! Gummitch told himself that if any 
opportunity for alleviating his parents' misery should ever present itself to 
him, he would not hesitate for an instant.
Then one night, when the sense of Change was so burstingly strong in him that 
he knew tomorrow must be the Day, but when the house was also exceptionally 
unquiet with boards creaking and snapping, taps adrip, and curtains mysteriously 
rustling at closed windows (so that it was clear that the many spirit worlds 
including the mirror one must be pressing very close), the opportunity came to 
Gummitch.
Kitty-Come-Here and Old Horsemeat had fallen into especially sound, drugged 
sleeps, the former with a bad cold, the latter with one unhappy highball too 
many (Gummitch knew he had been brooding about Sissy). Baby slept too, though 
with uneasy whimperings and joggingsmoonlight shone full on his crib past a 
window shade which had whiningly rolled itself up without human or feline 
agency. Gummitch kept vigil under the crib, with eyes closed but with wildly 
excited mind pressing outward to every boundary of the house and even stretching 
here and there into the outer world. On this night of all nights sleep was 
unthinkable.
The suddenly he became aware of footsteps, footsteps so soft they must, he 
thought, be Cleopatra's.
No, softer than that, so soft they might be those of the Gummitch Double escaped 
from the mirror would at last and padding up toward him through the darkened 
halls. A ribbon of fur rose along his spine.
Then into the nursery Sissy came prowling. She looked slim as an Egyptian 
princess in her long thin yellow night-gown and as sure of herself, but the cat 
was very strong in her tonight, from the flat intent eyes to the dainty canine 
teeth slightly baredone look at her now would have sent Kitty-Come-Here running 
for the telephone number she kept hidden, the telephone number of the special 
doctorand Gummitch realized he was witnessing a monstrous suspension of natural 
law in that this being should be able to exist for a moment without growing fur 
and changing round pupils for slit eyes.
He retreated to the darkest corner of the room, suppressing a snarl.
Sissy approached the crib and leaned over Baby in the moonlight, keeping her 
shadow off him. For a while she gloated. Then she began softly to scratch his 
cheek with a long hatpin she carried, keeping away from his eye, but just 
barely. Baby awoke and saw her and Baby didn't cry. Sissy continued to scratch, 
always a little more deeply. The moonlight glittered on the jeweled end of the 
pin.
Gummitch knew he faced a horror that could not be countered by running about or 
even spitting and screeching. Only magic could fight so obviously supernatural 
a manifestation. And this was also no time to think of consequences, no matter 
how clearly and bitterly etched they might appear to a mind intensely awake.
He sprang up onto the other side of the crib, not uttering a sound, and fixed 
his golden eyes on Sissy's in the moon-light. Then he moved forward straight at 
her evil face, stepping slowly, not swiftly, using his extraordinary knowledge 
of the properties of space to walk straight through her hand and arm as they 
flailed the hatpin at him. When his nose-tip finally paused a fraction of an 
inch from hers his eyes had not blinked once, and she could not look away. Then 
he unhesitatingly flung his spirit into her like a fistful of flaming arrows and 
he worked the Mirror Magic.
Sissy's moonlit face, feline and terrified, was in a sense the last thing that 
Gummitch, the real Gummitch-kitten, ever saw in this world. For the next instant 
he felt himself enfolded by the foul black blinding cloud of Sissy's spirit, 
which his own had displaced. At the same time he heard the little girl scream, 
very loudly but even more distinctly, "Mommy!"
 
That cry might have brought Kitty-Come-Here out of her grave, let alone from 
sleep merely deep or drugged. Within seconds she was in the nursery, closely 
followed by Old Horsemeat, and she had caught up Sissy in her arms and the 
little girl was articulating the wonderful word again and again, and 
miraculously following it with the commandthere could be no doubt, Old 
Horsemeat heard it too"Hold me tight!"
Then Baby finally dared to cry. The scratches on his check came to attention and 
Gummitch, as he had known must happen, was banished to the basement amid cries 
of horror and loathing chiefly from Kitty-Come-Here.
The little cat did not mind. No basement would be one-tenth as dark as Sissy's 
spirit that now enshrouded him for always, hiding all the file drawers and the 
labels on all the folders, blotting out forever even the imagining of the scene 
of first coffee-drinking and first speech.
In a last intuition, before the animal blackness closed in utterly, Gummitch 
realized that the spirit, alas, is not the same thing as the consciousness and 
that one may losesacrificethe first and still be burdened with the second.
Old Horsemeat had seen the hatpin (and hid it quickly from Kitty-Come-Here) and 
so he knew that the situation was not what it seemed and that Gummitch was at 
the very least being made into a sort of scapegoat. He was quite apologetic when 
he brought the tin pans of food to the basement during the period of the little 
cat's exile. It was a comfort to Gummitch, albeit a small one. Gummitch told 
himself, in his new black halting manner of thinking, that after all a cat's 
best friend is his man.
From that night Sissy never turned back in her development. Within two months 
she had made three years' progress in speaking. She became an outstandingly 
bright, light-footed, high-spirited little girl. Although she never told anyone 
this, the moonlit nursery and Gummitch's magnified face were her first memories. 
Everything before that was inky blackness. She was always very nice to Gummitch 
in a careful sort of way. She could never stand to play the game "Owl Eyes."
After a few weeks Kitty-Come-Here forgot her fears and Gummitch once again had 
the run of the house. But by then the transformation Old Horsemeat had always 
warned about had fully taken place. Gummitch was a kitten no longer but an 
almost burly torn. In him it took the psychological form not of sullenness or 
surliness but an extreme dignity. He seemed at times rather like an old pirate 
brooding on treasures he would never live to dig up, shores of adventure he 
would never reach. And sometimes when you looked into his yellow eyes you felt 
that he had in him all the materials for the book Slit Eyes Look at Life three 
or four volumes at leastalthough he would never write it. And that was natural 
when you come to think of it, for as Gummitch knew very well, bitterly well 
indeed, his fate was to be the only kitten in the world that did not grow up to 
be a man.
 
RICHARD MATHESON
 
The good science fiction movies can be counted on the fingers of the hands. One 
of them (say, about the left thumb) is The Incredible Shrinking Man, made, with 
unusual fidelity, from the novel of almost the same name by Richard Matheson. 
Matheson is youngish, talented, prolific; and it is a pleasure to include him 
here (in distinguished company, where he belongs) with his shocking
 
Dance of the Dead
 
I wanna RIDE!
with my Rota-Mota honey
by my SIDE!
As we whiz along the highway
 
"We will HUG and SNUGGLE and we'll have a little STRUGGLE!" 
 
struggle (strug'l), n., act of promiscuous loveplay; usage evolved during 
W.W.III.
 
Double beams spread buttery lamplight on the highway. Rotor-Motors Convertible, 
Model C, 1987, rushed after it. Light spurted ahead, yellow glowing. The car 
pursued with a twelve-cylindered snarling pursuit. Night blotted in behind, jet 
and still. The car sped on. 
 
ST. LOUIS10
 
"I wanna FLY!" they sang, "with the Rota-Mota apple of my EYE!" they sang. "It's 
the only way of living." 
The quartet singing: 
Len, 23. 
Bud, 24. 
Barbara, 20. 
Peggy, 18. 
Len with Barbara, Bud with Peggy. 
Bud at the wheel, snapping around tilted curves, roaring up black-shouldered 
hills, shooting the car across silent flatlands. At the top of the three lungs 
(the fourth gentler), competing with wind that buffeted their heads, that 
whipped their hair to lashing threadssinging: 
"You can have your walkin' under MOONLIGHT BEAMS!
At a hundred miles an hour let me DREAM my DREAMS!"
Needle quivering at 130, two 5-m.p.h. notches from gauge's end. A sudden dip! 
Their young frames jolted and the thrown-up laughter of three was wind-swept 
into night. Around a curve, darting up and down a hill, flashing across a 
leveled plainan ebony bullet skimming earth. 
"In my ROTORY, MOTORY, FLOATERY, drivin' machi-i-i-i-ine!"
 
YOU'LL BE A FLOATER 
IN YOUR ROTOR-MOTOR. 
 
In the back seat: 
"Have a jab, Bab." 
"Thanks, I had one after supper" (pushing away needle fixed to eye-dropper). 
In the front seat: 
"You meana tell me this is the first time you ever been t' Saint Loo!" 
"But I just started school in September." 
"Hey, you're a frosh!" 
Back seat joining front seat: 
"Hey, frosh, have a mussle-tussle." 
(Needle passed forward, eye bulb quivering amber juice.) 
"Live it, girl!" 
 
mussle-tussle (mus'l-tus'l), n., slang for the result of injecting a drug into a 
muscle; usage evolved during W.W.III.
 
Peggy's lips failed at smiling. Her fingers twitched. 
"No, thanks, I'm not " 
"Come on, frosh!" Len leaning hard over the seat, white-browed under black 
blowing hair. Pushing the needle at her face. "Live it, girl! Grab a li'l 
mussle-tussle!" 
"I'd rather not," said Peggy. "If you don't" 
"What's 'at, frosh?" yelled Len and pressed his leg against the pressing leg of 
Barbara. 
Peggy shook her head and golden hair flew across her cheeks and eyes. Underneath 
her yellow dress, underneath her white brassire, underneath her young breasta 
heart throbbed heavily. Watch your step, darling, that's all we ask. Remember, 
you're all we have in the world now. Mother words drumming at her; the needle 
making her draw back into the seat. 
"Come on, frosh!" 
The car groaned its shifting weight around a curve and centrifugal force pressed 
Peggy into Bud's lean hip. His hand dropped down and fingered at her leg. 
Underneath her yellow dress, underneath her sheer stockingflesh crawled. Lips 
failed again; the smile was a twitch of red. 
"Frosh, live it up!" 
"Lay off, Len, jab your own dates." 
"But we gotta teach frosh how to mussle-tussle!" 
"Lay off, I said! She's my date!" 
The black car roaring, chasing its own light. Peggy anchored down the feeling 
hand with hers. The wind whistled over them and grabbed down chilly fingers at 
their hair. She didn't want his hand there but she felt grateful to him. 
Her vaguely frightened eyes watched the road lurch beneath the wheels. In back, 
a silent struggle began, taut hands rubbing, parted mouths clinging. Search for 
the sweet elusive at 120 miles-per-hour. 
"Rota-Mota honey," Len moaned the moan between salivary kisses. In the front 
seat a young girl's heart beat unsteadily. 
 
ST. LOUIS6
 
"No kiddin', you never been to Saint Loo?" 
"No, I " 
"Then you never saw the loopy's dance?" 
Throat contracting suddenly. "No, I  Is that what  we're going to" 
"Hey, frosh never saw the loopy's dance!" Bud yelled back. 
Lips parted, slurping; skirt was adjusted with blas aplomb. "No kiddin'!" Len 
fired up the words. "Girl, you haven't lived!" 
"Oh, she's got to see that," said Barbara, buttoning a button. 
"Let's go there then!" yelled Len. "Let's give frosh a thrill!" 
"Good enough," said Bud and squeezed her leg. "Good enough up here, right, Peg?" 

Peggy's throat moved in the dark and the wind clutched harshly at her hair. 
She'd heard of it, she'd read of it but never had she thought she'd 
Choose your school friends carefully darling. Be very careful. 
But when no one spoke to you for two whole months? When you were lonely and 
wanted to talk and laugh and be alive? And someone spoke to you finally and 
asked you to go out with them? 
"I yam Popeye, the sailor man!" Bud sang. 
In back, they crowed artificial delight. Bud was taking a course in Pre-War 
Comics and Cartoons2. This week the class was studying Popeye. Bud had fallen 
in love with the one-eyed seaman and told Len and Barbara all about him; taught 
them dialogue and song. 
"I yam Popeye, the sailor man! I like to go swimmin' with bow-legged women! I 
yam Popeye, the sailor man!" 
Laughter. Peggy smiled falteringly. The hand left her leg as the car screeched 
around a curve and she was thrown against the door. Wind dashed blunt coldness 
in her eyes and forced her back, blinking. 110115120 miles-per-hour. 
 
ST. LOUIS3
 
Be very careful, dear. 
Popeye cocked wicked eye. 
"O, Olive Oyl, you is my sweet patootie." 
Elbow nudging Peggy. "You be Olive Oylyou." 
Peggy smiled nervously. "I can't." 
"Sure!" 
In the back seat, Wimpy came up for air to announce, "I will gladly pay you 
Tuesday for a hamburger today." 
Three fierce voices and a faint fourth raged against the howl of wind. "I fights 
to the fin-ish 'cause I eats my spin-ach! I yam Popeye, the sailor man! Toot! 
Toot! 
"I yam what I yam," reiterated Popeye gravely and put his hand on the 
yellow-skirted leg of Olive Oyl. In the back, two members of the quartet 
returned to feeling struggle. 
 
ST. LOUIS1
 
The black car roared through the darkened suburbs. "On with the nosies!" Bud 
sang out. They all took out their plasticate nose-and-mouth pieces and adjusted 
them. 
 
ANCE IN YOUR PANTS WOULD BE A PITY!
WEAR YOUR NOSIES IN THE CITY!!
 
Ance (anse), n., slang for anticivilian germs; usage evolved during W.W.III.
 
"You'll like the loopy's dance!" Bud shouted to her over the shriek of wind. 
"It's sensaysh!" 
Peggy felt a cold that wasn't of the night or of the wind. Remember, darling, 
there are terrible things in the world today. Things you must avoid. 
"Couldn't we go somewhere else?" Peggy said but her voice was inaudible. She 
heard Bud singing, "I like to go swimmin' with bow-legged women!" She felt his 
hand on her leg again while, in the back, was the silence of grinding passion 
without kisses. 
Dance of the dead. The words trickled ice across Peggy's brain. 
 
ST. LOUIS
 
The black car sped into the ruins. 


It was a place of smoke and blatant joys. Air resounded with the bleating of 
revelers and there was a noise of sounding brass spinning out a cloud of 
music1987 music, a frenzy of twisted dissonances. Dancers, shoe-horned into the 
tiny square of open floor, ground pulsing bodies together. A network of bursting 
sounds lanced through the mass of them; dancers singing: 
"Hurt me! Bruise me! Squeeze me TIGHT!
Scorch my blood with hot DELIGHT!
Please abuse me every NIGHT!
LOVER, LOVER, LOVER, be a beast-to-me!"
Elements of explosion restrained within the dancing boundsinstead of 
fragmenting, quivering. "Oh, be a beast, beast, beast, Beast, BEAST to me!" 
"How is this, Olive old goil?" Popeye inquired of the light of his eye as they 
struggled after the waiter. "Nothin' like this in Sykesville, eh?" 
Peggy smiled but her hand in Bud's felt numb. As they passed by a murky lighted 
table, a hand she didn't see felt at her leg. She twitched and bumped against a 
hard knee across the narrow aisle. As she stumbled and lurched through the hot 
and smoky, thick-aired room, she felt a dozen eyes disrobing her, abusing her. 
Bud jerked her along and she felt her lips trembling. 
"Hey, how about that!" Bud exulted as they sat. "Right by the stage!" 
From cigarette mists, the waiter plunged and hovered, pencil poised, beside 
their table. 
"What'll it be!" His questioning shout cut through cacophony. 
"Whiskey-water!" Bud and Len paralleled orders, then turned to their dates. 
"What'll it be!" the waiter's request echoed from their lips. 
"Green Swamp!" Barbara said and, "Green Swamp here!" Len passed it along. Gin, 
Invasion Blood (1987 Rum), lime juice, sugar, mint spray, splintered icea 
popular college girl drink. 
"What about you, honey?" Bud asked his date. 
Peggy smiled. "Just some ginger ale," she said, her voice a fluttering frailty 
in the massive clash and fog of smoke. 
"What?" asked Bud and, "What's that, didn't hear!" the waiter shouted. 
"Ginger ale." 
"What?" 
"Ginger ale!" 
"GINGER ALE!" Len screamed it out and the drummer, behind the raging curtain of 
noise that was the band's music, almost heard it. Len banged down his fist. 
OneTwoThree! 
CHORUS: Ginger Ale was only twelve years old! Went to church and was as good as 
gold. Till that day when
"Come on,come on!" the waiter squalled. "Let's have that order, kids! I'm busy!" 

"Two whisky-waters and two Green Swamps!" Len sang out and the waiter was gone 
into the swirling maniac mist. 
Peggy felt her young heart flutter helplessly. Above all, don't drink when 
you're out on a date. Promise us that, darling, you must promise us that. She 
tried to push away instructions etched in brain. 
"How you like this place, honey? Loopy, ain't it?" Bud fired the question at 
her; a red-faced, happy-faced Bud. 
 
loopy (loo pi), adj., common alter. of L.U.P. (Lifeless Undeath Phenomenon).
 
She smiled at Bud, a smile of nervous politeness. Her eyes moved around, her 
face inclined and she was looking up at the stage. Loopy. The word scalpeled at 
her mind. Loopy, loopy. 
The stage was five yards deep at the radius of its wooden semicircle. A 
waist-high rail girdled the circumference, two pale purple spotlights, unlit, 
hung at each rail end. Purple on whitethe thought came. Darling, isn't 
Sykesville Business College good enough? No! I don't want to take a business 
course, I want to major in art at the University! 
The drinks were brought and Peggy watched the disembodied waiter's arm thud down 
a high, green-looking glass before her. Presto!the arm was gone. She looked 
into the murky Green Swamp depths and saw chipped ice bobbing. 
"A toast! Pick up your glass, Peg!" Bud clarioned. 
They all clinked glasses: 
"To lust primordial!" Bud toasted. 
"To beds inviolate!" Len added. 
"To flesh insensate!" Barbara added a third link. 
Their eyes zeroed in on Peggy's face, demanding. She didn't understand. 
"Finish it!" Bud told her, plagued by freshman sluggishness. 
"To  u-us," she faltered. 
"How o-rig-inal," stabbed Barbara and Peggy felt heat licking up her smooth 
cheeks. It passed unnoticed as three Youths of America with Whom the Future 
Rested gurgled down their liquor thirstily. Peggy fingered at her glass, a smile 
printed to lips that would not smile unaided. 
"Come on, drink, girl!" Bud shouted to her across the vast distance of one foot. 
"Chuggalug!" 
"Live it, girl," Len suggested abstractedly, fingers searching once more for 
soft leg. And finding, under table, soft leg waiting. 
Peggy didn't want to drink, she was afraid to drink. Mother words kept 
poundingnever on a date, honey, never. She raised the glass a little. 
"Uncle Buddy will help, will help!" 
Uncle Buddy leaning close, vapor of whisky haloing his head. Uncle Buddy pushing 
cold glass to shaking young lips. "Come on, Olive Oyl, old goil! Down the 
hatch!" 
Choking sprayed the bosom of her dress with Green Swamp droplets. Flaming liquid 
trickled into her stomach, sending offshoots of fire into her veins. 
Bangity boom crash smash POW!! The drummer applied the coup de grace to what had 
been, in ancient times, a lover's waltz. Lights dropped and Peggy sat coughing 
and tear-eyed in the smoky cellar club. 
She felt Bud's hand clamp strongly on her shoulder and, in the murk, she felt 
herself pulled off balance and felt Bud's hot wet mouth pressing at her lips. 
She jerked away and then the purple spots went on and a mottle-faced Bud drew 
back, gurgling, "I fights to the finish," and reaching for his drink. 
"Hey, the loopy now, the loopy!" Len said eagerly, releasing exploratory hands. 
Peggy's heart jolted and she thought she was going to cry out and run thrashing 
through the dark, smoke-filled room. But a sophomore hand anchored her to the 
chair and she looked up in white-faced dread at the man who came out on the 
stage and faced the microphone which, like a metal spider, had swung down to 
meet him. 
"May I have your attention, ladies and gentlemen," he said, a grim-faced, 
sepulchral-voiced man whose eyes moved out over them like flicks of doom. 
Peggy's breath was labored, she felt thin lines of Green Swamp water filtering 
hotly through her chest and stomach. It made her blink dizzily. Mother. The word 
escaped cells of the mind and trembled into conscious freedom. Mother, take me 
home. 
"As you know, the act you are about to see is not for the faint of heart, the 
weak of will." The man plodded through the words like a cow enmired. "Let me 
caution those of you whose nerves are not what they ought to beleave now. We 
make no guarantees of responsibility. We can't even afford to maintain a house 
doctor." 
No laughter appreciative. "Cut the crap and get off stage," Len grumbled to 
himself. Peggy felt her fingers twitching. 
"As you know," the man went on, his voice gilded with learned sonority, "this is 
not an offering of mere sensation but an honest scientific demonstration." 
"Loophole for Loopy's!" Bud and Len heaved up the words with the thoughtless 
reaction of hungry dogs salivating at a bell. 
It was, in 1987, a comeback so rigidly standard it had assumed the status of a 
catechism answer. A crenel in the postwar law allowed the L.U.P. performance if 
it was orally prefaced as an exposition of science. Through this legal chink had 
poured so much abusing of the law that few cared any longer. A feeble government 
was grateful to contain infractions of the law at all. 
When hoots and shoutings had evaporated in the smoke-clogged air, the man, his 
arms upraised in patient benediction, spoke again. 
Peggy watched the studied movement of his lips, her heart swelling, then 
contracting in slow, spasmodic beats. An iciness was creeping up her legs. She 
felt it rising toward the threadlike fires in her body and her fingers twitched 
around the chilly moisture of the glass. I want to go, please take me 
homeWill-spent words were in her mind again. 
"Ladies and gentlemen," the man concluded, "brace yourselves." 
A gong sounded its hollow, shivering resonance, the man's voice thickened and 
slowed. 
"The L.U. Phenomenon!" 
The man was gone; the microphone had risen and was gone. Music began; a moaning 
brassiness, all muted. A jazzman's conception of the palpable obscuremounted on 
a pulse of thumping drum. A dolor of saxophone, a menace of trombone, a 
harnessed bleating of trumpetthey raped the air with stridor. 
Peggy felt a shudder plaiting down her back and her gaze dropped quickly to the 
murky whiteness of the table. Smoke and darkness, dissonance and heat surrounded 
her. 
Without meaning to, but driven by an impulse of nervous fear, she raised the 
glass and drank. The glacial trickle in her throat sent another shudder rippling 
through her. Then further shoots of liquored heat budded in her veins and a 
numbness settled in her temples. Through parted lips, she forced out a shaking 
breath. 
Now a restless, murmuring movement started through the room, the sound of it 
like willows in a sloughing wind. Peggy dared not lift her gaze to the purpled 
silence of the stage. She stared down at the shifting glimmer of her drink, 
feeling muscle strands draw tightly in her stomach, feeling the hollow thumping 
of her heart. I'd like to leave, please let's leave. 
The music labored toward a rasping dissonant climax, its brass components 
struggling, in vain, for unity. 
A hand stroked once at Peggy's leg and it was the hand of Popeye, the sailor 
man, who muttered roupily, "Olive Oyl, you is my goil." She barely felt or 
heard. Automatonlike, she raised the cold and sweating glass again and felt the 
chilling in her throat and then the flaring network of warmth inside her. 
SWISH! 
The curtain swept open with such a rush, she almost dropped her glass. It 
thumped down heavily on the table, swamp water cascading up its sides and 
raining on her hand. The music exploded shrapnel of ear-cutting cacophony and 
her body jerked. On the tablecloth, her hands twitched white on white while 
claws on uncontrollable demand pulled up her frightened eyes. 
The music fled, frothing behind a wake of swelling drum rolls. 
The nightclub was a wordless crypt, all breathing checked. 
Cobwebs of smoke drifted in the purple light across the stage. 
No sound except the muffled, rolling drum. 
Peggy's body was a petrifaction in its chair, smitten to rock around her leaping 
heart, while, through the wavering haze of smoke and liquored dizziness, she 
looked up in horror to where it stood. 
It had been a woman. 
Her hair was black, a framing of snarled ebony for the tallow mask that was her 
face. Her shadow-rimmed eyes were closed behind lids as smooth and white as 
ivory. Her mouth, a lipless and unmoving line, stood like a clotted sword wound 
beneath her nose. Her throat, her shoulders and her arms were white, were 
motionless. At her sides, protruding from the sleeve ends of the green 
transparency she wore, hung alabaster hands. 
Across this marble statue, the spotlights coated purple shimmer. 
Still paralyzed, Peggy stared up at its motionless features, her fingers knitted 
in a bloodless tangle on her lap. The pulse of drumbeats in the air seemed to 
fill her body, its rhythm altering her heartbeat. 
In the black emptiness behind her, she heard Len muttering, "I love my wife but, 
oh, you corpse," and heard the wheeze of helpless snickers that escaped from Bud 
and Barbara. The cold still rose in her, a silent tidal dread. 
Somewhere in the smoke-fogged darkness, a man cleared viscid nervousness from 
his throat and a murmur of appreciative relief strained through the audience. 
Still no motion on the stage, no sound but the sluggish cadence of the drum, 
thumping at the silence like someone seeking entrance at a far-off door. The 
thing that was a nameless victim of the plague stood palely rigid while the 
distillation sluiced through its blood-clogged veins. 
Now the drum throbs hastened like the pulsebeat of a rising panic. Peggy felt 
the chill begin to swallow her. Her throat started tightening, her breathing was 
a string of lip-parted gasps. 
The loopy's eyelid twitched. 
Abrupt, black, straining silence webbed the room. Even the breath choked off in 
Peggy's throat when she saw the pale eyes flutter open. Something creaked in the 
stillness; her body pressed back unconsciously against the chair. Her eyes were 
wide, unblinking circles that sucked into her brain the sight of the thing that 
had been a woman. 
Music again; a brass-throated moaning from the dark, like some animal made of 
welded horns mewling its derangement in a midnight alley. 
Suddenly, the right arm of the loopy jerked at its side, the tendons suddenly 
contracted. The left arm twitched alike, snapped out, then fell back and thudded 
in purple-white limpness against the thigh. The right arm out, the left arm out, 
the right, the left-right-left-rightlike marionette arms twitching from an 
amateur's dangling strings. 
The music caught the time, drum brushes scratching out a rhythm for the 
convulsions of the loopy's muscles. Peggy pressed back further, her body numbed 
and cold, her face a livid, staring mask in the fringes of the stage light. 
The loopy's right foot moved now, jerking up inflexibly as the distillation 
constricted muscles in its leg. A second and a third contraction caused the leg 
to twitch, the left leg flung out in a violent spasm and then the woman's body 
lurched stiffly forward, filming the transparent silk to its light and shadow. 
Peggy heard the sudden hiss of breath that passed the clenching teeth of Bud and 
Len and a wave of nausea sprayed foaming sickness up her stomach walls. Before 
her eyes, the stage abruptly undulated with a watery glitter and it seemed as if 
the flailing loopy was headed straight for her. 
Gasping dizzily, she pressed back in horror, unable to take her eyes from its 
now agitated face. 
She watched the mouth jerk to a gaping cavity, then a twisted scar that split 
into a wound again. She saw the dark nostrils twitching, saw writhing flesh 
beneath the ivory cheeks, saw furrows dug and undug in the purple whiteness of 
the forehead. She saw one lifeless eye wink monstrously and heard the gasp of 
startled laughter in the room. 
While music blared into a fit of grating noise, the woman's arms and legs kept 
jerking with convulsive cramps that threw her body around the purpled stage like 
a full-sized rag doll given spastic life. 
It was nightmare in an endless sleep. Peggy shivered in helpless terror as she 
watched the loopy's twisting, leaping dance. The blood in her had turned to ice; 
there was no life in her but the endless, pounding stagger of her heart. Her 
eyes were frozen spheres staring at the woman's body writhing white and flaccid 
underneath the clinging silk. 
Then, something went wrong. 
Up till then, its muscular seizures had bound the loopy to an area of several 
yards before the amber flat which was the background for its paroxysmal dance. 
Now its erratic surging drove the loopy toward the stage-encircling rail. 
Peggy heard the thump and creaking stain of wood as the loopy's hip collided 
with the rail. She cringed into a shuddering knot, her eyes still raised fixedly 
to the purple-splashed face whose every feature was deformed by throes of 
warping convulsion. 
The loopy staggered back and Peggy saw and heard its leprous hands slapping with 
a fitful rhythm at its silk-scaled thighs. 
Again it sprang forward like a maniac marionette and the woman's stomach thudded 
sickeningly into the railing wood. The dark mouth gaped, clamped shut and then 
the loopy twisted through a jerking revolution and crashed back against the rail 
again, almost above the table where Peggy sat. 
Peggy couldn't breathe. She sat rooted to the chair, her lips a trembling circle 
of stricken dread, a pounding of blood at her temples as she watched the loopy 
spin again, its arms a blur of flailing white. 
The lurid bleaching of its face dropped toward Peggy as the loopy crashed into 
the waist-high rail again and bent across its top. The mask of lavender-rained 
whiteness hung above her, dark eyes twitching open into a hideous stare. 
Peggy felt the floor begin to move and the livid face was blurred with darkness, 
then reappeared in a burst of luminosity. Sound fled on brass-shoed feet, then 
plunged into her brain againa smearing discord. 
The loopy kept on jerking forward, driving itself against the rail as though it 
meant to scale it. With every spastic lurch, the diaphanous silk fluttered like 
a film about its body and every savage collision with the railing tautened the 
green transparency across its swollen flesh. Peggy looked up in rigid muteness 
at the loopy's fierce attack on the railing, her eyes unable to escape the wild 
distortion of the woman's face with its black frame of tangled, snapping hair. 
What happened then happened in a blurring passage of seconds. 
The grim-faced man came rushing across the purple-lighted stage; the thing that 
had been a woman went crashing, twitching, flailing at the rail, doubling over 
it, the spasmodic hitching flinging up its muscle-knotted legs. 
A clawing fall. 
Peggy lurched back in her chair and the scream that started in her throat was 
forced back into a strangled gag as the loopy came crashing down onto the table, 
its limbs a thrash of naked whiteness. 
Barbara screamed, the audience gasped and Peggy saw, on the fringe of vision, 
Bud jumping up, his face a twist of stunned surprise. 
The loopy flopped and twisted on the table like a new-caught fish. The music 
stopped, grinding into silence; a rush of agitated murmur filled the room and 
blackness swept in brain-submerging waves across Peggy's mind. 
Then the cold white hand slapped across her mouth, the dark eyes stared at her 
in purple light and Peggy felt the darkness flooding. 
The horror-smoked room went turning on its side. 


Consciousness. It flickered in her brain like gauze-veiled candlelight. A 
murmuring of sound, a blur of shadow before her eyes. 
Breath dripped like syrup from her mouth. 
"Here, Peg." 
She heard Bud's voice and felt the chilly metal of a flask neck pressed against 
her lips. She swallowed, twisting slightly at the trickle of fire in her throat 
and stomach, then coughed and pushed away the flask with deadened fingers. 
Behind her, a rustling movement. "Hey, she's back," Len said. "Ol' Olive Oyl is 
back." 
"You feel all right?" asked Barbara. 
She felt all right. Her heart was like a drum hanging from piano wire in her 
chest, slowly, slowly beaten. Her hands and feet were numb, not with cold but 
with a sultry torpor. Thoughts moved with a tranquil lethargy, her brain a 
leisurely machine imbedded in swaths of woolly packing. 
She felt all right. 
Peggy looked across the night with sleepy eyes. They were on a hilltop, the 
braked convertible crouching on a jutting edge. Far below, the country slept, a 
carpet of light and shadow beneath the chalky moon. 
An arm snake moved around her waist. "Where are we?" she asked him in a languid 
voice. 
"Few miles outside school," Bud said. "How d'ya feel, honey?" 
She stretched, her body a delicious strain of muscles. She sagged back, limp, 
against his arm. 
"Wonderful," she murmured with a dizzy smile and scratched the tiny itching bump 
on her left shoulder. Warmth radiated through her flesh; the night was a sabled 
glow. There seemedsomewhereto be a memory, but it crouched in secret behind 
folds of thick content. 
"Woman, you were out," laughed Bud; and Barbara added and Len added, "Were you!" 
and "Olive Oyl went plunko!" 
"Out?" Her casual murmur went unheard. 
The flask went around and Peggy drank again, relaxing further as the liquor 
needled fire through her veins. 
"Man, I never saw a loopy dance like that!" Len said. 
A momentary chill across her back, then warmth again. "Oh," said Peggy, "that's 
right. I forgot." 
She smiled 
"That was what I calls a grand finale!" Len said, dragging back his willing 
date, who murmured, "Lenny boy." 
"L.U.P.," Bud muttered, nuzzling at Peggy's hair. "Son of a gun." He reached out 
idly for the radio knob. 
L.U.P. (Lifeless Undead Phenomenon)This freak of physiological abnormality was 
discovered during the war when, following certain germ-gas attacks, many of the 
dead troops were found erect and performing the spasmodic gyrations which, 
later, became known as the "loopy's" (L.U.P.'s) dance. The particular germ spray 
responsible was later distilled and is now used in carefully controlled 
experiments which are conducted only under the strictest of legal license and 
supervision.
Music surrounded them, its melancholy fingers touching at their hearts. Peggy 
leaned against her date and felt no need to curb exploring hands. Somewhere, 
deep within the jellied layers of her mind, there was something trying to 
escape. It fluttered like a frantic moth imprisoned in congealing wax, 
struggling wildly but only growing weaker in attempt as the chrysalis hardened. 
Four voices sang softly in the night. 
 
"If the world is here tomorrow
I'll be waiting, dear, for you
If the stars are there tomorrow
I'll be wishing on them too."
 
Four young voices singing, a murmur in immensity. Four bodies, two by two, 
slackly warm and drugged. A singing, an embracinga wordless accepting. 
 
"Star light, star bright
Let there be another night."
 
The singing ended but the song went on. 
A young girl sighed. 
"Isn't it romantic?" said Olive Oyl. 
The End
 
JACK WILLIAMSON
 
If your father read science fiction, he very likely counted Jack Williamson high 
among his favorite writersas you very likely do today. Young enough to have 
served with the Air Force in the South Pacific in World War II, Williamson is 
old enough, and has been writing excellent science fiction stories often enough, 
to have attained an almost unique status as combination revered old master and 
bright new star. For more than thirty years his stories have been the delight of 
hundreds of thousands of readers. Such consistent loyalty demonstrates the 
existence of talent; such talent implies the ability to create so bright a bit 
as
 
The Happiest Creature
 
The collector puffed angrily into the commandant's office in the quarantine 
station, on the moon of Earth. He was a heavy hairless man with shrewd little 
ice-green eyes sunk deep in fat yellow flesh. He had a genial smile when he was 
getting what he wanted. Just now he wasn't.
"Here we've come a good hundred light-years, and you can see who I am." He 
riffled his psionic identification films under the commandant's nose. "I intend 
to collect at least one of those queer anthropoids, in spite of all your silly 
red tape."
The shimmering films attested his distinguished scientific attainments. He was 
authorized to gather specimens for the greatest zoo in the inhabited galaxy, and 
the quarantine service had been officially requested to expedite his search.
"I see." The commandant nodded respectfully, trying to conceal a weary frown. 
The delicate business of safe guarding Earth's embryonic culture had taught him 
to deal cautiously with such unexpected threats. "Your credentials are 
certainly impressive, and we'll give you whatever help we can. Won't you sit 
down?"
The collector wouldn't sit down. He was thoroughly annoyed with the commandant. 
He doubted loudly that the quarantine regulations had ever been intended to 
apply to such a backward planet as Earth, and he proposed to take his specimen 
without any further fiddlefaddle.
The commandant, who came from a civilization which valued courtesy and reserve, 
gasped in spite of himself at the terms that came through his psionic 
translator, but he attempted to restrain his mounting impatience.
"Actually, these creatures are human," he answered firmly. "And we are stationed 
here to protect them."
"Human?" The collector snorted. "When they've never got even this far off their 
stinking little planet!"
"A pretty degenerate lot," the commandant agreed regretfully. "But their human 
origins have been well established, and you'll have to leave them alone."
The collector studied the commandant's stern-lipped face and modified his voice.
"All we need is a single specimen, and we won't injure that." He recovered his 
jovial smile. "On the contrary, the creature we pick up will be the luckiest one 
on the planet. I've been in this game a good many centuries, and I know what I'm 
talking about. Wild animals in their native environments are invariably 
diseased. They are in constant physical danger, generally undernourished, and 
always more or less frustrated sexually. But the beast we take will receive the 
most expert attention in every way."
A hearty chuckle shook his oily yellow yowls.
"Why, if you allowed us to advertise for a specimen, half the population would 
volunteer."
"You can't advertise," the commandant said flatly. "Our first duty here is to 
guard this young culture from any outside influence that might cripple its 
natural development."
"Don't upset yourself." The fat man shrugged. "We're undercover experts. Our 
specimen will never know that it has been collected, if that's the way you want 
it."
"It isn't." The commandant rose abruptly. "I will give your party every 
legitimate assistance, but if I discover that you have tried to abduct one of 
these people I'll confiscate your ship."
"Keep your precious pets," the collector grunted ungraciously. "We'll just go 
ahead with our field studies. Live specimens aren't really essential, anyhow. 
Our technicians have prepared very authentic displays, with only animated 
replicas."
"Very well." The commandant managed a somewhat sour smile. "With that 
understanding, you may land."
He assigned two inspectors to assist the collector and make certain that the 
quarantine regulations were respected. Undercover experts, they went on to 
Earth ahead of the expedition, and met the interstellar ship a few weeks later 
at a rendezvous on the night side of the planet.
The ship returned to the moon, while the outsiders spent several months 
traveling on the planet, making psionic records and collecting specimens from 
the unprotected species. The inspector reported no effort to violate the 
Covenants, and everything went smoothly until the night when the ship came back 
to pick up the expedition.
Every avoidable hazard had been painstakingly avoided. The collector and his 
party brought their captured specimens to the pickup point in native vehicles, 
traveling as Barstow Brothers' Wild Animal Shows. The ship dropped to meet them 
at midnight, on an uninhabited desert plateau. A thousand such pickups had been 
made without an incident, but that night things went wrong.
A native anthropoid had just escaped from a place of confinement. Though his 
angered tribesmen pursued, he had outrun them in a series of stolen vehicles. 
They blocked the roads, but he got away across the desert. When his last vehicle 
stalled, he crossed a range of dry hills on foot in the dark. An unforeseen 
danger, he blundered too near the waiting interstellar ship.
His pursuers discovered his abandoned car, and halted the disguised outsiders to 
search their trucks and warn them that a dangerous convict was loose. To keep 
the natives away from the ship, the inspectors invented a tale of a frightened 
man on a horse, riding wildly in the opposite direction.
They guided the native officers back to where they said they had seen the 
imaginary horseman, and kept them occupied until dawn. By that time, the 
expedition was on the ship, native trucks and all, and safely back in space.
The natives never recaptured their prisoner. Through that chance-in-a-million 
that can never be eliminated by even the most competent undercover work, he had 
got aboard the interstellar ship.
The fugitive anthropoid was a young male. Physically, he appeared human enough, 
even almost handsome. Lean from the prison regime, he carried himself defiantly 
erect. Some old injury had left an ugly scar across his cheek and his thin lips 
had a snarling twist, but he had a poised alertness and a kind of wary grace.
He was even sufficiently human to possess clothing and a name. His filthy 
garments were made of twisted animal and vegetable fibers and the skins of 
butchered animals. His name was Casey James.
He was armed like some jungle carnivore, however, with a sharpened steel blade. 
His body, like his whole planet, was contaminated with parasitic organisms. He 
was quivering with fear and exhaustion, like any hunted animal, the night he 
blundered upon the ship. The pangs of his hunger had passed, but a bullet wound 
in his left arm was nagging him with unalleviated pain.
In the darkness, he didn't even see the ship. The trucks were stopped on the 
road, and the driver of the last had left it while he went ahead to help to 
adjust the loading ramp. The anthropoid climbed on the unattended truck and hid 
himself under a tarpaulin before it was driven aboard.
Though he must have been puzzled and alarmed to find that the ship was no native 
conveyance, he kept hidden in the cargo hold for several days. With his animal 
craftiness, he milked one of the specimen animals for food, and slept in the 
cab of an empty truck. Malignant organisms were multiplying in his wounded arm, 
however, and pain finally drove him out of hiding.
He approached the attendants who were feeding the animals, threatened them with 
his knife, and demanded medical care. They disarmed him without difficulty and 
took him to the veterinary ward. The collector found him there, already scrubbed 
and disinfected, sitting up in his bed.
"Where're we headed for?" he wanted to know.
He nodded without apparent surprise when the collector told him the mission and 
the destination of the ship.
"Your undercover work ain't quite so hot as you seem to think," he said. "I've 
seen your flying saucers myself."
"Flying saucers!" The collector sniffed disdainfully, "They aren't anything of 
ours. Most of them are nothing but refracted images of surface lights, produced 
by atmospheric inversions. The quarantine people are getting out a book to 
explain that to your fellow creatures."
"A good one for the cops!" The anthropoid grinned. "I bet they're still 
scratching their dumb skulls, over how I dodged 'em." He paused to finger his 
bandaged arm, in evident appreciation of the civilized care he had received. 
"And when do we get to this wonderful zoo of yours?"
"You don't," the collector told him. "I did want exactly such a specimen as you 
are, but those stuffy bureaucrats wouldn't let me take one."
"So you gotta get rid of me?"
The psionic translator revealed the beast's dangerous desperation, even before 
his hard body stiffened.
"Wait!" The collector retreated hastily. "Don't alarm yourself. We won't hurt 
you. We couldn't destroy you, even to escape detection. No civilized man can 
destroy a human life."
"Nothing to it," the creature grunted. "But if you ain't gonna toss me out in 
space, then what?"
"You've put us in an awkward situation." The yellow man scowled with annoyance. 
"If the quarantine people caught us with you aboard, they'd cancel our permits 
and seize everything we've got. Somehow, we'll have to put you back."
"But I can't go back." The anthropoid licked his lips nervously. "I just 
gut-knifed a guard. If they run me down this time, it's the chair for sure."
The translator made it clear that the chair was an elaborate torture machine in 
which convicted killers were put to a ceremonial death, according to a primitive 
tribal code of blood revenge.
"So you gotta take me wherever you're going." The creature's dark, frightened 
eyes studied the collector cunningly. "If you put me back, you'll be killing 
me."
"On the contrary." The collector's thick upper lip twitched slightly, and a slow 
smile oozed across his wide putty face, warming everything except his frosty 
little eyes. "Human life is sacred. We can arrange to make you the safest 
creature of your kindand also the happiestso long as you are willing to 
observe two necessary conditions."
"Huh?" The anthropoid squinted. "Whatcha mean?"
"You understand that we violated the quarantine in allowing you to get aboard," 
the collector explained patiently. "We, and not you, would be held responsible 
in case of detection, but we need your help to conceal the violation. We are 
prepared to do everything for you, if you will make and keep two simple 
promises."
"Such as?"
"First, promise you won't talk about us."
"Easy enough." The beast grinned. "Nobody'd believe me, anyhow."
"The quarantine people would." The collector's cold eyes narrowed. "Their 
undercover agents are alert for rumors of any violation."
"Okay, I'll keep my mouth shut." The creature shrugged. "What else?"
"Second, you must promise not to kill again." The anthropoid stiffened. "What's 
it to you?"
"We can't allow you to destroy any more of your fellow beings. Since you are now 
in our hands, the guilt would fall on us." The collector scowled at him. 
"Promise?"
The anthropoid chewed thoughtfully on his thin lower lip. His hostile eyes 
looked away at nothing. The collector caught a faint reflection of his thoughts, 
through the translator, and stepped back uneasily.
"The cops are hot behind me," he muttered. "I gotta take care of myself."
"Don't worry." The collector snapped his fat fingers. "We can get you a pardon. 
Just say you won't kill again."
"No." Lean muscles tightened in the anthropoid's jaws. "There's one certain man 
I gotta knock off. That's the main reason I busted outs the pen."
"Who is this enemy?" The collector frowned. "Why is he so dangerous?"
"But he ain't so dangerous," the beast grunted. "I just hate his guts."
"I don't understand."
"I always wanted to kick his face in." The creature's thin lips snarled. "Ever 
since we was kids together, back in Las Verdades."
"Yet you have never received any corrective treatment for such a monstrous 
obsession?" The collector shook his head incredulously, but the anthropoid 
ignored him.
"His name is Gabriel Melendez," the creature muttered. "Just a dirty greaser, 
but he makes out he's just as good as me. I had money from my rich aunt and he 
was hungry half the time, but he'd never stay in his place. Even when he was 
just a snotty-nosed kid, and knew I could beat him because I was bigger, he was 
always trying to fight me." The beast bared his decaying teeth. "I aim to kill 
him, before I'm through."
"Killing is never necessary," the collector protested uneasily. "Not for 
civilized men."
"But I ain't so civilized." The anthropoid grinned bleakly. "I aim to gut-knife 
Gabe Melendez, just like I did that dumb guard."
"An incredible obsession!" The collector recoiled from the grim-lipped beast and 
the idea of such raw violence. "What has this creature done to you?"
"He took the girl I wanted." The beast caught a rasping breath. "And he put the 
cops on me. At least I think it was him, because I got caught not a month after 
I stuck up the filling station where he works. I think he recognized me, and I 
aim to get him."
"No--"
"But I will!" The anthropoid slipped out of bed and stood towering over the fat 
man defiantly, his free hand clenched and quivering. "You can't stop me, not 
with all your fancy gadgets."
The beast glared down into the collector's bright little eyes. They looked back 
without blinking, and their lack of brows or lashes made them seem coldly 
reptilian. Abruptly, the animal subsided.
"Okay, okay!" He spat deliberately on the spotless floor and grinned at the 
collector's involuntary start. "What's it worth, to let him live?"
The collector shook off his shocked expression.
"We're undercover experts and we know your planet." A persuasive smile crept 
across his gross face. "Our resources are quite adequate to take care of 
anything you can demand. Just give your word not to kill again, or talk about 
us, and tell me what you want."
The anthropoid rubbed his hairy jaw, as if attempting to think.
"First, I want the girl," he muttered huskily. "Carmen Quintana was her name, 
before she married Gabe. She may give you a little trouble, because she don't 
like me a bit. Nearly clawed my eyes out once, even back before I shot her old 
man at the filling station." His white teeth flashed in a wolfish grin. "Think 
you can make her go for me?"
"I think we can." The collector nodded blandly. "We can arrange nearly 
anything."
"You'd better arrange that." The anthropoid's thin brown hand knotted again. 
"And I'll make her sorry she ever looked at Gabe!"
"You don't intend to injure her?"
"That's my business." The beast laughed. "Just take me to Las Verdades. That's a 
little 'dobe town down close to the border."
 
The anthropoid listed the rest of his requirements, and crossed his heart in a 
ritual gesture of his tribe to solemnize his promises. He knew when the 
interstellar craft landed again, but he had to stay aboard a long time 
afterwards, living like a prisoner in a sterile little cell, while he waited for 
the outsiders to complete their underground arrangements for his return. He was 
fuming with impatience, stalking around his windowless room like a caged 
carnivore, when the collector finally unlocked his door.
"You're driving me nuts," he growled at the hairless outsider. "What's the 
holdup?"
"The quarantine people." The collector shrugged. "We had to manufacture some new 
excuse for every move we made, but I don't think they ever suspected anything. 
And here you are!"
He dragged a heavy piece of primitive luggage into the room and straightened up 
beside it, puffing and mopping at his broad wet face.
"Open it up," he wheezed. "You'll see that we intend to keep our part of the 
bargain. Don't forget yours."
The anthropoid dropped on his knees to burrow eagerly through the garments and 
the simple paper documents in the bag. He looked up with a scowl.
"Where is it?" he snapped.
"You'll find everything," the fat man panted. "Your pardon papers. Ten thousand 
dollars in currency. Forty thousand in cashier's checks. The clothing you 
specified"
"But where's the gun?"
"Everything has been arranged so that you will never need it." The collector 
shifted on his feet uncomfortably. "I've been hoping you might change your mind 
about
"I gotta protect myself."
"You'll never be attacked."
"You said you'd give me a gun."
"We did." The collector shrugged unhappily. "You may have it, if you insist, 
when you leave the ship. Better get into your new clothing now. We want to take 
off again in half an hour."
The yellow Cadillac convertible he had demanded was waiting in the dark at the 
bottom of the ramp, its chrome trim shimmering faintly. The collector walked 
with him down through the airlock to the car, and handed him a heavy little 
package.
"Now don't turn on the headlamps," the yellow man cautioned him. "Just wait here 
for daylight. You'll see the Albuquerque highway then, not a mile east. Turn 
right to Las Verdades. We have arranged everything to keep you very happy there, 
so long as you don't attempt to betray us."
"Don't worry." He grinned in the dark. "Don't worry a minute."
He slid into the car and clicked on the parking lights. The instrument panel lit 
up like a Christmas tree. He settled himself luxuriously at the wheel, 
appreciatively sniffing the expensive new-car scents of leather and rubber and 
enamel.
"Don't you worry, butter-guts," he muttered. "You'll never know."
The ramp was already lifting back into the interstellar ship when he looked up. 
The bald man waved at him and vanished. The airlock thudded softly shut. The 
great disk took off into the night, silently, like something falling upward.
The beast sat grinning in the car. Quite a deal, he was thinking. Everything he 
had thought to ask for, all for just a couple of silly promises they couldn't 
make him keep. He already had most of his pay, and old clabber-guts would soon 
be forty thousand miles away, or however far it was out to the stars.
Nobody had ever been so lucky.
They had fixed his teeth, and put him in a hundred-dollar suit, and stuffed his 
pockets with good cigars. He unwrapped one of the cigars, bit off the end, lit 
it with the automatic lighter, and inhaled luxuriously. He had everything.
Or did he?
A sudden uncertainty struck him, as dawn began to break. The first gray shapes 
that came out of the dark seemed utterly strange, and he was suddenly afraid the 
outsiders had double-crossed him. Maybe they hadn't really brought him back to 
Earth, after all. Maybe they had marooned him on some foreign planet, where he 
could never find Carmen and Gabe Melendez.
With a gasp of alarm, he snapped on the headlights. The wide white beams washed 
away all that terrifying strangeness, and left only a few harmless clumps of 
yucca and mesquite. He slumped back against the cushions, laughing weakly.
Now he could see the familiar peaks of Dos Lobos jutting up like jagged teeth, 
black against the green glass sky. He switched off the headlights and started 
the motor and eased the swaying car across the brown hummocks toward the dawn. 
In a few minutes he found the highway.
JOSE'S OASIS, ONE STOP SERVICE, 8 MILES AHEAD
He grimaced at the sign, derisively. What if he had got his twenty years for 
sticking up the Oasis and shooting down old Jose. Who cared now if his mother 
and his aunt had spent their last grubby dimes, paying the lawyers to keep him 
out of the chair? And Carmen, what if she had spat in his face at the trial? The 
outsiders had taken care of everything.
Or what if they hadn't?
Cautiously, he slowed the long car and pulled off the pavement where it curved 
into the valley. The spring rains must have already come, because the rocky 
slopes were all splashed with wild flowers and tinted green with new grass. The 
huge old cottonwoods along the river were just coming into leaf, delicately 
green.
The valley looked as kind as his old mother's face, when she was still alive, 
and the little town beyond the river seemed clean and lovely as he remembered 
Carmen. Even the sky was shining like a blue glass bowl, as if the outsiders had 
somehow washed and sterilized it. Maybe they had. They could do anything, except 
kill a man.
He chuckled, thinking of the way old baldy had made him cross his heart. Maybe 
the tallow-gutted fool had really thought that would make him keep his promises. 
Or was there some kind of funny business about the package that was supposed to 
be a gun?
He ripped it open. There in the carton was the automatic he had demanded, a 
.45, with an extra cartridge clip and two boxes of ammunition. It looked all 
right, flat and black and deadly in his hand. He loaded it and stepped out of 
the car to test it.
He was aiming at an empty whisky bottle beside the pavement when he heard a 
mockingbird singing in the nearest cottonwood. He shot at the bird instead, and 
grinned when it dissolved into a puff of brown feathers.
"That'll be Gabe." His hard lips curled sardonically. "Coming at me like a mad 
dog, if anybody ever wants to know, and I had to stop him to save my own hide."
He drove on across the river bridge into Las Verdades. The outsiders had been 
here, he knew, because the dirt streets were all swept clean, and the wooden 
parts of all the low adobe buildings were bright with new paint, and all he 
could smell was the fragrances of coffee and hot bread, when he passed the 
Esperanza Cafe.
Those good odors wet his dry mouth with saliva, but he didn't stop to eat. With 
the automatic lying ready beside him on the seat, he pulled into the Oasis. The 
place looked empty at first and he thought for a moment that everybody was 
hiding from him.
As he sat waiting watchfully, crouched down under the wheel, he had time to 
notice that all the shattered glass had been neatly replaced. Even the marks of 
his bullets on the walls had been covered with new plaster, and the whole 
station was shining with fresh paint, like everything else in town.
He reached for the gun when he saw the slight dark boy coming from the grease 
rack, wiping his hands on a rag. It was Carmen's brother Tony, smiling with an 
envious adoration at the yellow Cadillac. Tony had always been wild about cars.
"Yes, sir! Fill her up?" Tony recognized him then, and dropped the greasy rag. 
"Casey James!" He ran out across the driveway. "Carmen told us you'd be home!"
He was raising the gun to shoot when he saw that the boy only wanted to shake 
his hand. He hid the gun hastily; it wasn't Tony that he had come to kill.
"We read all about your pardon." Tony stood grinning at him, caressing the side 
of the shining car lovingly. "A shame the way you were framed, but we'll all try 
to make it up to you now." The boy's glowing eyes swept the long car. "Want me 
to fill her up?"
"No!" he muttered hoarsely. "Gabe Melendezdon't he still work here?"
"Sure, Mr. James," Tony drew back quickly, as if the car had somehow burned his 
delicate brown hands. "Eight to five, but he isn't here yet. His home is that 
white stucco beyond the acequia madre."
"I know."
He gunned the car. It lurched back into the street, roared across the acequia 
bridge, skidded to a screaming stop in front of the white stucco. He dropped the 
gun into the side pocket of his coat and ran to the door, grinning expectantly.
Gabe would be taken by surprise. The outsiders had set it up for him very 
cleverly, with all their manufactured evidences that he had been innocent of any 
crime at all, and Gabe wasn't likely to be armed.
The door opened before he could touch the bell, but it was only Carmen. Carmen, 
pale without her makeup but beautiful anyhow, yawning sleepily in sheer pink 
pajamas that were half unbuttoned. She gasped when she saw him.
"Casey!" Strangely, she was smiling. "I knew you'd come!"
She swayed toward him eagerly, as if she expected him to take her in his arms, 
but he stood still, thinking of how she had watched him in the courtroom, all 
through his trial for killing her father, with pitiless hate in her dark eyes. 
He didn't understand it, but old puffy-guts had somehow changed her.
"Oh!" She turned pink and buttoned her pajamas hastily. "No wonder you were 
staring, but I'm so excited. I've been longing for you so. Come on in, darling. 
I'll get something on and make us some breakfast."
"Wait a minute!"
He shook his head, scowling at her, annoyed at the outsiders. They had somehow 
cheated him. He wanted Carmen, but not this way. He wanted to fight Gabe to take 
her. He wanted her to go on hating him, so that he would have to beat and 
frighten her. Old blubber-belly had been too clever and done too much.
"Where's Gabe?" He reached in his pocket to grip the cold gun. "I gotta see 
Gabe."
"Don't worry, darling." Her tawny shoulders shrugged becomingly. "Gabriel isn't 
here. He won't be here any more. You see, dear, the state cops talked to me a 
lot while they were here digging up the evidence to clear you. It came over me 
then that you had always been the one I loved. When I told Gabriel, he moved 
out. He's living down at the hotel now, and we're getting a divorce right away, 
so you don't have to worry about him."
"I gotta see him, anyhow."
"Don't be mean about it, darling." Her pajamas were coming open again, but she 
didn't seem to care. "Come on in, and let's forget about Gabriel. He has been so 
good about everything, and I know he won't make us any trouble."
"I'll make the trouble." He seized her bare arm. "Come along."
"Darling, don't!" She hung back, squirming. "You're hurting me!"
He made her shut up, and dragged her out of the house. She wanted to go back for 
a robe, but he threw her into the car and climbed over her to the wheel. He 
waited for her to try to get out, so that he could slap her down, but she only 
whimpered for a Kleenex and sat there sniffling.
Old balloon-belly had ruined everything.
He tried angrily to clash the gears, as he started off, as if that would damage 
the outsiders, but the Hydramatic transmission wouldn't clash, and anyhow the 
saucer ship was probably somewhere out beyond the moon by now.
"There's Gabriel," Carmen sobbed. "There, crossing the street, going to work. 
Don't hurt him, please!"
He gunned the car and veered across the pavement to run him down, but Carmen 
screamed and twisted at the wheel. Gabriel managed to scramble out of the way. 
He stopped on the sidewalk, hatless and breathless but grinning stupidly.
"Sorry, mister. Guess I wasn't looking" Then Gabriel saw who he was. "Why, 
Casey! We've been expecting you back. Seems you're the lucky one, after all." 
Gabriel had started toward the car, but he stopped when he saw the gun. His 
voice went shrill as a child's. "What are you doing?"
"Just gut-shooting another dirty greaser, that's all." 
"Darling!" Carmen snatched at the gun. "Don't" He slapped her down.
"Don't strike her!" Gabriel stood gripping the door of the car with both hands. 
He looked sick. His twitching face was bright with sweat, and he was gasping 
hoarsely for his breath. He was staring at the gun, his wide eyes dull with 
horror.
"Stop me!"
He smashed the flat of the gun into Carmen's face, and grinned at the way 
Gabriel flinched when she screamed.
This was more the way he wanted everything to be. "Just try and stop me!"
"II won't fight you," Gabriel croaked faintly. "After all, we're not animals. 
We're civilized humans. I know Carmen loves you. I'm stepping out of the way. 
But you can't make me fight"
The gun stopped Gabriel.
Queerly, though, he didn't fall. He just stood there like some kind of rundown 
machine, with his stiffened hands clutching the side of the car.
"Die, damn you!"
Casey James shot again; he kept on shooting till the gun was empty. The bullets 
hammered into the body, but somehow it wouldn't fall. He leaned to look at the 
wounds, at the broken metal beneath the simulated flesh of the face and the hot 
yellow hydraulic fluid running out of the belly, and recoiled from what he saw, 
shaking his head, shuddering like any trapped and frightened beast.
"Thatthing!"
With a wild burst of animal ferocity, he hurled the gun into what was left of 
its plastic face. It toppled stiffly backward then, and something jangled 
faintly inside when it struck the pavement.
"Itit ain't human!"
"But it was an excellent replica." The other thing, the one he had thought was 
Carmen, gathered itself up from the bottom of the car, speaking gently to him 
with what now seemed queerly like the voice of old barrel-belly. "We had taken a 
great deal of trouble to make you the happiest one of your breed." It looked at 
him sadly with, Carmen's limpid dark eyes. "If you had only kept your word."
"Don't" He cowered back from it, shivering. "Don't k-k-kill me!"
"We never kill," it murmured. "You need never be afraid of that."
While he sat trembling, it climbed out of the car and picked up the ruined thing 
that had looked like Gabe and carried it easily away toward the Oasis garage.
Now he knew that this place was only a copy of Las Verdades, somewhere not on 
Earth. When he looked up at the blue crystal sky, he knew that it was only some 
kind of screen. He felt the millions of strange eyes beyond it, watching him 
like some queer monster in a cage.
He tried to run away.
He gunned the Cadillac back across the acequia bridge and drove wildly back the 
way he had come in, on the Alburquerque highway. A dozen miles out, an imitation 
construction crewman tried to flag him down, pointing at a sign that said the 
road was closed for repairs. He whipped around the barriers and drove the 
pitching car on across the imitation desert until he crashed into the bars.
 
JEROME BIXBY
 
If editors know more than writers about what is good and bad (admittedly an 
arguable point), Jerry Bixby should know very much more than almost any other 
writer at all. Other writers have been tempted to do a stint of editing; Bixby 
was so lost to self-control that he found himself, one time and another, editing 
at least half a dozen magazines, including some of the very best. He has also a 
good many new, fine TV scripts to his credit. Oh, and he illustrates. And he 
plays a fine piano. And  But read on; and you'll learn all that anyone ever 
needs to learn about the fine creative talents of Jerome Bixby, in
 
It's a Good Life
 
Aunt Amy was out on the front porch, rocking back and forth in the high-backed 
chair and fanning herself, when Bill Soames rode his bicycle up the road and 
stopped in front of the house.
Perspiring under the afternoon sun, Bill lifted the box of groceries out of 
the big basket over the front wheel of the bike and came up the front walk.
Little Anthony was sitting on the lawn, playing with a rat. He had caught the 
rat down in the basementhe had made it think that it smelled cheese, the most 
rich-smelling and crumbly-delicious cheese a rat had ever thought it smelled, 
and it had come out of its hole, and now Anthony had hold of it with his mind 
and was making it do tricks.
When the rat saw Bill Soames coming, it tried to run, but Anthony thought at 
it, and it turned a flip-flop on the grass and lay trembling, its eyes gleaming 
in small black terror.
Bill Soames hurried past Anthony and reached the front steps, mumbling. He 
always mumbled when he came to the Fremont house, or passed by it, or even 
thought of it. Everybody did. They thought about silly things, things that 
didnt mean very much, like two-and-two-is-four-and-twice-is-eight and so on; 
they tried to jumble up their thoughts and keep them skipping back and forth, so 
Anthony couldnt read their minds. The mumbling helped. Because if Anthony got 
anything strong out of your thoughts, he might take a notion to do something 
about itlike curing your wifes sick headaches or your kids mumps, or getting 
your old milk cow back on schedule, or fixing the privy. And while Anthony 
mightnt actually mean any harm, he couldnt be expected to have much notion of 
what was the right thing to do in such cases.
That was if he liked you. He might try to help you, in his way. And that could 
be pretty horrible.
If he didnt like youwell, that could be worse.
Bill Soames set the box of groceries on the porch railing and stopped his 
mumbling long enough to say, Everythin you wanted, Miss Amy.
Oh, fine, William, Amy Fremont said lightly. My, aint it terrible hot 
today?
Bill Soames almost cringed. His eyes pleaded with her. He shook his head 
violently no, and then interrupted his mumbling again, though obviously he 
didnt want to. Oh, dont say that, Miss Amy. Its fine, just fine. A real good 
day!
Amy Fremont got up from the rocking chair and came across the porch. She was a 
tall woman, thin, a smiling vacancy in her eyes. About a year ago Anthony had 
got mad at her, because shed told him he shouldnt have turned the cat into a 
cat rug, and although he had always obeyed her more than anyone else, which was 
hardly at all, this time hed snapped at her. With his mind. And that had been 
the end of Amy Fremonts bright eyes, and the end of Amy Fremont as everyone had 
known her. And that was when word got around in Peaksville (population 
forty-six) that even the members of Anthonys own family werent safe. After 
that, everyone was twice as careful.
Someday Anthony might undo what hed done to Aunt Amy. Anthonys Mom and Pop 
hoped he would. When he was older, and maybe sorry. If it was possible, that is. 
Because Aunt Amy had changed a lot, and besides, now Anthony wouldnt obey 
anyone.
Land alive, William, Aunt Amy said, you dont have to mumble like that. 
Anthony wouldnt hurt you. My goodness, Anthony likes you! She raised her voice 
and called to Anthony, who had tired of the rat and was making it eat itself, 
Dont you, dear? Dont you like Mr. Soames?
Anthony looked across the lawn at the grocery mana bright, wet, purple gaze. He 
didnt say anything. Bill Soames tried to smile at him. After a second Anthony 
returned his attention to the rat. It had already devoured its tail, or at least 
chewed it offfor Anthony had made it bite faster than it could swallow, and 
little pink and red furry pieces lay around it on the green grass. Now the rat 
was having trouble reaching its hindquarters.
Mumbling silently, thinking of nothing in particular as hard as he could, Bill 
Soames went stiff-legged down the walk, mounted his bicycle and pedaled off.
WelI see you tonight, William, Aunt Amy called after him. As Bill Soames 
pumped the pedals, he was wishing deep down that he could pump twice as fast, to 
get away from Anthony all the faster, and away from Aunt Amy, who sometimes just 
forgot how careful you had to be. And he shouldnt have thought that. Because 
Anthony caught it. He caught the desire to get away from the Fremont house as if 
it was something bad, and his purple gaze blinked, and he snapped a small, sulky 
thought after Bill Soamesjust a small one, because he was in a good mood today, 
and besides, he liked Bill Soames, or at least didnt dislike him, at least 
today. Bill Soames wanted to go awayso, petulantly, Anthony helped him.
Pedaling with superhuman speedor, rather, appearing to, because in reality the 
bicycle was pedaling himBill Soames vanished down the road in a cloud of dust, 
his thin, terrified wail drifting back across the summerlike heat.
Anthony looked at the rat. It had devoured half its belly, and had died from 
pain. He thought it into a grave out deep in the cornfieldhis father had once 
said, smiling, that he might as well do that with the things he killedand went 
around the house, casting his odd shadow in the hot, brassy light from above.
In the kitchen, Aunt Amy was unpacking the groceries. She put the Mason-jarred 
goods on the shelves, and the meat and milk in the icebox, and the beet sugar 
and coarse flour in big cans under the sink. She put the cardboard box in the 
corner, by the door, for Mr. Soames to pick up next time he came. It was stained 
and battered and torn and worn fuzzy, but it was one of the few left in 
Peaksville. In faded red letters it said Campbells Soup. The last cans of 
soup, or of anything else, had been eaten long ago, except for a small communal 
hoard which the villagers dipped into for special occasionsbut the box lingered 
on, like a coffin, and when it and the other boxes were gone the men would have 
to make some out of wood.
Aunt Amy went out in back, where Anthonys MomAunt Amys sistersat in the 
shade of the house, shelling peas. The peas, every time Mom ran a finger along a 
pod, went lollop-lollop-lollop into the pan on her lap.
William brought the groceries, Aunt Amy said. She sat down wearily in the 
straight-backed chair beside Mom and began fanning herself again. She wasnt 
really old; but ever since Anthony had snapped at her with his mind, something 
had seemed to be wrong with her body as well as her mind, and she was tired all 
the time.
Oh, good, said Mom. Lollop went the fat peas into the pan.
Everybody in Peaksvile always said, Oh, fine, or Good, or Say, thats 
swell! when almost. anything happened or was mentionedeven unhappy things 
like accidents or even deaths. Theyd always say Good because if they didnt 
try to cover up how they really felt Anthony might overhear with his mind, and 
then nobody knew what might happen. Like the time Mrs. Kents husband, Sam, had 
come walking back from the graveyard because Anthony liked Mrs. Kent and had 
heard her mourning.
Lollop.
Tonights television night, said Aunt Amy. Im glad. I look forward to it so 
much every week. I wonder what well see tonight.
Did Bill bring the meat? asked Mom.
Yes. Aunt Amy fanned herself, looking up at the featureless brassy glare of 
the sky. Goodness, its so hot! I wish Anthony would make it just a little 
cooler
Amy!
Oh! Moms sharp tone had penetrated where Bill Soamess agonized expression 
had failed. Aunt Amy put one thin hand to her mouth in exaggerated alarm. Oh . 
. . Im sorry, dear. Her pale-blue eyes shuttled around, right and left, to see 
if Anthony was in sight. Not that it would make any difference if he was or 
wasnthe didnt have to be near you to know what you were thinking. Usually, 
though, unless he had his attention on somebody, he would be occupied with 
thoughts of his own.
But some things attracted his attention you could never be sure just what.
This weathers just fine, Mom said.
Lollop.
Oh, yes, Aunt Amy said. Its a wonderful day. I wouldnt want it changed for 
the world!
Lollop.
Lollop.
What time is it? Mom asked.
Aunt Amy was sitting where she could see through the kitchen window to the alarm 
clock on the shelf above the stove. Four-thirty, she said.
Lollop.
I want tonight to be something special, Mom said. Did Bill bring a good lean 
roast?
Good and lean, dear. They butchered just today, you know, and sent us over the 
best piece.
Dan Hollis will be so surprised when he finds out that tonights television 
party is a birthday party for him, too!
Oh I think he will! Are you sure nobodys told him?
Everybody swore they wouldnt.
Thatll be real nice. Aunt Amy nodded, looking off across the cornfield. A 
birthday party.
Well Mom put the pan of peas down beside her, stood up and brushed her apron 
Id better get the roast on. Then we can set the table. She picked up the 
peas.
Anthony came around the corner of the house. He didnt look at them, but 
continued on down through the carefully kept gardenall the gardens in 
Peaksville were carefully kept, very carefully kept and went past the rustling, 
useless hulk that had been the Fremont family car, and went smoothly over the 
fence and out into the cornfield.
Isnt this a lovely day! said Mom, a little loudly, as they went toward the 
back door.
Aunt Amy fanned herself. A beautiful day, dear. Just fine!
Out in the cornfield, Anthony walked between the tall, rustling rows of green 
stalks. He liked to smell the corn. The alive corn overhead, and the old dead 
corn underfoot. Rich Ohio earth, thick with weeds and brown, dry-rotting ears of 
corn, pressed between his bare toes with every step. He had made it rain last 
night so everything would smell and feel nice today.
He walked clear to the edge of the cornfield, and over to where a grove of 
shadowy green trees covered cool, moist, dark ground and lots of leafy 
undergrowth and jumbled moss-covered rocks and a small spring that made a clear, 
clean pool. Here Anthony liked to rest and watch the birds and insects and small 
animals that rustled and scampered and chirped about. He liked to lie on the 
cool ground and look up through the moving greenness overhead and watch the 
insects flit in the hazy soft sunbeams that stood like slanting, glowing bars 
between ground and treetops. Somehow, he liked the thoughts of the little 
creatures in this place better than the thoughts outside; and while the thoughts 
he picked up here werent very strong or very clear, he could get enough out of 
them to know what the little creatures liked and wanted, and he spent a lot of 
time making the grove more like what they wanted it to be. The spring hadnt 
always been here; but one time he had found thirst in one small furry mind, and 
had brought subterranean water to the surface in a clear cold flow and had 
watched, blinking, as the creature drank, feeling its pleasure. Later he had 
made the pool, when he found a small urge to swim.
He had made rocks and trees and bushes and caves, and sunlight here and shadows 
there, because he had felt in all the tiny minds around him the desireor the 
instinctive wantfor this kind of resting place, and that kind of mating place, 
and this kind of place to play, and that kind of home. And somehow the 
creatures from all the fields and pastures around the grove had seemed to know 
that this was a good place, for there were always more of them coming in. Every 
time Anthony came out here there were more creatures than the last time, and 
more desires and needs to be tended to. Every time there would be some kind of 
creature he had never seen before, and he would find its mind, and see what it 
wanted, and then give it to it. He liked to help them. He liked to feel their 
simple gratification.
Today he rested beneath a thick elm and lifted his purple gaze to a 
red-and-black bird that had just come to the grove. It twittered on a branch 
over his head, and hopped back and forth, and thought its tiny thoughts, and 
Anthony made a big, soft nest for it, and pretty soon it hopped in.
A long brown, sleek-furred animal was drinking at the pool. Anthony found its 
mind next. The animal was thinking about a smaller creature that was scurrying 
along the ground on the other side of the pool, grubbing for insects. The little 
creature didnt know that it was in danger. The long brown animal finished 
drinking and tensed its legs to leap, and Anthony thought it into a grave in the 
cornfield.
He didnt like those kinds of thoughts. They reminded him of the thoughts 
outside the grove. A long time ago some of the people outside had thought that 
way about him, and one night theyd hidden and waited for him to come back from 
the groveand hed just thought them all into the cornfield. Since then the rest 
of the people hadnt thought that way at least, very clearly. Now their thoughts 
were all mixed up and confusing whenever they thought about him or near him, so 
he didnt pay much attention.
He liked to help them too, sometimesbut it wasnt simple, or very gratifying 
either. They never thought happy thoughts when he didjust the jumble. So he 
spent more time out here.
He watched all the birds and insects and furry creatures for a while, and played 
with a bird, making it soar and dip and streak madly around tree trunks until, 
accidentally, when another bird caught his attention for a moment, he ran it 
into a rock. Petulantly, he thought the rock into a grave in the cornfield; but 
he couldnt do anything more with the bird. Not because it was dead, though it 
was; but because it had a broken wing. So he went back to the house. He didnt 
feel like walking back through the cornfield, so he just went to the house, 
right down into the basement.
It was nice down here. Nice and dark and damp and sort of fragrant, because 
once Mom had been making preserves in a rack along the far wall and then shed 
stopped coming down ever since Anthony had started spending time here, and the 
preserves had spoiled and leaked down and spread over the dirt floor and 
Anthony liked the smell.
He caught another rat, making it smell cheese, and after he played with it he 
thought it into a grave right beside the long animal hed killed in the grove. 
Aunt Amy hated rats, and so he killed a lot of them, because he liked Aunt Amy 
most of all and sometimes did things Aunt Amy wanted. Her mind was more like the 
little furry minds out in the grove. She hadnt thought anything bad at all 
about him for a long time.
After the rat, he played with a big black spider in the corner under the stairs, 
making it run back and forth until its web shook and shimmered in the light from 
the cellar window like a reflection in silvery water. Then he drove fruit flies 
into the web until the spider was frantic trying to wind them all up. The spider 
liked flies, and its thoughts were stronger than theirs, so he did it. There was 
something bad in the way it liked flies, but it wasnt clear and besides, Aunt 
Amy hated flies too.
He heard footsteps overheadMom moving around in the kitchen. He blinked his 
purple gaze and almost decided to make her hold stillbut instead he went up to 
the attic, and, after looking out the circular window for a while at the front 
lawn and the dusty road and Hendersons tip-waving wheatfield beyond, he curled 
into an unlikely shape and went partly to sleep.
Soon people would be coming for television, he heard Mom think.
He went more to sleep. He liked television night. Aunt Amy had always liked 
television a lot, so one time he had thought some for her, and a few other 
people had been there at the time, and Aunt Amy had felt disappointed when they 
wanted to leave. Hed done something to them for thatand now everybody came to 
television.
He liked all the attention he got when they did.
 
Anthonys father came home around six-thirty, looking tired and dirty and 
bloody. Hed been over in Dunns pasture with the other men, helping pick out 
the cow to be slaughtered this month, and doing the job, and then butchering the 
meat and salting it away in Soamess icehouse. Not a job he cared for, but every 
man had his turn. Yesterday he had helped scythe down old McIntyres wheat. 
Tomorrow they would start threshing. By hand. Everything in Peaksville had to 
be done by hand.
He kissed his wife on the cheek and sat down at the kitchen table. He smiled and 
said, Wheres Anthony?
Around someplace, Mom said.
Aunt Amy was over at the wood-burning stove, stirring the big pot of peas. Mom 
went back to the oven and opened it and basted the roast.
Well, its been a good day, Dad said. By rote. Then he looked at the mixing 
bowl and breadboard on the table. He sniffed at the dough. Mm, he said. I 
could eat a loaf all by myself, Im so hungry.
No one told Dan Hollis about its being a birthday party, did they? his wife 
asked.
Nope. We kept as quiet as mummies.
Weve fixed up such a lovely surprise!
Um? What?
Well . . . you know how much Dan likes music. Well, last week Thelma Dunn found 
a record in her attic!
No!
Yes! And we had Ethel sort of ask you know, without really askingif he had 
that one. And he said no. Isnt that a wonderful surprise?
Well, now, it sure is. A record, imagine! Thats a real nice thing to find! 
What record is it?
Perry Como, singing You Are My Sunshine.
Well, Ill be darned. I always liked that tune. Some raw carrots were lying 
on the table. Dad picked up a small one, scrubbed it on his chest, and took a 
bite. How did Thelma happen to find it?
Oh, you knowjust looking around for new things.
Mm. Dad chewed the carrot. Say, who has that picture we found a while back? 
I kind of liked itthat old clipper sailing along ..."
The Smiths. Next week the Sipiches get it, and they give the Smiths old 
McIntyres music-box, and we give the Sipiches . . . And she went down the 
tentative order of things that would exchange hands among the women at church 
this Sunday.
He nodded. Looks like we cant have the picture for a while, I guess. Look, 
honey, you might try to get that detective book back from the Reillys. I was so 
busy the week we had it, I never got to finish all the stories.
Ill try, his wife said doubtfully. But I hear the Van Husens have a 
stereoscope they found in the cellar. Her voice was just a little accusing. 
They had it two whole months before they told anybody about it.
Say, Dad said, looking interested, thatd be nice, too. Lots of pictures?
I suppose so. Ill see on Sunday. Id like to have itbut we still owe the Van 
Husens for their canary. I dont know why that bird had to pick our house to 
dieit must have been sick when we got it. Now theres just no satisfying Betty 
Van Husen. She even hinted shed like our piano for a while!
Well, honey, you try for the stereoscopeor just anything you think well 
like. At last he swallowed the carrot. It had been a little young and tough. 
Anthonys whims about the weather made it so that people never knew what crops 
would come up, or what shape theyd be in if they did. All they could do was 
plant a lot; and always enough of something came up any one season to live on. 
Just once there had been a grain surplus; tons of it had been hauled to the edge 
of Peaksville and dumped off into the nothingness. Otherwise, nobody could have 
breathed when it started to spoil.
You know, Dad went on, its nice to have the new things around. Its nice to 
think that theres probably still a lot of stuff nobodys found yet, in cellars 
and attics and barns and down behind things. They help, somehow. As much as 
anything can help
Sh-h! Mom glanced nervously around.
Oh, Dad said, smiling hastily, its all right! The new things are good! Its 
nice to be able to have something around youve never seen before, and know that 
something youve given somebody else is making them happy. Thats a real good 
thing.
A good thing, his wife echoed.
Pretty soon, Aunt Amy said, from the stove, there wont be any more new 
things. Well have found everything there is to find. Goodness, thatll be too 
bad.
Amy!
Well . . . Her pale eyes were shallow and fixed, a sign of her recurrent 
vagueness. It will be kind of a shameno new things
Dont talk like that, Mom said, trembling. Amy, be quiet!
Its good, said Dad, in the loud, familiar, wanting-to-be-overheard tone of 
voice. Such talk is good. Its okay, honey dont you see? Its good for Amy to 
talk any way she wants. Its good for her to feel bad. Everythings good. 
Everything has to be good.
Anthonys mother was pale. And so was Aunt Amy the peril of the moment had 
suddenly penetrated the clouds surrounding her mind. Sometimes it was difficult 
to handle words so that they might not prove disastrous. You just never knew. 
There were so many things it was wise not to say, or even thinkbut 
remonstration for saying or thinking them might be just as bad, if Anthony 
heard and decided to do anything about it. You could just never tell what 
Anthony was liable to do.
Everything had to be good. Had to be fine just as it was, even if it wasnt. 
Always. Because any change might be worse. So terribly much worse.
Oh, my goodness, yes, of course its good, Mom said. You talk any way you 
want to, Amy, and its just fine. Of course, you want to remember that some ways 
are better than others.
Aunt Amy stirred the peas, fright in her pale eyes.
Oh, yes, she said. But I dont feel like talking right now. It its good that 
I dont feel like talking.
 
Dad said tiredly, smiling, Im going out and wash up.
They started arriving around eight oclock. By that time Mom and Aunt Amy had 
the big table in the dining room set, and two more tables off to the side. The 
candles were burning, and the chairs situated, and Dad had a big fire going in 
the fireplace.
The first to arrive were the Sipiches, John and Mary. John wore his best suit, 
and was well scrubbed and pink-faced after his day in McIntyres pasture. The 
suit was neatly pressed but getting threadbare at elbows and cuffs. Old 
McIntyre was working on a loom, designing it out of schoolbooks, but so far it 
was slow going. McIntyre was a capable man with wood and tools, but a loom was a 
big order when you couldnt get metal parts. McIntyre had been one of the ones 
who, at first, had wanted to try to get Anthony to make things the villagers 
needed, like clothes and canned goods and medical supplies and gasoline. Since 
then he felt that what had happened to the whole Terrance family and Joe Kinney 
was his fault, and he worked hard trying to make it up to the rest of them. And 
since then no one had tried to get Anthony to do anything.
Mary Sipich was a small, cheerful woman in a simple dress. She immediately set 
about helping Mom and Aunt Amy put the finishing touches on the dinner.
The next arrivals were the Smiths and the Dunns, who lived right next to each 
other down the road, only a few yards from the nothingness. They drove up in the 
Smiths wagon, drawn by their old horse.
Then the Reillys showed up, from across the darkened wheat-field, and the 
evening really began. Pat Reilly sat down at the big upright in the front room 
and began to play from the popular sheet music on the rack. He played softly, as 
expressively as he couldand nobody sang. Anthony liked piano playing a whole 
lot, but not singing; often he would come up from the basement, or down from the 
attic, or just come, and sit on top of the piano, nodding his head as Pat played 
Lover or Boulevard of Broken Dreams or Night and Day. He seemed to prefer 
ballads, sweet-sounding songsbut the one time somebody had started to sing, 
Anthony had looked over from the top of the piano and done something that made 
everybody afraid of singing from then on. Later theyd decided that the piano 
was what Anthony had heard first, before anybody had ever tried to sing, and now 
anything else added to it didnt sound right and distracted him from his 
pleasure.
So every television night Pat would play the piano, and that was the beginning 
of the evening. Wherever Anthony was, the music would make him happy and put him 
in a good mood, and he would know that they were gathering for television and 
waiting for him.
By eight-thirty everybody had shown up, except for the seventeen children and 
Mrs. Soames, who was off watching them in the schoolhouse at the far end of 
town. The children of Peaksville were never, never allowed near the Fremont 
housenot since little Fred Smith had tried to play with Anthony on a dare. The 
younger children werent even told about Anthony. The others had mostly 
forgotten about him, or were told that he was a nice, nice goblin but they must 
never go near him.
Dan and Ethel Hollis came late, and Dan walked in not suspecting a thing. Pat 
Reilly had played the piano until his hands achedhed worked pretty hard with 
them today--and now he got up, and everybody gathered around to wish Dan Hollis 
a happy birthday.
Well, Ill be darned, Dan grinned. This is swell. I wasnt expecting this at 
all . . . gosh, this is swell!
They gave him his presents mostly things they had made by hand, though some were 
things that people had possessed as their own and now gave him as his. John 
Sipich gave him a watch charm, hand-carved out of a piece of hickory wood. Dans 
watch had broken down a year or so ago, and there was nobody in the village who 
knew how to fix it, but he still carried it around because it had been his 
grandfathers and was a fine old heavy thing of gold and silver. He attached the 
charm to the chain while everybody laughed and said John had done a nice job of 
carving. Then Mary Sipich gave him a knitted necktie, which he put on, removing 
the one hed worn.
The Reillys gave him a little box they had made, to keep things in. They didnt 
say what things, but Dan said hed keep his personal jewelry in it. The Reillys 
had made it out of a cigar box, carefully peeled of its paper and lined on the 
inside with velvet. The outside had been polished, and carefully if not expertly 
carved by Patbut his carving got complimented, too. Dan Hollis received many 
other giftsa pipe, a pair of shoelaces, a tiepin, a knit pair of socks, some 
fudge, a pair of garters made from old suspenders.
He unwrapped each gift with vast pleasure and wore as many of them as he could 
right there, even the garters. He lit up the pipe and said hed never had a 
better smoke. Which wasnt quite true, because the pipe wasnt broken in yet; 
Pete Manners had had it lying around ever since hed received it as a gift four 
years ago from an out-of-town relative who hadnt known hed stopped smoking.
Dan put the tobacco into the bowl very carefully. Tobacco was precious. It was 
only pure luck that Pat Reilly had decided to try to grow some in his back yard 
just before what had happened to Peaksville had happened. It didnt grow very 
well, and then they had to cure it and shred it and all, and it was just 
precious stuff. Everybody in town used wooden holders old McIntyre had made, to 
save on butts.
Last of all, Thelma Dunn gave Dan Hollis the record she had found.
Dans eyes misted even before he opened the package. He knew it was a record.
Gosh, he said softly. What one is it? Im almost afraid to look . . .
You havent got it, darling, Ethel Hollis smiled. Dont you remember, I asked 
about You Are My Sunshine?
Oh, gosh, Dan said again. Carefully he removed the wrapping and stood there 
fondling the record, running his big hands over the worn grooves with their 
tiny, dulling crosswise scratches. He looked around the room, eyes shining, and 
they all smiled back, knowing how delighted he was.
Happy birthday, darling! Ethel said, throwing her arms around him and kissing 
him.
He clutched the record in both hands, holding it off to one side as she pressed 
against him. Hey, he laughed, pulling back his head. Be carefulIm holding a 
priceless object! He looked around again, over his wifes arms, which were 
still around his neck. His eyes were hungry. Look . . . do you think we could 
play it? Lord, what Id give to hear some new music. Just the first part, the 
orchestra part, before Como sings?
Faces sobered. After a minute, John Sipich said, I dont think wed better, 
Dan. After all, we dont know just where the singer comes initd be taking too 
much of a chance. Better wait till you get home.
Dan Hollis reluctantly put the record on the buffet with all his other presents. 
Its good, he said automatically, but disappointedly, that I cant play it 
here.
Oh, yes, said Sipich. Its good. To compensate for Dans disappointed tone, 
he repeated, Its good.
They ate dinner, the candles lighting their smiling faces, and ate it all right 
down to the last delicious drop of gravy. They complimented Mom and Aunt Amy on 
the roast beef, and the peas and carrots, and the tender corn on the cob. The 
corn hadnt come from the Fremonts cornfield, naturallyeverybody knew what was 
out there, and the field was going to weeds. Then they polished off the 
desserthomemade ice cream and cookies. And then they sat back, in the 
flickering light of the candles, and chatted, waiting for television.
There never was a lot of mumbling on television night; everybody came and had a 
good dinner at the Fremonts, and that was nice, and afterward there was 
television, and nobody really thought much about thatit just had to be put up 
with. So it was a pleasant enough get-together, aside from your having to watch 
what you said just as carefully as you always did everyplace. If a dangerous 
thought came into your mind, you just started mumbling, even right in the 
middle of a sentence. When you did that, the others just ignored you until you 
felt happier again and stopped.
Anthony liked television night. He had done only two or three awful things on 
television night in the whole past year.
Mom had put a bottle of brandy on the table, and they each had a tiny glass of 
it. Liquor was even more precious than tobacco. The villagers could make wine, 
but the grapes werent right, and certainly the techniques werent, and it 
wasnt very good wine. There were only a few bottles of real liquor left in the 
village four rye, three Scotch, three brandy, nine real wine and half a bottle 
of Drambuie belonging to old McIntyre (only for marriages)and when those were 
gone, that was it.
Afterward everybody wished that the brandy hadnt been brought out. Because Dan 
Hollis drank more of it than he should have, and mixed it with a lot of the 
homemade wine. Nobody thought anything about it at first, because he didnt show 
it much outside, and it was his birthday party and a happy party, and Anthony 
liked these get-togethers and shouldnt see any reason to do anything even if he 
was listening. But Dan Hollis got high, and did a fool thing. If theyd seen it 
coming, theyd have taken him outside and walked him around.
The first thing they knew, Dan stopped laughing right in the middle of the story 
about how Thelma Dunn had found the Perry Como record and dropped it and it 
hadnt broken because shed moved faster than she ever had before in her life 
and caught it. He was fondling the record again, and looking longingly at the 
Fremonts gramophone over in the corner, and suddenly he stopped laughing and 
his face got slack, and then it got ugly, and he said, Oh, Christ!
Immediately the room was still. So still they could hear the whirring movement 
of the grandfathers clock out in the hall. Pat Reilly had been playing the 
piano, softly. He stopped, his hands poised over the yellowed keys.
The candles on the dining-room table flickered in a cool breeze that blew 
through the lace curtains over the bay window.
Keep playing, Pat, Anthonys father said softly.
Pat started again. He played Night and Day, but his eyes were sidewise on Dan 
Hollis, and he missed notes.
Dan stood in the middle of the room, holding the record. In his other hand he 
held a glass of brandy so hard his hand shook.
They were all looking at him.
Christ, he said again, and he made it sound like a dirty word. Reverend 
Younger, who had been talking with Mom and Aunt Amy by the dining-room door, 
said Christ, toobut he was using it in a prayer. His hands were clasped, and 
his eyes were closed.
John Sipich moved forward. Now, Dan. Its good for you to talk that way, but 
you dont want to talk too much, you know.
Dan shook off the hand Sipich put on his arm.
Cant even play my record, he said loudly. He looked down at the record, and 
then around at their faces. Oh, my God He threw the glassful of brandy 
against the wall. It splattered and ran down the wallpaper in streaks.
Some of the women gasped.
Dan, Sipich said in a whisper. Dan, cut it out.
Pat Reilly was playing Night and Day louder, to cover up the sounds of the 
talk. It wouldnt do any good, though, if Anthony was listening. Dan Hollis 
went over to the piano and stood by Pats shoulder, swaying a little. Pat, he 
said, dont play that. Play this. And he began to sing, softly, hoarsely, 
miserably, Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me . . .
Dan! Ethel Hollis screamed. She tried to run across the room to him. Mary 
Sipich grabbed her arm and held her back. Dan, Ethel screamed again, stop
My God, be quiet! hissed Mary Sipich, and pushed her toward one of the men, 
who put his hand over her mouth and held her still.
happy birthday, dear Danny, Dan sang, happy birthday to me! He stopped and 
looked down at Pat Reilly. Play it, Pat. Play it, so I can sing right. You know 
I cant carry a tune unless somebody plays it!
Pat Reilly put his hands on the keys and began Loverin a slow waltz tempo, 
the way Anthony liked it. Pats face was white. His hands fumbled.
Dan Hollis stared over at the dining-room door. At Anthonys mother, and at 
Anthonys father, who had gone to join her. You had him, he said. Tears 
gleamed on his cheeks as the candlelight caught them. You had to go and have 
him . . . He closed his eyes, and the tears squeezed out. He sang loudly, You 
are my sunshine . . . my only sunshine . . . you make me happy . . . when I am 
blue . . ."
Anthony came into the room.
Pat stopped playing. He froze. Everybody froze. The breeze rippled the curtains. 
Ethel Hollis couldnt even try to screamshe had fainted.
". . . please dont take my sunshine . . . away . . . Dans voice faltered into 
silence. His eyes widened. He put both hands out in front of him, the empty 
glass in one, the record in the other. He hiccuped and said, No
Bad man, Anthony said, and thought Dan Hollis into something like nothing 
anyone would have believed possible, and then he thought the thing into a grave 
deep, deep in the cornfield.
The glass and the record thumped on the rug. Neither broke.
Anthonys purple gaze went around the room.
Some of the people began mumbling. They all tried to smile. The sound of 
mumbling filled the room like a far-off approval. Out of the murmuring came one 
or two clear voices:
Oh, its a very good thing, said John Sipich.
A good thing, said Anthonys father, smiling. Hed had more practice in 
smiling than most of them. A wonderful thing.
Its swell . . . just swell, said Pat Reilly, tears leaking from eyes and 
nose, and he began to play the piano again, softly, his trembling hands feeling 
for Night and Day.
Anthony climbed up on top of the piano, and Pat played for two hours.
Afterward, they watched television. They all went into the front room, and lit 
just a few candles, and pulled up chairs around the set. It was a small-screen 
set, and they couldnt all sit close enough to it to see, but that didnt 
matter. They didnt even turn the set on. It wouldnt have worked anyway, there 
being no electricity in Peaksville.
They just sat silently, and watched the twisting, writhing shapes on the screen, 
and listened to the sounds that came out of the speaker, and none of them had 
any idea of what it was all about. They never did. It was always the same.
Its real nice, Aunt Amy said once, her pale eyes on the meaningless flickers 
and shadows. But I liked it a little better when there were cities outside and 
we could get real
Why, Amy! said Mom. Its good for you to say such a thing. Very good. But how 
can you mean it? Why, this television is much better than anything we ever used 
to get!
Yes, chimed in John Sipich. Its fine. Its the best show weve ever seen!
He sat on the couch with two other men, holding Ethel Hollis flat against the 
cushions, holding her arms and legs and putting their hands over her mouth so 
she couldnt start screaming again.
Its really good! he said again.
Mom looked out of the front window, across the darkened road, across Hendersons 
darkened wheat field to the vast, endless, gray nothingness in which the little 
village of Peaksville floated like a soulthe huge nothingness that was most 
evident at night, when Anthonys brassy day had gone.
It did no good to wonder where they wereno good at all. Peaksville was just 
someplace. Someplace away from the world. It was wherever it had been since that 
day three years ago when Anthony had crept from her womb and old Doc BatesGod 
rest himhad screamed and dropped him and tried to kill him, and Anthony had 
whined and done the thing. Had taken the village someplace. Or had destroyed the 
world and left only the village, nobody knew which.
It did no good to wonder about it. Nothing at all did any goodexcept to live as 
they must live. Must always, always live, if Anthony would let them.
These thoughts were dangerous, she thought.
She began to mumble. The others started mumbling, too. They had all been 
thinking, evidently.
The men on the couch whispered and whispered to Ethel Hollis, and when they took 
their hands away she mumbled, too.
While Anthony sat on top of the set and made television, they sat around and 
mumbled and watched the meaningless, flickering shapes far into the night.
Next day it snowed, and killed off half the crops but it was a good day.
 